EPILOGUE

Sabi sa isang article sa eHarmony, In unconditional love, satisfaction comes from putting someone else first and prioritizing their happiness with no expectation of reward for yourself. Experts agree that this is only possible if you first practice unconditional love with yourself: if you know you’re worthy of love and see value in yourself, you won’t be dependent on your partner for your sense of self-worth.

Sa four years naming magkahiwalay ni Lisa, I’ve learned the value of self-love. Sa tingin ko, I’ll never be able to love myself the way I do now, if things didn’t happen. I guess, in a way, yung mga nangyari four years ago was necessary for me to realize that I deserve the right kind of love. That I shouldn’t settle for less and that I should fight for it.

Kasi before I came out, takot ako sa mga sasabihin ng ibang tao, most especially my parents. I was afraid to face who I truly am, afraid of the judgement and afraid na baka mag iba sa akin ang tingin ng parents ko If I were to admit that I’m in love with a woman. Because it was far from ideal. It was far from the so-called normal. But I should have known na kahit ano pa ang mangyari, my parents will always love me. Even if I was a little different from the rest.

Siyempre, things got rough when I came out. Hindi naging madali sakanila ang pag tanggap sa uality ko. But eventually, they came around and continued to love me. Kahit pa sobrang strong ng beliefs ng dad ko when it comes to starting a family and that love should only be between a man and a woman, he still accepted me. There were regrets of course, maybe because I was too young to make such permanent decisions pero it was something I’m still thankful na nangyari.

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