Her Clouded Heart

Love Was My Mistake

So I sat in the car waiting to arrive at a destination we were unaware of. After a few seconds of complicated thinking, I couldn’t help but notice how big the car was.

“…this is the family car?” I asked jaejoong.
“one of it, yeah” he answered.
“you mean… theres more??”
“mmm…” he nodded. “this one is mine and there are two other ones… one for hyunjoong and another for my parents…”
“… its so spacious… its like a living room with wheels...”
“for about half a million dollars a piece it better be like that…”
“half… a… million??...omo! that’s… $1.5 million for three cars!...”
“yeah? So?”
“never mind…you’ve probably lived this way since you were born…”
“we’re here” the driver announced.
“oh joy…”

First destination of the day was picking out invitations. We walked in and were immediately greeted by the workers and bought us to a room. The lady laid out the invitations and once we picked one, we moved onto the next place. We were then bought to a highly recommend restaurant for the catering. We were served a bunch of samples and desserts and cakes that took up the entire day because we had a lot to go through.

“couldn’t we have skipped all this and say that we went to this?” I whispered over to jaejoong.
“… why didn’t you say anything before??” he angrily whispered back.
“I just thought of it…”
“well too late now we went through everything already.”

Lastly was the gown choosing and fitting.

“im tired…” I whined going into the fitting room for the millionth time… at least that’s what it feels like. “how do I choose from so many beautiful dresses?” I asked changing.

Then after a few minutes later, I came out and caught the attention of the room and jaejoong.

“what do you think?...” I asked hiking the dress up and walking out.
“uh… y-yeah…”he nodded.
“this one?...” I said looking in the mirrors.
“this is the one!...” the sales lady said helping me straighten out the dress at the bottom.
“its kinda… loose…” I said to the lady as jaejoong got a call.

I felt a little sad knowing that he left the room but then the thought of us not really getting married popped into mind and the feeling just went away. When he came back, I already changed out the dress and back into my regular clothes.

“hey…” he said coming back into the room. “that was sooyoung, I have to go…you can take the car home cause she’s coming to pick  me up.”
“yeah… sure…” I said getting up and leaving the room without anything else to say.

Authors POV

After ______ left in the car, jaejoong waited around for sooyoung to pick him up to go have dinner with her mother at their usual restaurant.

“hey honey… how was your day?” she asked.
“it was good…”
“I didn’t see you today at work… I missed you so much!... how was the day with that poor loser?”
“it was okay… not the best day…” he lied remembering the image of her in that last dress before he walked out.
“I knew it… I don’t know why you’re going along with this..”
“im doing it for us…” he said holding her hand.
“but when you marry her… is there still going to be an ‘us’?”
“the ceremony isn’t going to be real… we’re just making look like we’re getting married for my parents to believe us. We’ll figure out a way to get out of this marriage thing…”
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“hyunwoo yah!!!” ________ shouted bursting in through the front door then closing it.
“wae???! What happened?? are you hurt??” he shouted running towards his friend.
“yes! Im hurt!”
“where??” he asked looking at her.
“my heart!”

Now lying flat on her bed and hyunwoo sitting beside it, he couldn’t help but question her.

“are you saying… you love him?..”
“I don’t know… not love, its more like a strong like…”
“but… you cant like someone who already has a girlfriend…”
“I know!...what should I do?... and because of this wedding thing… im gonna have to see him everyday for the preparations and during work.”
“… so why not just cut the wedding?”
“I want to but I don’t want to hurt his parents…”
“…if you hold it out any longer… wouldn’t you be hurting them more than you already are?”
“that’s right… aaaahhhhh! What should I do??” she cried rolling .
“the _______ I know would set this straight and fix it…that’s how her grandpa taught her..”
“your right hyunwoo yah… I cant do this anymore…if I keep going like this… I might actually end up… falling for him… this cant do…” she said shooting up from her bed.
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“welcome home honey…where’s jaejoong?” jaejoongs mom greeted with a hug.
“eomeoni?...there’s something that I have to tell you…is dad around too?”
“of course he is…he’s in the study…”
“I would like to speak to you both please….”
“sure sweetie, let’s go.” She said leading me to his office.

