After returning to school the Monday after, you couldn't help but continuously play the events of Baek's party over and over again in your head. The way he acted. There was a spark of life in him when he got your present, and it only made it more obvious when he chose your present over Taeyeon's.

Something had changed in his tone. In the way he looked at you and smiled. Just everything he did that night.

But then again, you could be overthinking things and overanalyzing. Maybe it was nothing.

You convinced yourself firmly, but the thought of how sincere he sounded was itching at the back of your mind, and you knew it would only be a matter of time before the thought emerged again.

You groaned inwardly before slamming your head on the cafeteria table.

"Yah. What are you blanking out into outer space for. You seemed really deep in thought there."

You heard the familiar lisp of your favorite maknae, but you were too brain fried to even look up at him.

Sehun sat down beside you at your table while the other girls didn't pay much attention to the maknae, since they were too busy in their own conversations.

"What's going on?" Sehun asked flatly. You could feel his heavy gaze on you but you couldn't lift your head.

"Mmshocunfyusedightnawuh.MOLA!" Your voice was muffled by the table, but he definitely heard the last part.

"What exactly are you confused about- Can you look at me?" Sehun tapped your shoulder with his brows furrowed.

"YAH. Oh Sehun. Manners." You glared at the younger with an equally angry expression. It stayed that way with both you and Sehun staring each other down to see who gave up first.

Both of you eventually ended up bursting out in chuckles and let the dispute go.

"But seriously. What's going on with you?"

"I don't really know, that's the thing. I'm confused. I mean, you'd think after almost 2 years it would all disappear, but no. It never disappeared and I don't think I realized it till now."

Your sudden babble caught Sehun slightly off guard since he really had no clue what you were talking about. You were semi-ly talking to yourself for some reason, but after really thinking about what you had said, Sehun put two and two together.

"So what are you gunna do?" He said firmly with a fixed gaze on you.

"Huh? You understood what I was talking about?" Your eyes simply looked at him in shock.

He gave you a knowing smile and one nod in response.

"I don't know?... I'll let it go, no need to hang on to something that's way past expiration right?"

"It depends? Sometimes things last even when you don't realize it. And I honestly think your relationship has no expiration date, you just haven't considered restarting it."

You blinked at Sehun several times in silence, until he finally spoke up looking at you weirdly.

"What?"

"Since when has Oh Sehun been so wise about this stuff?"

"Ever since you and hyung happened. I feel like I gained new knowledge just from watching you two over the past few years."

"Really?!"

"No.. I just watch too many dramas." He began to giggle until he finally cried out in pain when you whacked him in the head.

"Aish! This boy." You shook your head at him and stood up from the seat. You grabbed your bag and got ready to leave, but Chinji called out to you.

"Hey Jin, we have practice after school, meet you there?"

"Yeah." You nodded, already beginning to walk away.

"OH! AND YOU HAVE A CHECK-UP AFTERWARDS!" She yelled as you walked away.

You turned around and glared at her. You put your finger to your lips and signaled for her to stay quiet.

She mouthed a quick 'sorry' before smiling and waving goodbye.

"You have a check-up?" You heard another male voice coming from behind you and immediately recognized it again.

"Mmm, I have to go get my shoulder checked."

"Can I come?" Ryeowook walked beside you at the same pace you were walking. He honestly looked like he really wanted to accompany you.

He was after all, one of the only ones who really got to see your true injury.

He was there at the amusement park with you when the incident happened. He pretty much knew the extent of your injury but you didn't want him to see how worse it had become.

"Look, it's not that I don't want you to come, I just don't want to you see it.. It probably still looks gross." You laughed it off hoping he wouldn't ask again.

"You know what? I shouldn't have even asked, let me rephrase that huh? I'm coming with you, no objections or buts." He smiled angelically at you and you couldn't help but playfully roll your eyes. He really was like the best friend you could have ever asked for who wasn't entwined with your past. It felt nice to be in his company. He only knew you for your good qualities and never looked for the bad in you. You really needed someone like that, and there Ryeowook was.

To other people, the sight of you two walking so close together with you laughing as Ryeowook smiled eagerly and sweetly at you, may have come off as the two of you dating, and although that was the ultimate goal in the beginning, the plan was soon forgotten. But it sure wasn't ignored by lingering eyes that watched your every move.

Baekhyun looked away with a pained look on his face.

She still can't get the hints I've been giving her?? Cmon Jin.. Please.

"So where are we going?" Ryeowook asked as you were walking.

"I just needed fresh air for a second to think of what exactly is going through my head I guess.."

"And what exactly is going through your head?"

"Maybe Baek really hasn't gotten over me.." You were already lost in your own thoughts that you barely realized Ryeowook had stopped walking.

"Ryeowook?" You turned to see him frozen in place.

"Uhh, Yeah sorry, I blanked out for a second." He walked up to you and looked you dead in the eye, "But are you sure about that?"

"No.. But for some reason, I still have this gut feeling about him and it hasn't gone away since the party."

"Why?"

"Huh?"

"Why??" He pushed the question on you further, but you still had no clue.

"Why what?"

"I just don't get how you could still feel something for an like him who just dumps you on the side of the road for Taeyeon. He doesn't even seem happy. I just don't understand why you still hang on!"

