Hoku’s POV…

I was rushed to the hospital after our encounter with Trang, she died. I couldn’t get that scene or her words out of my mind the entire time they were stitching me up. I felt guilty all of a sudden that someone had lost their life because of us, because of me. What did I do? Every time I shut my eyes the scene would replay in my mind, over and over again, the blood, her scream, her mangled and chopped body. It was like some bad horror movie but real, right in front of my eyes.

“Ma’am?” A voice called as I opened my eyes to see the doctor standing next to my bed. I had been released out of the emergency room a few hours ago, and here I was sitting in a hospital bed, again, covered in bandages, leg in a cast. She had cut through some important muscle and tissue from my understanding. I looked up to the elder man as he looked down at me concerned.

“The NYPD is here to speak with you.” He mentioned as I looked away before nodding. I had lost all my will to speak or even care about anything anymore. I didn’t want any more of this in my life, I wanted it back to the way it was before I left to Korea. That’s all I wanted, my normal life back. He let them in as they took a seat around me, I slowly turned my head to them as they smiled. Was I supposed to smile back?

“Ma’am, I’m Detective Sparks and this is Detective Marshall, we’re here from the NYPD. Could we ask you a couple questions?” he asked as I blinked annoyed towards him before slowly nodding.

“The others that were involved outside have already told us what happened, but as every case we need to get everyone’s story to make sure we have received every spot of information possible.” He explained as I just continued to stare at him. They went through what Jiyong had obviously told them, then what info the other members could tell before I nodded in agreement.

“Is there anything else you would like to tell us?” They asked as I shook my head.

“Did you collect the video camera that was in that room?” I asked finally speaking as they looked to me surprised.

“The man, Donghae was planning on videotaping the woman killing Jiyong. The video camera documented everything.” I explained uncaring before looking back out the window.

“Thank you ma’am, we will do just that. If you remember anything else, please don’t hesitate to call us.” They mentioned placing one of their business cards onto my uninjured leg before leaving. I sighed annoyed, kicking the card onto the floor before a pair of feet walked in. I looked up to see a young girl, must be a nurse walk in with a tray of food. She placed it onto the mobile table before bringing it over to my side.

“There is a man on the phone wanting to speak to you.” She spoke as I looked at her hesitantly.

“Who is he?” I asked as she looked around in though before she turned to me in realization.

“He said his name is YG.” She answered as I sighed, pressing the button to lift the bed high enough for me to be comfortable and still reach the phone. I picked up the phone before putting it to my unwrapped ear.

“Hello?” I spoke into the phone.

“Omo, Hoku-ah! What happened? Are you ok?!” He immediately shouted causing me to smile at his concerned tone.

“I’m fine sir, just out of surgery.” I whispered before he sighed.

“Hoku-ah, I am truly sorry about this all happening and to someone like you.” He mentioned almost sounding as if he was in tears.

“It’s alright sir, it’s not like any of this was planned on our part.” I added back before he sighed.

“I’m catching the first flight out of Incheon right now.” He answered as I leaned back in my bed.

“If you need anything, and I mean, anything. You let me know alright?” he asked as I nodded.

“There is one thing I would like to ask of you.” I whispered looking out the window.

“Yes, yes, anything.” He quickly said as I looked down to my bandage hand.

“I want to resign from the company.” I whispered hearing the quietness on the line grow.

“Are you sure?” He asked this time now sounding hurt.

“Yes sir, I think it’s for the best that I leave my job as coordinator and publicist.” I answered back to him.

“Hoku-ah, you are an incredible person and worker, one of the best I have seen in years. It hurts me to have to let you go.” He spoke with her professional tone.

“It’s alright sir, I give full ride of the fan club to the girls and you sir.” I added already in tears, I was giving up the one thing I had worked so hard for, but I wanted no connections there anymore.

“Are you sure about that? You could still work from your home.” He pointed out as I sighed, sniffling a bit.

“Sir, I’ll be fine, I think it’s best for me to distance myself as far as possible.” I answered before he sighed.

“What about Jiyong?” He then asked causing my heart to break even more.

“He’ll move on without me, I’m not the only woman in the world. He’ll fall in love again, I know it.” I whispered before YG grew quiet.

“Jiyong loves you more than life itself.” He whispered as I put a hand on my chest, feeling my heart painfully thumping.

“He loves you more than his music, something none of us thought was possible. You mean the world to him.” He added before I sniffled one last time.

“I can’t anymore sir, I’m sorry.” I whispered before quickly hanging up. I couldn’t do this anymore.

Jiyong’s POV…

They had stitched up my arm and now we were all waiting in the waiting room of the hospital for them to let us into Hoku’s room.

“What the hell is taking them so long?” I whined bouncing my leg some more before feeling an hand on my shoulder. I looked over quickly to see Youngbae looking at me concerned.

“Calm down, we already know she’s ok.” Hyung mentioned as I turned to him and sighed before nodding. We waited and waited, asking every doctor that came our way if we could see her, they all told us the same thing. She was still under. Finally a nurse came out causing us all to stand up.

“I’m looking for Tyra Salsbury, Eden Ortiz, Stephanie Choi and Selena Fearing.” She spoke as we all turned to the girls who stepped over towards her.

“Can you follow me?” She asked them as they nodded.

“Wait! What about us?” I asked as she shook her head, gesturing to the seats for us to wait.

“What the hell?” Daesung cursed taking a seat as we watched the girls disappear down the hall.

Hoku’s POV…

Even if I was planning on cutting connections I needed to tell my friends first. I had asked the nurses to keep the guys out of my room and to go and fetch the girls, which they did.

