Chapter 52

I couldn’t be wrong. I knew si Tzuyu yung nakita namin sa home décor area. But then again, what is she doing here? Sobrang layo na sa uni ng podium. Unless, malapit lang dito yung house ng parents niya. Wala akong idea. Could be coincidence though, yun nga lang out of all the places, dito pa kami nagkita, she didn’t even turn around when I called her.

I can’t exactly blame her, sobrang dami ba namang nangyari during the last few months naming sa uni. I would’ve done the same and avoid the out of me too. That’s what she did exactly. After ng mga nangyari, the news spread like wildfire sa school, hindi naman din kasi exactly sa private area nangyari yung confrontation kundi sa parking lot where there were people na nakatambay din. So obviously, maraming nakakita.

If you remember,sa mga kwento ko before, marami talagang ganap sa parking lot. Dati, halos puro BSTM students lang ang nag aaway away dahil sa lalaki at taga nuod naman kami dahil mga tambay kami don, not really expecting na hindi rin pala kami makakalusot sa sumpa ng parking. Anyways, back to present, Hindi ko naman pwedeng sundan si Tzuyu because first, I’m with Joohyun. Second, I’m with Joohyun and third, you don’t want to see Joohyun mad.

“Di mo susundan?” Tanong ni Joohyun. “Hindi na, umalis naman na.” Sabi ko sakanya. “kung hindi siya umalis, kakausapin mo?” She asked. “I mean, I don’t know, maybe not. Siya naman umiwas satin.” I explained. “For your information, hindi satin. Sayo lang.” She muttered. “Dami ka girls eh, type ka parin nun.” She said and I laughed.

“Tara na, get mo na yang curtain na gusto mo.” I said as I wrap my arms around her waist. “Tapos ngayon ok na sayo yung gusto ko. Galing mo talaga mag pa ikot.” She said and I smiled. “Konti lang. did it work?” Tanong ko naman sakanya. “Konti lang din, pero sa bahay na tayo kumain, I’ll cook.” Sabi niya naman. “Pwede bang ikaw nalang kainin ko?” I jokingly asked. “Ulol, landi mo. Wag ako.” Sabi niya naman sakin. “Edi iba nalang kakainin ko.” Sabi ko naman sakanya. Napikon si gaga at kinuha ang wallet ko papuntang counter. Sinundan ko naman siya.

“Joke lang. sige luto ka.” Sabi ko sakanya. “Smile kana, cute ka pag nakasmile.” Sabi ko naman while playing with her hair and she couldn’t help but smile narin. “Nakakainis ka.” Sabi niya sakin. “Malapit na nag five though, magpapalit pako ng ilaw. You can cook habang nagpapalit ako ng ilaw.” Sabi ko naman and she agreed.

Nung makauwi na kami ng bahay, Joohyun and I did our own thing. She cooked and nagpaikot ikot ako sa bahay para magpalit ng ilaw. Inuna ko na ang madadali to get it over with bago ako nag unscrew ng mga putang inang maliliit na ilaw.

“Do you think it’s a good idea to do a house warming?” Tanong sakin ni Joohyun. “I’m not sure. Do you think pupunta sila?” I asked. “I don’t know.” Sabi naman ni Joohyun. It’s true na nagkaayos naman na ang lahat before we graduated but I can’t say things were still the same samin. The truth is, everything changed. Baka hindi narin talaga bumalik sa dati kasi parang wala naman sakanila ang may gustong makipag hang out sa amin. The evil couple ika nga. I felt bad because Joohyun didn’t have many friends to begin with.

Not many people interact with her kasi she doesn’t get a long with people quite well. If anything, Jennie was her best friend too. They got a long so well and now, they’re strangers who want nothing to do with each other. At least Jennie. I don’t think nakapag usap sila ni Jennie sa gradball and sa actual graduation namin. I know, saying yung friendship nila. It’s because of the choice we’ve made.

I know, pareho naman kaming grown woman ni Joohyun, but somehow, I felt responsible sa mga nangyari samin. What if I didn’t push my feelings for her? Baka things would have been different, baka okay pa kaming lahat. But the thing is, magiging masaya ba ako? Magiging masaya ba siya? It’s so selfish to think of our own happiness habang may mga nasaktan kaming tao.

Then again, I couldn’t help it. I felt responsible for Joohyun. I felt so ing responsible for everything and I have to own it up. “Invite whoever you want to invite babe, this is your home now.” Sabi ko naman sakanya. “Our home.” Sabi niya naman. “Yes, ours.” I answered and looked into her eyes. Hindi ko alam until when I’m going to have this feeling. Yung tipong cloud 9 effect. I’m actually scared na baka temporary lang to.

Na baka isang araw, magising nalang siya tapos marealize niyang hindi pala worth it ang lahat. O ako yung magising sa katotohanan na we can’t always have what we want. Here I go again, overthinking and over analysing everything. I don’t think I can ever change this habit of mine.

Pano naman kasi, everytime something good happens to me, lagi nalang may negative na nangyayari after. Lapitin nga siguro ako ng malas. This time I’m really hoping na its not the case.

NIlapitan ko si Joohyun at niyakap ng mahigpit while burying my face on the crook of her neck. Amoy lavender. No wonder, gusto niya talaga yung amoy ng fabric conditioner na binili naming kanina. The scent was made for this beautiful woman. She held my arm, nagtataka why I’m hugging her all of a sudden.

“Why?” She asked. “Wala lang. gusto ko lang. bango mo.” I said and chuckled. “Joohyun.” I whispered her name and then kissed her temple. “This will be our life now. I can’t wait to build a future with you.”  Sabi ko sakanya and she turns around and wraps her arms around me. “Lis?” She asked and looked up at me. “Hm?” Sagot ko sakanya. “I know, I’m not exactly perfect. I can be tough to deal with, I have mood swings but I hope you’ll stick around.” Sabi niya naman sakin. “I want to stick around. I hope you’ll let me.” Sabi ko naman sakanya.

“I’m already letting you.” Sabi niya naman sakin and I kissed her nose. “Pagkatapos natin mag ayos dito, punta nalang tayo Batangas ulit. Ayain natin sila Wannie baka gusto nilang sumama.” I said and she beamed. “Talaga?” She asked and I nodded. “If hindi sila pwede, tayong dalawa nalang.” Sabi ko naman sakanya. “Si Jen, hindi pa kami nakakapag usap Lis. Hindi man lang ako nakapag sorry sakanya.” Joohyun said and hindi ko rin alam ang sasabihin ko. Jennie is a sensitive subject between the two of us as much as Seulgi is. It’s not unknown naman kung anong mga nangyari.  We were all friends before went down.

Pano mo nga ba malalaman if things will still go back to the way it used to be? Time? Babalik pa nga bas a dati? May mga bagay din kasi na kahit anong pilit mong ayusin, will never be the same again. “Maybe now is not the right time, I think its best if we give her space. Ayokong ipamukha sakanya that we’re together Joohyun, it doesn’t fee