Chapter 47

  We’re two weeks away from graduation. Natapos na ang grad pics, yearbook entries at clearance from school. We’re two weeks away from facing the final step of our college life. Two weeks away from the end this part of our lives. Two weeks away from facing the world of adulthood. Two weeks away before everything becomes a memory. Two weeks away from losing my only connection left with you. This school.

These days, itong school nalang ang nag uugnay sa ating dalawa. I know we didn’t really have the typical closure. Everything about us remained an open door, because you never really closed yours sa akin. I still had hope. Sabi nila Wendy, I’m stupid for waiting. Maybe. Pero, what do I do? It’s you. I can’t just throw away what I had with you.

Magkaiba tayo. I know for a fact na eventually, baka maging kayo rin ni Joohyun. Masakit, di ko naman tinatanggi. It pains me everytime makikita ko kayong magkasamang masaya. Although, kahit pa you tried to be subtle about whatever you guys have, it shows. You’re happy.

Naisip ko tuloy, If I ever made you feel that way noong tayo pa. Did I ever make you smile the way you smile at her? I can’t even remember. Ampangit lang sa feeling na parang I wasn’t able to give you that. And now, she’s giving it to you. Funny how the world works isn’t it? Parang kahapon lang, friends pa kaming lahat. Seulgi and Joohyun were the perfect couple, while Lisa and I were the dysfunctional one pero the love we have for each other is incomparible.

But now, Seulgi isn’t with Joohyun. I’m not with Lisa pero, they’re the ones that ended up together. I didn’t even know Joohyun and Seulgi were having problems until the truth came out that time sa parking.  I didn’t want to relive that moment pero it was such a shock to the point na, binalikbalikan ko sa isip ko ang mga nangyari para maintindihan kung paano, saan at bakit nangyari  yung mga bagay that I thought would never happen in my wildest dreams.

It was so abrupt. I didn’t have time to absorb anything until after Lisa and I talked kasi sobrang daming nangyari. I felt my life was on fast forward that time. I found out na nagkadevelopan na pala si Joohyun and Lisa, then I found out about the kiss, then naghiwalay si Seul and Joohyun and then I felt so ing threatened to the point na I came out to my parents, tapos the talk happened. All of that in less than 24 hours, and now I’m here, alone, umaasa na sana it wouldn’t take five years for Lisa to realize na ako talaga ang mahal niya. Na babalik siya sakin, and that she’d tell me na kalimutan nalang ang lahat so that we can start again. Na pwede na kami ulit because It’s always been me. Wishful thinking lang naman. Slight.—

Every graduating student from different courses is required to attend the annual graduation night. Parang gathering slash send off party lang before nila kami itapon sa  real world. I really don’t plan on goin