Chapter 32

TZUYU

Lisa came into my life unexpectedly. Ever since that incident at the library, things have never been the same to me. To be honest, she’s easy to talk to. Madalas, parang may sariling mundo nga lang but we just clicked so well. Kaya nga imagine my disappointment when I found out na sila na pala ni Jennie before things got even serious between her and I.

I can’t really blame her. She’s so in love with Jennie and siguro nga, If I was in her shoes, I’d choose the girl I’ve always been in love with over a new romance. I’m not stupid. I know how things work. Pero after that, there’s just that part where I feel like somehow, I needed to protect Lisa. We talked a lot about sa lovelife niya. I listened and realized na she’s not really the type to complain a lot. She gives everything to a point na isasacrifice niya yung own happiness niya for the sake of the person she loves.

Kaya when Jennie and I first met, I felt protective over Lisa. I meant what I said to Jennie before. But at the same time, I’m not one to sacrifice everything for love. Sabi nga sila, kung para sayo, para sayo. Kung hindi, wag mong ipilit. I still tried to be Lisa’s friend kahit ayaw sakin ni Jennie back then. I understand. I really do. Ikaw ba naman, will you let your girlfriend be friends with someone she almost had a future with? Protect whats yours type of thing.

I didn’t blame Jennie one bit sa mga nangyari sakanila ni Lisa. It’s life as we know it. Not everything is picture perfect and meron talagang mga bagay na we have no control of. Things will happen and we either learn from it, avoid it or do better next time. In the end, it’s all about the things that you realize. Kung san ka nagkamali, kung ano ang dapat mong gawin at kung anong dapat mong tigilan.

When Jennie and Lisa broke up, I heard their conversation sa labas ng dorm. Hindi naman kasi ganun kalakihan yung area not to hear anything most especially kapag may umiiyak sa labas, you cant help but be curious.I felt bad. For Lisa, for Jennie, for their situation. It’s not fair for two people who are obviously in love to go through something like that.

I should be happy right? Kasi, hindi na sila. Pero I’m not like that at all. Hindi naman ako yung tipong mag jujump out of nowhere to take advantage of the situation just because. I know what I’ve said before. Na kaya kong bawiin si Lisa kay Jennie. I probably can pero there’s no way I’m playing dirty lalo na ngayon, Jennie and I are actually okay.

We’ve settled our differences and I realized she’s really not that bad. She was mad at me because of Lisa and that was understandable. Although she admitted naging petty siya towards me, I kind of get it. I get why she acted the way she did. I would’ve probably done the same if I was in her position. I don’t know, never been there so I wouldn’t know.

All I know now though is that I care for Lisa. Be it as a friend or more than that, I knew I should be here for her. She’s still vulnerable. I almost took advantage of it when I told her that she and I should date. I knew she wasn’t thinking kasi she agreed. That’s not how she is. Especially now na alam ko she still loves Jennie.

Sabi nga nila, people do stupid things when they’re desperate. Sa case ni Lisa, she was desperate not to hurt anymore kaya she was willi