Anxiety of Love

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Warning: The characters might be out-of-character a bit so plz don't mind it much. Everyone is the same age. 

 

 


Looking back, maybe it was out of selfish reasons that I have asked him out. I have always been comfortable to be label as one of the guys, and yet whenever our arms touch, my whole body would tingle with feelings of excitement. It was the first time that I have ever felt this way. I knew that it wouldn't work, of course, but in my heart, I secretly did hope that it would.

Being one of the guys was easy. All I have to do was be myself, and yet the sight of him have always set my heart on fire and made my body stiff unconsciously. I blamed it on the poor guy, because there was obviously no other explanation for this phenomenon.

That is, of course, until Soojung had to ruin it.

"You likes him, Am. That feeling is so obviously love" she rolled her eyes at him as she spat out the words that, I deemed, the end of the world.

"You think so?" I had asked back so casually. It was stupid of me to even have hope of him ever looking at me that way. Or thinking of me that way. I mean, it wasn't right.

"Well duh." she looked at me, blowing on her freshly painted nails. "You should ask him out. It'll do you some good to actually get your woman's on. It was bound to happen anyway." she smiled innnocently.

And that was that.

The next morning, I had pulled him off to the side early in the morning. I had asked, saying something along the line of 'an experiment that will end when one of us fall in love for real.' I had once again push my selfish reasons onto something that shouldn't have been it. It was cruel of me to do this when I knew that any event of us breaking up or when we have small bickering moments, our friends would have to take side.

Hence...

 

"Hey, let's keep it a secret. We can tell our closest friends, but no one else. That way when we actually break up, it wouldn't be such a big deal. And we can also tell them to say that we're single!" 

My brilliant mastermind was my downfall.

 

 

"Hey Amber." He had come up to me with a smile, hands waving excitedly.

Raising my eyebrow in surprise, I reckoned this moment to be weird. "What are you doing here? Didn't you bring your own lunch?" I questioned.

"Ah, I did. But is it so wrong to help my chingu get rid of her boredom?" he wiggled his eyebrow suggestively. Looking up, I rolled my eyes at his sarcastic comment, but that was when I first noticed the unusual event.

Yoochun wasn't looking at me at all. In fact, the only sign of us actually knowing each other was when we talked, but otherwise...

Glancing behind me with my peripheral vision, I knew instantly who was there.

Only the most popular girl in the whole entire school, Victoria Song. Pretty, rich, smart, and nice, she was the epitome of all standards for modern beauty in this god forsaken high school. And I immediately began to pray for the worse.

 

As time goes by, the moments of him and I together were less and less, but there was nothing I could do to help it. It wasn't as if we were officially going out, and it was all my faults that my heart was breaking apart like this.

Trudging back to my usual lunch table with the guys, I noticed her in my seat, next to Yoochun. Laughter at whatever it was he was saying, her hands were touching his arms lightly as she stared at him in wonder.

Yup, I'm doomed. And I knew exactly what I had to do.

Jealousy flaring up inside me, I marched toward the table and smiled maliciously at my guy friends. Obviously, Yoochun was the only one ot not have notice, being completely occupied with Victoria.

But it doesn't matter to me anyway. He wasn't my goal. Eyeing my lunch box that was now scattered across the table, I looked at my other friends before sighing softly. Of course, why would they ever bother picking up my stuff? 

Huffing in annoyance, I shoved my food into the tiny lunch box and walked toward the table with my best girls. If the guys have already abandoned me, then there's no need to wait for more trouble to come.

But of course God wasn't done with playing around.

"So guys, does Yoochun have a girlfriend?" Victoria asked as I began to walk toward my new lunch table. The guys were silence, and I could literally hear them gulped at the surprised question.

"Eh...no, he doesn't" Jaejoong grinned brightly at Victoria. This was something that Sulli had picked up as she spotted me walking toward her direction. Painful tugs to my heart was inevitable as I slid myself into my seat. Slumping onto the lunch table with my head down, I allowed a few teardrops to run down my cheeks before the bell signaled that lunch time was over.

"Am...she asked him out." Luna had whispered to me before she scurried to her locker to get ready for gym. 

 

 

"Hey Yoochun. Wait for me after you're done packing your stuff." I called out to Yoochun from 2 lockers away as I unlocked my own.

"Eh?" his surprised voice answered back "But Amber, Vic said that I should give her an answer today." 

"I know, you moron," I spat out quiet gently despite the mood I was feelings. "I'm trying to help you here. Go wait in the garden. I'll be out there in a minute." 

Raising his eyebrow, I couldn't help but noticed the way his eyes had slumped down sadly at the thought of seeing Victoria late. Rolling my eyes, I shoved my homework into my backpack and slammed my locker shut. Following him to the garden, I slung my backpack onto my back and directed him to a stop.

"I know you like her," I began "so let's me just say this. We were friends. Best friends. Nothing more, nothing less, alright?" I smiled, looking up at him. To say he was shock was an overstatement. To say he was happy was an understatement.

