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A FarewellDear Jonghyun,
The day of your departure, I woke up and a friend of mine was already in tears. But when I heard the news, I was in shock. I didn't cry all that first day because I had gone temporarily numb. But the next day, I started getting emotional. I lashed out at a friend and cried at work and tried to talk about it to people who asked me how I was. Most of them didn't know. My mother knew, because an article came up in our local newspaper and she recognized your group name.
I'm finding it difficult to deal with all of this. I'm not as avid of a SHINee fan as I once was, but I still loved you and still quietly supported you. I will never know the depths of your sadness and what drove you to the point of no return, but I know that you brought me so much joy while I knew you.
There is one picture of you that I have in my head. It is the picture I think of when your name is mentioned and it always has been. That moment on Hello Baby when your brothers surprised you for your birthday. The smile you had on your face when they came out and started singing was the most beautiful thing I have ever seen. I am sorry that we could not protect that smile, but I hope that you can smile like that more in heaven.
Bling Bling Jonghyun, I love you more than I knew I did. Your talent was an inspiration to me and I will never forget you. I am glad to have had a near decade with you. Maybe someday when I die, I can thank you for everything you have done.
You have done well.
Now rest well.
Sing in a better place now.
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