You took a moment to take in Ryeowook's outburst, completely shocked by it.

"I don't know!" You had the urge to yell back and it just so happened to come out that way.

"Oh come on Yejin! You know! You just keep telling yourself that you don't!"

"Do you know what it feels like to be left alone while the person you love is loving someone else?!"

Ryeowook's expression saddened at your words and you realized his angry aura had disappeared so that all was left was a vulnerable and hurt guy standing in front of you.

"Yeah. I do."

"So  what did you do?" Your tone softened.

"I.. moved on." He swallowed hard and you looked at you with a perplexing expression that you couldn't decipher.

"But what if I can't do that? What if I'm still clinging on to the hope that maybe, just maybe, he still feels the way I do?"

"Then you trust that he can tell you exactly how he feels when you ask."

"Trust me, I've tried a hundred times, and all he can say is 'I can't tell you'.."

"Has he ever said that he didn't love you anymore?"

His words stunned you, and when you thought about it, you realized.

"No.. He hasn't."

Ryeowook smiled at you and you smiled back, "Thanks Ryeowook."

"No problem."

You had somehow come to a silent conclusion with him, and you didn't need much of an explanation to understand what was going on, between the two of you.

The bell rang at that moment and that was your que to go.

"Well, I have practice right now, so I'll see you maybe 6 at the hospital?"

"Yeah, I'll be there!"

"Alright, well good luck on whoever this girl is who fell for someone else, your a great guy Ryeowook, really." You waved at him before running off.

"Yeah.. Thanks." He heaved a small sigh before turning around and walking away.

Practice ensued after school, and all of you met up in the practice rooms to get ready. 

"We're all coming with you to the hospital after right?" Eunbae asked you while stretching her arms over her head.

"I mean, if you want. It's gotten worse and gross, so I'm not sure if you really want to see it." You chuckled but Chinji only glared at you.

"It got worse?"

"Yeah.. It bruises a lot more easily but I mean, I still have to practice right?"

"Jin! This isn't funny." Chinji gave you a worried glance, "If it gets any deeper, you'll be paralyzed from your shoulder, down. It's not something you can take lightly."

"That's if it gets any deeper, and it hasn't. I've been taking my meds carefully, and I'm being safe. Going through that surgery can make my arm paralyzed too you know."

"So what? You wait until you absolutely need surgery to the point where you really might be permanently paralyzed??"

"No, but I'm not risking it just yet. We only debuted last year! I'm not ready to take chances yet."

"I'm pretty sure that we agreed last year that after promotions, you were going to get that surgery." Chinji squinted her eyes at you.

"We got really busy, I forgot about it, and besides, I didn't see a need to have the surgery anymore, I haven't been in any real accidents since then and I'm really careful now!"

"We need to get to work." Chaeri finally cut off the conversation.

"Yeah, we should really start now, that way we can get to the hospital sooner." Ahmi cheerily added.

"Alright alright let's get to work." Chinji ushered the four of you back to your formation and your practice ensued.

Hours and hours of you dancing and practicing to different songs, the fatigue was starting to get to you. 

Sweat covered you from head to toe and you had a hard time breathing all of a sudden.

Even if you didn't have a new comeback coming up, you all still worked hard to practice for endless hours each week.

But you had never been this weak during practice before.

"Wait wait...." You keeled over and waved your hand up sluggishly. Your breaths were getting shallower as you had one hand on your knee.

"Break time I guess?" Chaeri shrugged and walked over to her bag to retrieve a water bottle.

"Hey, water?" Chinji tried to hand you a water bottle, but for some reason, your arm felt like it wouldn't listen to your brain to reach out and grab it from her.

Maybe I'm just really tired. Yeah. That's it.

You shook your head briefly, trying to wake yourself up a little bit, but it didn't seem to do much. In fact it only made you feel dizzier. The world seemed to freeze in time and you couldn't think straight. What was happening to you? You've never been this tired just from practice. But then.. You were feeling a numbness that was spreading throughout you. You struggled to stay conscious but it finally hit you like a tidal wave.

No way.

Panic was starting to creep up your throat, but your body felt frozen.

"Hey, are you alright?"

"I-" Your knees suddenly caved in as you collapsed on the floor, still conscious.

"Jin!" You were flat on your back, just staring at the ceiling.

The fear and panic had finally reached you.

And you knew exactly what was going on.

"Jin, are you alright?!?!" Chinji was screaming at you but you could only stare at the ceiling with wide eyes. She was right next to you, yet her voice seemed strangely distant. You were stuck in the moment and you felt numb.

"Jin, can you hear me?!" She touched your left arm, and your suspicions were confirmed.

"I can hear." You mumbled softly.

NO. NO NO NO.

Your eyes fluttered and before you knew it, you felt hard tears blur your vision.

"Jin what's wrong?!" Everyone surrounded you in a circle.

"I-.... I can't feel my arm."

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A/N:

Omygosh. I don't even know where I found the time to update. It's been sooo busy.

It's like the end of the school year and finals, and tests, and AP tests. I feel like I have no time to update :(

BUT I WILL FINISH THIS STORY NO MATTER WHAT. 

<3<3 I apologize so much for my absence for more than a month. I AM REALLLLY SORRY.

I will try my best to at least update every few weeks, but it's the end of the year, so I hope you can all understand :/

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