When we walked inside, we sat down on the couch as jaejoong’s dad sat at his desk.

“eomeoni… abeoji… I have something really important to tell you… but before I start, I would like to say that I am truly sorry for dragging it out so long until now.”
“…what is it?”
“… jaejoong and I aren’t…together… or wanted to get married.”
“what did you say?” his dad asked.
“jaejoong and I… don’t love each other…we did it to make you guys happy…”
“but he said that you guys were having a baby because of that night you guys spent together…”
“no sir…that was just a misunderstanding. Please don’t blame jaejoong alone… I also took part in it. I went along with whatever jaejoong said. I understand if your angry or furious with me… im an truly and deeply sorry for tricking you like this…I also understand if you want to fire me from the company if that’s what you want to do…I fully understand…” I said with my head hung  in shame.
“no…” jaejoong’s dad uttered. “im not gonna fire you… work and personal matters shouldn’t have been mixed in the first palce…and im sorry too since I accused you guys of doing something you didn’t…”
“ahniyo!... its okay… anyone would have misunderstood it if they saw it…”
“… thank you for owing up your responsibility…” jaejoong’s mom said as I slightly bowed to her. “where is he anyway?...”
“im not too sure exactly… but he told me that sooyoung was picking him up”

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Authors pov
 

“Jaejoong-aaahhh!!!” his mother yelled over the phone. “you!...where are you??”
“… im having dinner mom… whats wrong?? why are you screaming at me??”
“ohhh!... dinner?... with whom??”
“with my wife ______ of course. Waeyo?”
“you sleazy little liar!... ______ was just here! And she came to tell us big new too!”
“o-oh…she was?...” he said now feeling nervous. “what did she say?”
“she told us that the whole ‘we want to get married’ thing was a lie!”
“whaaat??? She went over to tell you guys that??”
“yah… you… our own son… lied to us when ______, someone elses child came and told us the truth…I am ashamed of you…”
“…now that you know… I can still come home right??” jaejoong questioned when his mother ended the call.

 

“______.... you, what the hell has gotten into you??...” he angrily whispered to himself before returning back to dinner with sooyoung and her mother. “honey… eomeoni… im sorry but I have to go… something important came up…”
“do you need me to go with you?” soo young asked.
“no its okay… minor problem…” jaejoong told her taking out his wallet.
“its alright… I got the bill…” sooyoung’s mother smiled.
“please….let me…” jaejoong smiled back taking care of the bill, bid his farewell and left.

“works everytime…” sooyoungs mother said evilly grinning. “my beautiful daughter… this one is a keeper… with the money he makes and his family fortune… it can take care of us for decades…”
“once I marry him, I wont have to work another day in my life…” sooyoung grinned finishing her meal.

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“______!!!” jaejoong shouted banging on her apartment door. “______!!!! Open this door right now!! What the hell did you do?? Come out and talk to me!!” he continued to shout when the door swung open.
“yah… do you know what time it is?? Keep it down!” hyunwoo warned coming out.
“where is ______?? I need to talk to her.”
“…she’s not home…”
“not home?...where did she go?”
“I don’t know… I haven’t seen her all day today…now if you will please excuse me, Im going to sleep…” hyunwoo said closing the door as jaejoong stood there.

 

Truth was ______ was home, she was in her bedroom quietly crying to herself with all the frustration she had and the thought of jaejoong might possibly hating her for what she had just done without letting him know.

 

“Chingu-yah… he’s gone…” hyunwoo came in and sat down next to her.
“thanks hyunwoo oppa…” she sniffled as tears still fell.