"I knew you could understand me, Am! I'll see you tomorrow then!" he had yelled out in glee as he gave me one last goodbye hug before bouncing toward his meeting place with Victoria. 

If he had only linger for one more second...

If only he had look back one last time...

He could have seen the tears that trailed down my face as my heart was broken into pieces. 

My first love was over.

 

Today is a new day. My love life is over, but there's no point in grieving anymore. After all, there are no tears left for Yoochun.

Freshening myself up, I threw on a hoodie and concealed whatever tearstreak lines that were left on my faces. Walking to school, I remiscine the times that I had spent with Yoochun as a couple, and there was nothing in those memories that could ever say that we were ever together in the first place. Laughing to myself at the ridiculous daydreams of going to proms and dances with him, I figured that since I won't be wearing a dress in a million years, there was no way Yoochun and I could be boyfriend and girlfriend.

Opening the entrance door, a huge huff of cool air blew into my face and I sighed in happiness. Walking in the heat is the worst thing I could have done to start the day.

Shrugging, I strolled toward my locker and as I passed my Yoochun's, I couldn't help but noticed the decorations on his locker that so obviously stated who his girlfriend was.

Victoria Song

I plastered on my face a fake big smile as I clapped him on the back harshly, grinning "Got yourself a girlfriend, huh? You better treat her nicely." I chuckled and went to my locker before he could even say anything. I swore that I saw our mutual friends sweatdropped at how casual I had been. Laughing to myself, I reckoned the irony in this situation. His unofficial ex-girlfriend congratulated him for getting an official girlfriend. 

Looking at my friends, I smiled to myself and flashed Yoochun a huge grin and an exaggerated wave of hand before closing my locker and walking toward my first class. And as God would have it, Yoochun is in all of my classes. Just great.

As the bell chimed for lunch, I hurriedly gathered my stuff and was the first one out the door. Greeting Yoochun a small hello without our usual fist-bump or bro-hug, I took out my lunch money and walked toward Soojung's locker. Hugging Luna and Sulli, I waited for all three of them to finished organizing their messy lockers before we headed to the cafeteria together. I had inclined myself to stay as far away from Yoochun as possible until I completely forget him.

Nodding to myself in determination, I couldn't help but run into someone and sent both of us crashing toward the floor. Instead of helping my, however, my friends just stood there and watched as I groaned and glared at them.

"You devil spawns" I muttered as I dusted myself off and gathered my money. Before I could stand up, a hand stretched out to me and when I looked up, an astonishing face appeared in my vision.

"Leo!" my face brightened up at the familiar appearance. "Long time no see!" I grabbed his hand and he pulled me up from the ground. Smiling at me shyly, he nodded hellos to my trio of friends before giving me a full huge. 

"Hey Amber, how have you been?" he asked in my ears as he squeezed me tight. What a nostalgic feeling. Leo had been my friend since forever, and us two along with Yoochun had been each other's childhood friends. 

"Whoa whoa whoa there, Am doesn't need a hug from a guy right now. She just broke up." Soojung grabbed and pulled me from Leo's grip. Resting her head on my shoulder, she gave him a smirk. "Don't you wanna know which of your childhood friends broke her heart?" she asked slyly. Luna and Sulli giggled as my face burned red. I knew that they were teasing me. But I also knew that this was their way of cheering me up. 

Punching Soojung lightly on the side, I stuck my tongue out at her and grabbed Leo's arms, pulling him away to go outside. "Save me a spot, guys" were my last words before I went to have a long discussion with Leo.

Summary? Explanation of how Yoochun and I started going out, Leo turning pale, Leo falling in shock, me helping him, Leo lecturing, Leo lecturing, Leo lecturing, me stopping him, Leo yelling at me for being stupid and getting myself hurt. Leo hugging me.

And that was basically it. Except for one thing.

Yoochun witnessed the scene and went berserk on us.

 

Long story short....

"Amber? What are you do-?!" Yoochun's eyes widened as he saw Leo hugging me tightly once again. In private. In a place with no one in sight. And of course, Yoochun's mind was conjuring up some crazy fantasies about my love life. Again.

Pulling away from me, Leo looked at Yoochun with innocent eyes and smiled "What's wrong, buddy? I heard you got the most popular girl in the school to be your girlfriend. Congrats!" he sincerely congratulated Yoochun before pulling me with him back into the cafeteria.

Just as I was about to break free from Leo's grasp, Yoochun grabbed my arm and pried me away. 

"Stop touching her as you please. I'm saying this as her best friend. I don't want her to get hurt because of you." Yoochun growled in a low voice.

Leo chuckled at the statement before walking off with only an ominous "She already is hurt." 

Looking at me in shock, I knew that Yoochun knew what the comment was about. Thank you he didn't know who the comments was about. Well...beside me. OR else he would have beaten himself up.

Rolling my eyes at his silent interrogation, I broke free and went to the girls' washroom to wash my hands before lunch but was pulled agressively into the bathroom. Leveling my eyes with those of Victoria's, I jerked back in shock and collapsed onto the floor.

