Chapter 76
During the TV show I lay on the sofa and slept. Minho had told me to do so and after he had asked the manager if it was okay that I would sleep –because I said that I had to ask him first- I was somehow thankful for Minho's care. Taemin joined him caring about me and that was absolutely not what I had imagined. I hated it that the boys were worrying about me. I heard Taemin and Minho speaking about what I had told Minho and when suddenly Key joined he became person number three worrying about me. For me it was like a miracle that I was able to sleep a bit. And though it was only a little bit I felt relaxed and fit after it. The TV show wasn't over yet so I kept lying on the sofa with my headphones of my iPod in my ears.
I thought about what Minho had adviced me before. I should not spend too much time thinking about what to do and just live on. In his opinion I would find the right thing to do because of my 'cleverness' like he called it. I sighed and took out my Blackberry. I noticed that there was a text from Heechul. Another male person who worried about me. I wrote back and said that I was feeling more or less fine. That was the truth. Then suddenly 'Insa' sounded and I knew that JaeJoong was phoning me. We talked; well mostly he talked like always. I wasn't a person who talked much, especially on phone. I preferred more listening to what people were saying to me. Of course he noticed as well that I wasn't fine in a way and I had to tell me. I didn't have a problem with that but repeating this story over and over again let it sound more ridiculous and crazy.
After the call I closed my eyes again. It was so stupid. I hated myself, the situation and everything I could think of.

In the evening when we returned from our trip today we were informed that there would be another room for us. We decided that the Minho and Onew would get that room. Don't ask me why. Onew suggested it like that and everyone was fine with that.
After dinner we sat in the bar of the hotel and were talking about the next days. Tomorrow would be a free day for us. Yes, for us. SHINee had planned that we six would go and visit the city of Hong Kong. I was really excited. When I asked the manager if it was okay like that me just nodded and said that tomorrow would be no work, not for him and not for us.
I was the first who wanted to go to bed. I wished everyone a good night and was already on my way to the lift when Jonghyun joined me.
"You wanna go to bed already?", I asked surprised. He shrugged.
"It's more that I want to talk to you alone." He grinned.
"What is it?", I asked having already something in my mind.
"The boys told me about…, you know", he said. He was normally not the guy who was good at talking about feeling and such things. "They told because I was worried, we all were worried. Please don't be mad, okay?" I had to smile.
"Can you tell me how I could be mad at you? You're quite meddling with your worrying faces and sorrowful voices but you are my friends." Now he was the one that smiled.
"I just wanted to offer you help, if there is anything I can do for you." He looked smooth at me.
"Thanks. That's really nice of you."
"I still have to revenge myself for … you know the thing with my ex-girlfriend."
"You don't have to revenge yourself, really Jonghyun-oppa."
"But I want to." There was a grin on his face that was so unique.
I noticed that we stood in front of the door of Taemin's and mine room.
"I wish you sweet dreams and a relaxing sleep", Jonghyun said before he left and gave me a tight hug.
"Thank you, oppa. Good night."

The next day was without any doubts and bad moods. It was one of those day I will remember even when I would be 80 years old. The guys had been before here in Hong Kong and so they showed me around, just a bit because they didn't know that much.
During the day Key and Onew both offered me support and help because of 'this thing', like they called it, including an advice of Onew. He said I should listen to my heart, or just do what my guts or feeling or whatever wants me to do. He added that I should once just turn off the logistic and reality-wanting part of my brain. But the way he explained it to me made, was better than I did. Though you could call it a little speech it was fun to listen to it. I really enjoyed it because of its cuteness and the weird and crazy explanations and comparisons. I hadn't laughed so much and so hard for a long time. It was wonderful and I was really happy about having such caring and sweet friends.