Chapter 14

Ever since makita kong kasali si Tzuyu sa D2k, I just knew I had to register din. There’s no way para magkaron pa sila ng interaction ni Lisa. Especially after nung mga sinabi niya that night nung mag usap kami.

*Flashback*

Nung pumunta si Lisa sa CR, I’ve decided to talk to Tzuyu. Kasi, I don’t get why she’s here kung sinabi ni Lisa na nag usap na sila. She obviously knows Lisa is already taken and it’s not a secret na nagkaroon sila ng something before I’ve decided to confront my feelings and follow my heart. “Can we talk?” I asked Tzuyu. “Sure.” Walang imik ang mga kaibigan namin when Tzuyu and I stepped out of the dorm. Mabuti nalang din at no one bothered to come in between us.

“Anong ginagawa mo dito?” I asked her. “What do you mean? I got invited so, andito ako.” Sagot niya. “I know that. But you also know na place to ni Lisa. Didn’t she tell you may girlfriend na siya?” Tanong ko. Tumawa naman siya and this irritated me even more. Hindi ko alam kung anong gusto niyang patunayan sa pag punta dito.

“She did. Pero diba, dito rin naman nakatira si Jisoo? Hindi ko naman aagawin girlfriend mo sayo unless, siya yung lumapit sakin then that’s not my problem anymore.” Sabi mo.

Gusto kong burahin yang mukha mo kasi you’re obviously taunting the out of me. “You stay the hell away from my girlfriend and my friends.” Sagot ko. “Jen, c’mon, you and I both know na wala kang karapatan sabihin sakin kung anong dapat kong gawin. I didn’t know you were this territorial. Baka si Lisa ang dapat mong kausapin tungkol diyan because as far as I remember, hindi tayo friends and I didn’t come here for you.” Sagot mo.

“So, sinong pinunta mo dito? Kasi as far as I know, you aren’t really that close with my friends. Pinakikisamahan ka nila because they knew you and Lisa used to have a thing. Plus, hindi pa alam ni Jisoo na kami na ni Lisa that’s why she invited you. Pero ikaw, alam mo and yet, pumayag ka parin and you still have the audacity to come here? Anong gusto mong mangyari?” I asked her.

At this point, it took every bit of me para makapag pigil. I wanted to be as civil as possible at ayoko ring maging bastos pero she is making it hard for me to do that.

“You know what, since we’re already being honest here, nagpunta ako dito in hopes na makausap si Lisa. If you didn’t know, our conversation didn’t end kanina. We weren’t okay and I came here to tell her na I changed my mind. Na if you hurt her, I’m still going to be her library buddy open for whatever she offers.” Sabi niya and I was already seeing red sa mga lumabas sa bibig niya.

“Anong library buddy yang sinasabi mo, are you that desperate?” Tinanong ko siya. “I’m not, but I know she can do better than you.” Sabi niya. “So you think you’re better than me?” I asked her sarcastically. “Of course I am. Let me remind you na I’m not one to leave boyfriends in an instant after a week or two of dating. I don’t toy with other people’s feelings. Plus, I can’t believe you didn’t realize na matagal ng head over heels sayo yung best friend mo. Gano kaba ka manhid? Now that you’re realizing that you’re beginning to lose her, gigirlfriendin mo? Now tell me, sinong desperate sating dalawa?” Sabi niya sakin.  Gusto kong manabunot. I wanted to wipe that smirk off her face pero bakit nasaktan ako sa mga sinabi niya?

Is it because partly, that was true? Na manhid ako? Na all these time, I was torturing Lisa when I had boyfriends? Everytime I cried for someone else, she was there, not realizing, she was also suffering for me? Galit ako. Galit ako sa sarili ko for being this way. It’s also true na narealize kong nawawala na sakin si Lisa but it doesn’t mean na hindi ko siya mahal.

I just realized na yung mga tingin niya before sakin, nagiging tingin niya na rin  kay Tzuyu in a short period of time and that’s what alarmed me. I knew siya yung tipong pwedeng pwedeng mahalin ni Lisa and I couldn’t accept that. I had to make a choice and I chose to follow my heart and come clean because I didn’t want to lose my best friend and the person I realized I love more than I thought.

“You know nothing about me. So wag kang mag assume na alam mo lahat ng ginagawa ko.” Sagot k okay Tzuyu. “True, I don’t. But I know the you’ve put Lisa through. Didn’t you know, kahapon lang, sinabi niya saking ready na siyang kalimutan ka, na ayaw na niya? Kasi hindi ka na nya kayang mahalin. She couldn’t stand seeing you with someone else at the same time maging kaibigan mo. You wrecked her for a long time. She doubted herself a lot because of you. Sobrang galing ng timing mo.” Sagot niya sakin and I’ve already had enough of her bull.

“I think it’s time for you to leave, hindi ka kailangan dito.” I told her. “Yeah, sure I’ll leave pero ingatan mo girlfriend mo. Kayang kaya ko siyang bawiin sayo.” Sagot niya and without goodbyes, she left at dun natapos ang usapan namin.

*End of flashback*

When we finally reached the activity area kasama ni Lisa, I remembered lahat ng pinag usapan naming that night. Na ready na si Lisa na mag move on and that was because of Tzuyu. Naisip ko what if I didn’t have the courage back then? Baka nga tuluyan ng nawala sakin si Lisa and that’d be the biggest regret I’ll ever have kaya ngayong we’re already in a relationship, and now that someone’s there threatening to ruin it, I won’t let that happen. It can’t happen.

When the event spectator arrived to announce the start of the contest, Nagsimula na kami ni Joohyun mag prepare. I have my design with me na. It’s all about creating the actual material na susuotin niya today. I was distracted while doing so and napansin naman ni Joohyun ang distracted self ko. “Huy baks, ok ka lang ba?” Tanong niya sakin. “Ay sorry. Yes, okay lang.” Sagot ko naman

“Hoy, don’t take me for a fool. Anong problema mo? We can’t go on like this. Baka matalo tayo.” Sabi sakin ni Joohyun. “Hindi tayo matatalo no. We have to win. Alam mo bang isa sa judge dito si Tal?” Sabi k okay Joohyun at lumaki naman ang mga mata nito. “Ha? Bakit ngayon mo lang sinabi? Tangina, Jennie. Matatalo tayo.” Sagot naman ni Joohyun.

“Hindi nga tayo matatalo. I wont let Tzuyu win this contest. Saka Judge naman din si Lisa saka si Joy. Kaya it’s not only up to Krystal kung sino mananalo. Kaya you have to ing rock this mamaya pag rumampa ka na.” Sabi ko naman kay Joohyun.

“Ano ba kasing issue m okay Tzuyu, wala naman na something sakanila ni Lisa, saka saglit lang naman yun.” Tanong ni Joohyun. Wala narin akong rason para itago ang pinag usapan naming dahil isa si Joohyun sa mga taong pinaka trusted ko. “Unnie, sabi niya sakin, Lisa can do better than me da