“Hoku?” A voice called into the room as I pressed the button to help me sit up.
“Come in!” I called around the curtain as I heard the footsteps approach. The moment they came around the corner I smiled while they broke out in tears.

“Oh my god, are you ok?” Tyra shouted running over to hug me carefully causing me to smile.

“I’m fine, totally fine.” I said suddenly cheerful accepting the hugs and get well flowers they had brought in.

“Why did you only call for us?” Steph asked as I asked them to take a seat on the various seats in the room.

“I wanted to talk to you four.” I mentioned looking down to my hands nervous.

“Hoku, why are you talking like that? You sound like you’re never going to see us again.” Eden forcefully joked while I looked up now in tears.

“Hoku, what’s going on?” Selena asked hesitant from my side.

“I’m not going back to Korea.” I whispered while they looked at me like I had grown a 3^rd head.

“What-Why?” Eden about shouted as I bit my lip holding in the cries.

“I can’t go back.” I whispered in shame.

“Who said you can’t?! That’s bull !” Tyra shouted as I flinched in surprise.

“No one said I can’t, I’m saying I don’t want to .” I whispered before she took a seat back in her chair just staring at me.

“But what about Jiyo…” Steph started before I shook my head not letting her finish.

“I’m finished with everything.” I whispered as they all broke out in tears.

“What are you talking about?” Selena said through tears as I sniffled.

“This last encounter made me realize that this type of relationship isn’t healthy for either of us.” I mentioned truthfully while they cried.

“You all need to go back to Korea with the guys, I gave my resignation to YG already.” I explained watching as they cried

“Girls take good care of the club alright.” I mentioned watching them walk out of the room away from me. I knew I had hurt them but it was for the best.

Jiyong’s POV…

“LET ME SEE HER!” I shouted at the top of my lungs being held by the members. The doctor had just told me that Hoku didn’t want anyone in her room anymore. We saw the way the girls came out in tears, they didn’t even look at us once before walking out the main doors of the hospital.
“Sir, calm down. It was at the request of the patient.” The nurse explained as my heart broke.

“YOU’RE LYING! LET HER TELL ME THAT!” I shouted in tears now trying to fight the guys off, seeing the security was being called, they were going to me out anyways. I did something I never thought I could, I practically hit my members, then took off down the hallway.

“HOKU! HOKU!” I shouted checking each name on the door before finally landing on hers. I ran in and locked the door behind me before dashing into see her surprised expression.

“What are you doing here?” she whispered on the verge of crying. I smiled at her, walking over before hugging her carefully.

“I’m so glad you’re ok.” I whispered kissing the side of her face before pulling away to see an expression I wasn’t used to seeing.

“Hoku? What’s wrong?” I asked hesitantly reaching for her good hand only to have it slapped away.

“Jiyong, you need to leave.’ She whispered never looking at me as I stared at her confused.

“W-what? Why?” I asked in a shaky voice.

“GD, it’s over between us so can you just leave me alone.” She whined as my heart dropped into my stomach along with the banging on the locked door.

“No, we’re not over. You can’t say that after everything that has happened between us!!” I shouted at her in tears seeing the tears falling from her eyes and onto the blanket on her lap.

“Jiyong, I can’t anymore. I’m tired of being hurt, I’m tired of being in the hospital! JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!” She shouted as I took a step back in surprise, holding my chest.

“No, you don’t mean that.” I begged before she turned away from me.

“GD, please leave me alone, and don’t come back.” She whispered as the door opened showing security. They dragged me out of the room and out of the hospital and for once I didn’t fight back. There was no reason, she didn’t want me, she hated me, and I didn’t know why, but I did know that it hurt me more than death itself. What did I do?

Hoku’s POV…

I cried after they took him from my room, the look on his face was something I hoped I wouldn’t remember. That was the last time I saw any of them. Through the weeks that followed, I was now healing at home on crutches. I barely spoke to anyone, the girls kept in touch through text and email which I was a bit hesitant at first, but what was I going to do, they were my best friends. A few weeks after leaving, I followed my mom to the doctors where they were going to take my cast off and check out my other injuries.

“You nervous?” My mother asked me before I shook my head.

“No, why would I?” I asked confused causing her to smile. They set me up, asking my mother to leave the room before doing a physical examination of all my injuries. If you saw me now, you would seriously think I was living in an abusive home, thanks to the unlimited number of scars and bruises I had collected.

“Also doctor, she’s been feeling sick for the last couple days, could we check on that also?” My mother asked once I had met her without a cast and only a leg brace.

“Alright, Hoku come with me.” The doctor asked as I nodded and wobbled to keep up with her.

“I’m just going to do a urine test and a simple blood test, then we’ll see what’s up.” The doctor informed as I nodded doing as told before walking out to sit with my mom.

“How are you feeling today?” She asked as I sighed.

“My stomach is rumbling.” I teased rubbing it before she sighed.

“You eat but throw it up moments later. You’re wasting all that lovely food I’m putting in you.” She whined causing me to chuckle.

“Hoku Fernandez.” The nurse called as I looked up and followed her down the hallway with my mom.

“Have a seat.” The doctor gestured as both myself and my mom took a seat next to each other.

“Is there something wrong Doctor?” My mother asked worried before she sighed and handed me a sheet of paper.

“See for yourself.” The Doctor informed as I looked down to see a certain area of the form filled out with Positive checked next to it. Both our eyes shot open before I looked to the Doctor.

“I’m……….” I whispered. Oh god….

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Thank you everyone who has stuck to my story through the months! As promised I have posted the SEQUEL to the story, check it out here!

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