"Oh my god, can you people please stop popping up in goddamn places to scare the hell out of me?" I cussed, rubbing my sore from having hit the hard floor.

"Sorry, Am. I didn't meant to do that." Victoria smiled naively at me and helped me up.

"Jeez, Song Qian, have some manners." I scolded her and went to the sink, splashing water onto my face. "What do you want?" 

"Well, it's about Yoochun." she said honestly and I looked at her through the mirror, motioning for her to go on. "He had been talking about you nonstop ever since we started dating so I broke it off with him."

Turning around in surprise, I accidentally splashed some water onto her and stiffled in a chuckled as I saw her state. "Sorry Vic. My manner hand exploded." I smiled teasingly. 

Oh yeah, you all might be wondering what's happening. Victoria and I have been friends ever since we were assigned to be lab partners last year. I was surprised that no one knew. 

Rolling her eyes, she slapped me. "And I told him that he wasn't really in love with me. But that it was you who he loves." 

Falling backward in shock, I expected Victoria to catch me but instead she stepped aside and let me have a free fall onto the floor. 

"You're gonna dislocated your hips someday." she stuck her tongue out at me and didn't even bother to help me up. "I didn't even know he had such a severe Amber-complex so I asked him out. Why didn't you tell me you two were going out?!" she scolded me with a scowled eyebrow. 

"Uh-oh, laser beam are coming out!" I rubbed my poor bottom as I stood up, joking with her. "Well? What are you gonna do about it?" she asked.

"I don't know...considering  the way he had just stomped all over my heart like that without a second thought, I would say I'm gonna ignore him for a week or so." 

Victoria glanced at me out of the corner of her eyes and poked my cheeks. "You're such an amateur. Extend it to a month. You'll see how much he's willing to beg to even be best friends with you again." 

This time, I was the one who rolled my eyes. "It'll be your fault if I become a master at the push and pull game."

"Oh shut up. You'll thank me for it" Victoria said, flipping her hair before stalking out of the bathroom elegantly. She's probably the only one I know who can actually walk out of a bathroom like a royalty.

A few minutes later, I emerged from the washroom and immediately ran into Yoochun. What luck!

Pretending to not notice his presence, I walked past him toward my lunch table and stoled Sulli's chips from her. Ripping the bag opened, I took a few of them and threw them into my mouth.

"So...princess, mind telling me what happened with the love quadruple?" Luna inquired, wiggling her eyebrows.

"You mean triangle." I corrected her "Song Qian gave up on him the moment he started babbling about he on and on. She said she had enough." I explained, gesturing my hand toward Luna to give me one of her macaroons.

Luna sighed in exasperation before giving in and gave me her bag of macaroons. She knew that she had to bribed me for the story.

"And so?" Soojung questioned, looking at me. "What are you gonna do now?" 

"Well, Song Qian said to just ignore him for a few weeks. Preferably a month" I replied, shrugging. "It'll be funny to see him trying to win me back though."

"That's true Amber. I'm glad you agreed with me" Victoria came over, plopping herself down beside Sulli. It seemed that she also have had enough with hanging out with those snobby popular girls.

Well...not that our group isn't a sight to behold...

"Saranghaeyo, Amber Liu~" a voice suddenly sang into the microphone as everyone in the cafeteria froze. And then one second later, all eyes turned toward our table and stared right at me. 

"That stupid idiot!" I shouted and slammed my head against the table, blocking my ears to get the singing to stop. Meanwhile, my support group had all rolled onto the table laughing like maniacs.

And oh, what was that beautiful sound?

It was the voice of an angel calling me to hurry up and go to heaven so that I could escape this embarrassing moment. Digging a hole inside my mind, I made a promise to myself that he was gonna pay.

And did he paid? Hell yeah.

Standing up, I quickly ran through the cafeteria with little to no trouble at all. The students had parted ways like the Red Sea for me. Now, I was the devil running mad. And beside, if the sight of the most popular girl, the ice princess, the aegyo princess, and the singing princess running after me wasn't enough, Yoochun's whole group of friends pointing a gun at everyone at point blank wouldn't have stop them.

I reckoned that I really do have useful friends. I'll have to get them some good birthday presents this year. 

Locking the ideas inside my mind, I marched up on the stage and grabbed Yoochun by the collar, surprising him. The microphone clattered to the ground with a deafening sound and everyone immediately looked up. 

Squeals and screams advanced from all over the place at the sight of me pulling Yoochun into a passionate kiss. However, keeping my arm between us to prevent him from further damaging my rock hard reputation that was bound to be ruin anyway, I resisted any futile attemps of his to capture me into an embrace to deepen our kiss. 

Then I pulled away.

And proceed to ignore him for the rest of the month. 

 



P.S: I had planned on this being a serious and sad fanfic...but when you have f(x) in it, this above here was bound to happen anyway. And...mind if I ask for some feedback? Been quiet a while since I wrote a oneshot in a school setting, and a fluffy one at that, so...Comments below! ^^ 

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