“ theres no reason for you to cry over this guy… so what if you did the right thing and told his parents?... don’t you feel a little bit better with that burden lifted from your shoulders?...” he asked as she lightly nodded.
“he’s going to hate me for what I did…”
“whether he’s going to hate you or like you… he should be thanking you because now… he can be with his girlfriend without his parents breathing down his back.”
“yeah… but I cant stop my hear from liking him…”
“then… you just need to find someone else…”
“im going to see him tomorrow at work… how do I stop that?...”
“… then don’t go to work tomorrow…stay home and say that your sick…and you should also be happy that chairman kim didn’t fire you for lying to him…”
“would have been better if he did… so I wouldn’t have to face any of the kims tomorrow…” she said as she thought of an idea.

__________

 

Next day, chaerin received a call from _____ and told her that ______ wasn’t coming to work today. So chaerin informed president kim and he was okay with it. Instead of going to work, ______ is taking this time to go back to her village and have a nice proper visit with her grandpa and uncle james.

In three hours, she reached her home and bursted inside and ran around looking for her grandpa, hoping he didn’t leave for work yet.

 

“grandpa!!” she shouted knocking on his bedroom door. “your granddaughter is here and I bought you delicious food I promised last time!!” she shouted faking her happiness.
“ohh? You’re here?” he said barely waking up.
“grandpa!~ get up! How can you be sleeping when the sun is already up??... I bought fooooood!~”
“uugggh…” he groaned plopping back down on his pillow.
“and soju!~”
“lets party!” he shot up and headed towards the bathroom.
“ill wait for you in the kitchen!” she shouted leaving his room. “…now… where is uncle james?” she wondered going to the kitchen.

 

From a few feet away, she heard humming and singing and when she poked out from behind the corner, she also saw uncle james dancing while doing the dishes.

 

“your mah heart heart heart heart heartbreaker!” he sang dancing not noticing ______ watching from behind with her arms crossed as she caught his mistake.
“uncle james!!” she then shouted startling him.
“miss _______!”
“you forgot a dance move!” she said showing him.
“ohhhh! I knew it was that one!... your still a very good dancer _______”
“thanks uncle… anyway… I bought food for us from seoul… and soju. Grandpa’s brushing his teeth right now so come join us when your done…” she smiled.

“gladly miss!” uncle james smiled.

 

She enjoyed her breakfast with her grandpa and uncle james but of course like everyday, they had to go to work. Instead of uncle james driving, _______ insisted on driving. So arriving at the store, everyone happily greeted her left and right remember how much everyone liked her here. She gave out hugs to the employees and some customers who knew her and the kids who loved her. Indeed, she was like a celebrity in her own town expect the difference is she isn’t famous.

 

“hey sweetie, ill see you in the office okay? Enjoy your time with the kids.” Grandpa said before walking upstairs to his office with uncle james.
“alright grandpa… see you in a bit then…” she waved.
“ _______! We’re so happy to see you again!” nana said clinging on to her arm.
“thought you forgot about us after that day you gave you those papers…” another employee said laughing.
“of course not… how can I forget you guys?... we’re practically family!” she laughed as others joined her.

 

But all laughter and happiness came to a halt when they saw a tall figure dressed in a suit with dark shades walk in. ______ turned around and looked at that figure.

 

“you… what are you doing here?...” she asked as they stood in silence staring at each other. 

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Angelz0715 #1
Chapter 77: Still loving this story so much ^_^
gemmymars #2
Chapter 77: Kyaaa~~ this story is so good~!! This is too cute^^ I really enjoyed reading it, you did an awesome job authornim~^^
Keahun #3
Chapter 77: live jj fanfic , thanks .
Angelz0715 #4
Chapter 77: The story is really good ^^ I love it! The ending was so unexpected haha xD But it's still awesome :)
biniben #5
Chapter 75: welcome back
biniben #6
Chapter 73: wow.... please update soon
_DyNaR_
#7
Chapter 69: aigoo...aigoo...such a cute boyfriend..<3
thanks for the update dear^^
cherryaizawa #8
Chapter 69: ouw jaejoong you so caring iloveu.thx to update authorssi.i like it. ^^
_DyNaR_
#9
Chapter 68: Get well soon dear,,thx for the update;)
cherryaizawa #10
Chapter 68: its ok i will always wait your story.thx to update.i really love it.^^