Chapter 85
It was horrible!
I stood desperately in front of the mirror in my room because I didn't know what to wear. I would meet Donghae in some time and I wasn't ready though there were only about 15 minutes left. I hated being stressed.
A skirt or jeans? A normal one or a destroyed one? A blouse or a t-shirt, or a top?
I was totally overcharged with the situation. Would it be more like a date so that I should wear something finer or prettier or was it more a meeting of friends that didn't need some special clothing?
Questions over questions and there was so less time!
Okay, I just chose the pragmatic solution. Something normal but a bit chicer… Well, I hoped it looked like that…
I had a look on my watch. Only one minute left. So I grabbed my bag and my cell phone and ran out of the room to the elevator which would take me downstairs to the entrance hall where I wanted to meet Donghae.  
Briefly before the doors opened I had a last look on my watch. Exactly five o'clock. I was in time. The doors opened and the warm light of the wonderful summer day flow into the little room of the elevator. I got off and look around hoping to see Donghae-oppa in the wide room where many people –guests and staff- were.
"Daesang!", I heard just a second after I had get off the elevator and saw a brightly smiling face near the entrance door of the hotel. Like everytime seeing Donghae smile it made me smile, too and we went towards each other.
"You look beautiful!", he said while giving me a familiar tight hug.
"Thanks", I said a little shy and smiled at him. His eyes were sparkling and expressing this special eye-smile that was the only one in the world the way he had it.
"You're fine?", he asked and I nodded.
"Yeah." His smile got even brighter.
"So you're ready for going with me?"
"Sure", I answered and so he took my hand, put on his sunglasses and we went out the hotel on the streets of Osaka. The sunlight of this day was a warm yellow one that let you feel a pleasant warmth on your skin.
"So, what will we do today?", I asked him while walking down the pavement.
"Ah, that's still a surprise", he said grinning at me. "You'll see. I prepared something."
He prepared something, I thought and wondered what it would be. We talked about this and that but most time he talked and I just listened like I preferred. He told me funny stories and jokes and we laughed a lot so that I didn't look for the way and suddenly found myself in front of a little market. Donghae noticed my surprised face and laughed.
"Well, that's not the surprise", he laughed. "I just have to take something for the surprise."
We went through the market and suddenly stopped at a little stand where an old woman stood selling fruits and vegetable.
"Oh you are here again, young man", she said in a friendly voice. I was surprised, she spoke Korean and not Japanese.
"Hello", Donghae greeted her and introduced me.
"It's really nice to meet you", the old lady said smiling friendly. Then she turned again to Donghae.
"This is really a pretty young girl. Listen to my advice: Keep her! There will be other who want your position!"
I noticed that I blushed a little. Donghae just laughed and thanked for the advice.
"So, where is my basket?", he asked then.
"Right here, don't worry." The woman handed him a wooden basket. There were things in it but I couldn't see what it was because there was a tissue over it which covered the things.
"What is it?", I asked curiously.
"You'll see", Donghae grinned and we said good-bye to the nice woman before going on.
Now I was really curious about that we would do and what Oppa had prepared. We did a short walk until we arrived at a park.
"Please wait here a little", Donghae said. "I'll be back shortly. And don't speak to strangers!", he added while he disappeared in the park.  
Time passed –I didn't look on my watch- and I wondered what he was doing. I hand something in mind but I wasn't sure if it really fit.
Finally Donghae came back still smiling like he did the whole day.
"You're ready?", I asked. He nodded.
"Please close your eyes", he said "I want to the keep the surprise a surprise as long as possible. " I laughed, nodded and closed my eyes.
Donghae guided me somewhere. I heard little branches cracking under my feet and felt little stone on which I stepped but I didn't trip over something or fall. Donghae was careful and guided me safely through the nature, park whatever you wanna call it.  
The he stopped and I stood still, too.
"Have we arrived?", I asked and felt a little like a kid which asked its parents on the way to a journey.
"Yes," Donghae answered. "You can open your eyes."
It looked more like a forest than a park when I opened my eyes. All around us were high and big trees which had to be hundreds of years old. The grass we stood on was green like I never had seen such a beautiful grass before. Here and there you would see some little flowers between all the green. Different sounds of birds sounded and the hums of insects around us. I think at best you could compare it to the landscapes of the wonderful anime movies like 'Princess Mononoke'. It looked like I had imagined an old Japanese mystical forest. It was even more overwhelming than I had imagined.
In the middle between four old trees that was a little cover on the grass. The basket stood next to it and on the cover there was some food.
Donghae looked meaningful at me. He wanted to know what I thought about it. My mouth was still open. I couldn't believe that I was at such a place.
"You like it?", Donghae asked.
"You ask if I like it? Of course! This is… unbelievable!" I looked at him and saw the confidence in his eyes. "Thanks." I didn't know what I other I should say. Donghae just smiled, took my hand again and brought me to the cover.
"Then enjoy it", he said, sitting down next to me.
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Time had passed fast. Donghae leant with his back against one of those beautiful trees, one arm around me. My head was placed on his shoulder. We just sat like that. I didn't know for how long and how long we wanted to keep the silence but it didn't matter. The silence wasn't an awkward one and like it was right now everything was okay. I wished that I could stay here, right here in the forest, forever. This moment should last for eternity.
I felt that Donghae moved a little and his head was on my head. I felt his breathe moving my hair a bit.
"Daesang", he said somewhen. I totally had lost my feeling for time.
"Yes", I answered. I heard him sighing before he continued speaking.
"What shall we do?"
I thought about his question. I knew that it was not meant the way what we should do next but what our relationship should look like.
"You, you know what I think about… it?", I asked. I felt that he nodded.
"Yes. And I understand it."
Silence. I didn't know what to answer to that.
It felt wrong to think about Donghae and me in a love-relationship. But think about hurting his feelings by rejecting him felt even worse.
"You know that I like you… And… it's because I'll leave in a week… A relationship with such a distance is not promised to stay."
"Even if you were on the moon I would love you… I love you, Daesang."
He had said those words I feared on the one hand and on the other hand they made me feel good… happy… beloved… I snuggled up to him. My head was on his chest. I heard his heartbeat and the moving by every breath. Donghae my hair and placed a kiss on it.
"Donghae, I'm sorry, but I'm too much a realist… Please forgive me."
I heard a quite laugh.
"How could I be mad at you."