Seoul, South Korea – October 13, 2016

PARK SOOYEON

      I stared at my bedroom’s ceiling as tears started to fall from eyes. I’ve been like this ever since Kai shouted at me during my cat fight with Jiyeon. His words echoed inside of my head for the past days. It was haunting me and I couldn’t do anything but to cry it out but even after days of crying, my heart was still aching. I couldn’t get rid of the constant pain inside my heart whenever I think of Kai. I couldn’t eat or sleep properly and all I could do was cry. It’s just really painful to see the man you love be with someone else, being happy together… laughing together. I would always think of the phrase, “That should be me,”. Right now, I just want to turn back time and get back with Kai.

      “Sooyeon?” I was snapped out of my trance when my bedroom door opened, revealing the only fortress I had for the past days of my hell.

      “Minho,” I called, my voice hoarse from all the crying.

      He smiled sadly as he went close to me and sat beside my bed. I sat down as I grabbed my legs into my chest.

      “It has been days, Sooyeon.” He muttered but tears just flowed from my eyes like raindrops.

      “I know but the pain isn’t going away.” I cried, trying hard not to stutter but miserably failed.

      “It won’t now because it’s too early but trust me,” he smiled as he placed his hands on my shoulders, “It will get better with time.”

      “I don’t think so,” I sighed, “I feel like this heart ache will go on for the rest of my life… it feels like it will never go away.” I muttered.

      “Listen Sooyeon,” he exclaimed as he cupped both my cheeks, “Pain is not permanent, soon… that pain will go numb, and that pain will change into something wonderful. This pain will mend you but it won’t break you.” He smiled, “But you know, the only thing that’s permanent in this world is change. And with time, your heart will change…”

      I smiled softly as I nodded, but it doesn’t mean that I agree with what he said. I nodded to acknowledge. It’s really easy to say all those things but it’s really hard to do. After I broke up with Kai… I thought everything would be fine after some time but it didn’t. Everytime I see Kai and Jiyeon, my heart just breaks all over again. Seeing Kai smiling without me, it just feels so painful. Sometimes I would even feel like, I don’t want Kai to be happy unless it is with me. I would sometimes think that he doesn’t deserve happiness while I’m here, sulking. I’m terrible, I know but you can’t blame me for having those thoughts. I would always feel the pain in my heart while he’s there, being happy—it just feels unfair.

      “I don’t know anymore Minho,” I whispered, “It just feels so unfair.”

      “Life is unfair, Sooyeon. It’s the harsh truth but you just need to keep up with it.” He exclaimed, “Come on, your mom told me that you haven’t eaten anything for the whole day yet.” He muttered, “I’ve brought your favorite Chinese food.”

      “I’m not hungry,” I answered as I looked away but Minho just shook his head.

      “Well, I guess I will just eat all of those by myself.” He muttered as he stood up, about to leave my room but then, I called his name.

      “Minho,” I called.

      He turned to me, smiling, “Yes?” he asked.

      “I’m eating with you.” I whispered and Minho just nodded.

      Minho held my hand as we went downstairs. We went straight to the dining room and was welcomed by a warm hug from my mom.

      “Minho brought you some Chinese food, come on. I also baked your favorite cheesecake.”

      “Thank you mom,” I smiled and she just nodded.

      We ate altogether and when we were finished, I asked Minho to go with me to the mall because I didn’t want to sulk inside my room any longer. I’m having headaches whenever I cry and I don’t want that anymore.

      “Sure, let’s go,” he smiled, “I was actually going to ask you to go with me to the park tonight but let’s go to the mall first.” He exclaimed.

      “Okay then,” I smiled back.

      We went to the nearest mall and just decided to walk around and casually look into stores whenever I feel like it. I decided to just shop today because I want to take my head off of Kai. I went inside a boutique and searched for some dress that I would like.

      “So you’re going to shop?” Minho asked, “I better get myself prepared,” he kid because he knows well that it takes me forever to choose my clothes but he’s accustomed to that already and he understands me.

      “Yup, and if you want, you can also shop with me.” I smiled.

      I was rummaging through the racks when I heard two familiar voices just a couple space away from me.

      “You look good in everything that you wear, plus you have dozens of great dresses in your closet.” A man’s voice exclaimed.

      I took a peek and just what I expected, I saw Kai and Jiyeon shopping together. I knew from the moment I heard their voice that it was them but I still peeked and confirmed it. This act only had my heart break.

