Chapter 75

4 years na pala ang nakalipas since I last saw Lisa. 4 long years without communication did a number on me. Syempre, it took a lot of effort from me not to pick up the phone and call her para kamustahin siya. Even after I found out na wala na sila ni Joohyun. I didn’t want to come off as nag iintay na mag break sila for me to make an entrance back into her life again.

If she wanted to reach out to me, after all that we’ve been through, she’ll reach out right? I actually waited. For her to call me, to text me, or kahit man lang i-like ang posts ko sa facebook or instagram. To feel her presence, to know na somehow, she still exist. But I guess masyado akong nag expect.

Who was I kidding? This life was never a fairytale. I’ve realized that fact when she left. When she didn’t come back to me and when she found someone else. Kaya naman when I found an escape route, I took it whole-heartedly. I left the country and found a great job sa SoKor with Moonbyul and Solar.

You’d think, makikita ko ulit si Seulgi madalas dito because dito rin siya based. Pero since fisherwoman ang peg niya, nag relocate ang family business nila sa Jeju kung saan malawak ang katubigan. Sa four years ko dito, dalawang beses palang kami nagkita ni Seulgi. The first one was nung bago akong dating dito and the second one was before they moved to Jeju and no, hindi kami nagkaroon ng something to get back to our ex girlfriends. If anything, pareho lang kaming may mga bagay na pinang hihinayangan.

Nung magusap kami, she was still in pain and so I was. But our difference is that, I chose to open myself into further possibilities nab aka naman talaga hindi kami talaga para ni Lisa sa isa’t isa and that I should be open to dating anyone when I feel like it’s time to date na. Meanwhile, Seulgi is stuck.  Hang up kay Joohyun and sa mga past mistakes niya sa relationship nila. I can’t tell her what to do, obviously pero I’ve given her a fair share of advise that might help her or not. Either way, I was a friend to her as always.

Kahit naman hindi kami naging sobrang close talaga like her and Lisa, she’s still a friend. Yun nga lang, wala naman akong balak i-date siya like what happened with Lisa and Joohyun. Truth be told, I never got over the fact na naging sila. Maybe I was able to tolerate it, kasi siya yung pinili but I don’t think I was ever okay with it deep inside. Who iin the right mind would be naman kasi?

Kahit may pinagsamahan kami ni Joohyun, it just never occurred to me na mangyayari yun. I guess when it comes to this thing called love, there’s just no repercussions, no limits and no stopping. But then, I’ve heard from Solar nga na wala na si Joohyun and Lisa. From what I heard, si Joohyun ang nakipag hiwalay but I never knew the reason why. Do I have to? It’s not important anymore. Basta wala na sila. The debt has been paid. *smirk*

Back to what I was saying earlier, when I found out, I expected na Lisa would reach out to me again but it never happened. Maybe just like me, she need