      “No, but I have been eyeing this dress for a while now.” she muttered as she swirls in a beautiful pink dress.

      “Sooyeon?” I was brought back to reality when Minho called me.

      “Let’s leave,” I exclaimed as I dragged him out of the shop.

      “Wait, I thought—“ I quickly cut him off and lashed out in anger.

      “I said, let’s leave!” I shouted as we got outside the store.

      “Sooyeon,” he called, surprised.

      “Why can’t they leave me alone?!” I exclaimed as tears started to fall from my eyes, “I went here to forget about them and now, they ing show themselves up!” I cried, “Can’t they give me a break?” I asked as Minho pulled me into a hug.

      “Hush now,” he hummed.

      “It hurts so much Minho,” I cried out, “It just hurts.” I muttered.

      Minho just held me as I cried into his arms. People started looking at us so we decided to leave and when we were alone, I cried harder and Minho just held me tighter. He rubbed my back, telling me sweet nothings until I was exhausted and decided to go back home. The whole day was the same—me, crying and hurting.

Seoul, South Korea – October 18, 2016

LEE JIYEON | AYAKA

      It has been days since Kai and I became official. I already told my sister and Seojoon-oppa about it but I haven’t said the great news to my parents and my brother and I’m planning on telling it to them on my next visit to Japan. I’ll be asking Kai to go with me so we can deliver the news together, it’s nerve-wrecking, really but I know that we can pull this off. It has been days too since Kai and Sehun fought and it wasn’t really nice because the two of them are avoiding each other but Sehun is the one who usually eats separate from us and I kind of miss him. I haven’t talked to Sehun yet because I don’t really know what to say, especially that I don’t really know the whole story so I’m still thinking of how I could approach Sehun. But right now, I’m just really nervous for what is in store for me tonight. The Kim’s are having a dinner tonight with their complete family and Kai wanted me to go with him—which I think is absurd, but the man says otherwise. He said that he will finally tell his parents about us and about all of our lies so I couldn’t do anything but to go with him because we’re in this together.

      “Babe, are you done?” Kai knocked from the other side of my door.

      “The door’s open, babe.” I muttered, not answering his question.

      Kai opened the door and came inside the room. I looked at him and smiled as soon as I saw him. He was wearing a beautiful light blue long sleeve with matching black slacks. He looked dazzling in his clothes and I couldn’t help but to be swept off my feet when I saw him smile.

      “Is my babe ready?” he asked and I couldn’t help but to laugh at him.

      He was acting cool and all, and it was really funny.

      “Ready as I’ll ever be,” I laughed back.

      “You look beautiful,” he smiled as he went closer to me.

      I was wearing a simple white dress and white stilletos to go with it. When Kai reached my place, I helped him fix his polo and smiled nervously.

      “I’m scared,” I muttered.

      Kai smiled as he cupped my cheeks, “My parents will love you and accept you just like how they welcomed you last time.” He assured me but I shook my head.

      “I’m not talking about them,” I exclaimed, “I meant your sisters.” I told him and he just laughed.

      “You don’t need to worry about my sisters, they’ll love you because I will make them.” He smiled, “Now, get your head up and smiled, okay?” he muttered as he kissed my forehead.

      I couldn’t help but to smile. Kai just have that effect on me—that when he says that it’s going to be fine, I feel like it will really going to fine. He’s like my anchor and I love him for that.

      “I love you, babe.” I muttered as I hugged him tight.

      Kai hugged me back and kissed my head again, “I love you too.”

      We were on our way inside their house and I couldn’t help but to grip unto his arms tightly as we walk inside. I’m really nervous not because of meeting his parents again but I’m afraid of how they’ll take our lies. I’m much nervous right now more than the first time that I met them. I just pray that eeverything will go well tonight.

      “Are you okay babe?” Kai asked and I just gave him a nervous smile, to where Kai responded with a tap on my hand, assuring me.

      We went inside the house and were welcomed by Kai’s mom.

      “Oh, who do we have here?” she smiled, “Jiyeon dear,” she muttered as she pulled me into a hug.

      “Good evening auntie,” I smiled as I hugged her back.

      “I didn’t know that you’ll be here tonight but nonetheless, come in.” she smiled and I just smiled back.

      We went inside the dinner room and before I could even sit down, a loud voice bombarded through my ears.

      “What the heck is she doing here?!”

      This is what I’m talking about.

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