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“1 . .2 . .6- Ahhh! . . Please! Sleep now Kim Taeyeon!”

 

Its already 2am, but here I am hopelessly looking the ceiling, wishing for the time to rewind. I didn’t expect that from him, its my first time to see him that mad to the point that he cried.

 

 

“Baekhyun, if you’re mad at me , then say it, don’t act like your ok when you are not, I’m looking like a fool here guessing whether I should sorry or not, you didn’t bother calling me or message me all day, and then you’ll suddenly show up and treat me with your awkward silence? It make me crazy Baek, I don’t know what to think of that”   

“Ok, You want me to say something? Alright I’ll say it” and he started

“Yes Taeyeon! . . . YES!! I am mad!I am freaking mad right now! . . .I am mad because he is there, I am mad because he is there around you, and I am mad because of the fact that you are not doing anything, thats what makes me mad . . wait, no . . . thats what makes me furious!”

 

 

He was mad, he really did got mad, to the point that he fell into tears. After those last words of him, he went up to his room and didn’t get out for the rest of the night, while I was left out at the sofa asking myself, what on earth just happened?.

 

“What did I do? I thought he . . .” I ask.

“Oh what a great question Taeyeon, of course he is! . . . He wouldn’t react like that if he doesn’t” I answer myself.

“This is your fault Taeyeon, Why on earth did you let him be in the same place with Sehun. Oh! How insensitive you are.” and I mentally scold myself.

 

“ My goodness Taeyeon! I thought you already knew Baekhyun . . .of course that would make Baekhyun feel uncomfortable seeing you two so close, and I’m sure he wouldn’t like it seeing you getting flirted by that guy”

 

Yeri is right, I must have hurt Baekhyun so much, for him to break down like that. Why am I so insensitive? Why didn’t I see this coming?

 

“I’m sorry Baekhyun” I thought.

“I should make up to him, that’s right! I should apologize . . . but not now, I’ll do it first thing in the morning . .But how would I do it? . . .it will be awkward . . . hmmm . .” as I was thinking, I could feel my eyes getting heavy, and after a while. . .

 

 

“.…”

 

     

I fell asleep.

 

3 hours after, I woke up not so early but also not too late.

 

“Ahhh . . . Ah~ Good morning” I greeted myself, as I adjust my eyes through the morning light.

“Oh right . . . I should talk to Baekhyun” then I look at the time.

“It’s almost 7am, he’s still here, I should do it now, or else I don’t know when would I still have this courage” So I get up,freshen up for a bit and head to his room, I nervously knock on his door, he doesn’t answer, so I try it again. Still no answer, so I open up the door.

 

“Baekhyun? . . .” He was not there, I look for him at his bathroom and still not there.

“Hmm . . . its still early, where could he be?” I went down to the dining, thinking that maybe he’s having his breakfast already, but still he’s not there.

 

“Did he already left?” I thought. I went to the front door and look for his shoes. It was not there.

“So, he left already” I said in disappointment. I went up to my room and try to call him.

 

“ . . . . Ring . . .Ring . . .Ring . . . Ring . . .”

 

I tried again.

 

“ . . . . Ring . . .Ring . . .Ring . . . Ring . . .”

 

“Patience Taeyeon . . .. call him again” I told myself.

 

“ . . . . Sorry the person your calling currently unavailable . . . . Please try again later . . . ”

 

“Oh my!~ . . . Now I can’t contact him . . .Huh! . . . what if he really got mad at me and decided to leave? Omo!~ ” I said. I hurriedly went to his room and see if his thing were still there.

 

“Oh Gee!~ . . . Its still here . .  ok . . Don’t be too paranoid Taeyeon, he’ll come back, he promised” I said, assuring myself that my biggest fear wont come true. After calming down and setting my mind straight, I hurriedly prepare myself to go to school.

 

“Ok reports . . check! . . . presentation . . .done! . . . money . . I must always have this . . .and keys . . wait wheres my keys? . . .” and I started to get panic again.

“Arggghhh! . . Why it has to be now? . . . I’m getting late! . . .Keys . .where did I left it?” I search on every corner of my room, but it wasn’t there. So I went down and check on the couch thinking that I might left it there last night.

“huh! . . Its not here . .oh where is it?” I search under the cushions, and under the table but it wasn’t there.

“Ahh! . . . I can’t leave the house without that key . . .Aish!! So stupid Taeyeon!”

“Stop cursing yourself . . Your keys wont come out if you do that” I was surprise to heard a voice behind me. I knew it was him. so I look back and see him with his shirt dripping wet from I guess . . sweat?

“Your back . . . Baekhyun” I said. He didn’t say a word as we awkwardly look at each other.

“Oh great Taeyeon, Now its awkward . . .” I thought. I was looking at him and I suddenly felt this weird hot air, embracing my cold body. I almost drool when I realize that his shirt was dripping wet from I guess . . sweat? I was out of word, My gosh! How can he still look so hot?

 

 

“Wait . . . Stop. . . . Erase . . Erase . . . Erase . . .” I thought.       

 

 

“If your looking for your keys, here it is . . .” and he pulled my keys from his pocket and put it at the table.

“ahh . . Thank you, I was looking for it . . .”

“I saw it at the counter this morning . . . So I kept it first, before you misplace it again, I thought I wouldn’t catch you up, so I run all the way here, I knew you wouldn’t leave without your keys so . .. “

“Ahh Thank you . . ” I awkwardly said.

“If your good, then I’ll go up and wash . .so . . “

“Wait, Baekhyun . ..” I want to do the plan and to talk to him about last night, but my tongue wont work.

“Yes?” he calmly said.

“Are you coming to school today?” I don’t know what comes to me, but those were the words I chose to say.

“Ah Yes” he shortly replied.

“Should I wait for you?” I nervously ask.

“ahh No, no need, you can go first, I’ll just see you at school” and he finally smiled. Although I’m happy that he finally smiled at me this morning, I can still feel that awkwardness between us. It feels like were back to how we were, when we first met, and its making me crazy.

“Alright . . I’ll see you.” I said before turning around and head to the door.

 

“Hmmm . . . He seems fine . . .” I thought.

“Aish!! Why you didn’t talk to him, you pabo!~ . . thats your chance, he’s in good mood! . . . Stupid! Stupid Kim Taeyeon!” I was busy scolding myself as I walk to the bus station. As soon as I reach the bus station I called up Yeri.

“Hel. . .lo. . .” a groggy irritated voice answered me.

“Yah! Are you awake?”

“ahhh! Seriously Kim Taeyeon! Your calling me up this early . . . . WAE!!??”

“You sound like you just woke up, don’t tell me your still on bed?”

“Yes wae? . . . wae? Wae!! . . . I’m having a good sleep here and your waking me up, you better have a good reason for this or else!”
”Yah! Aren’t you suppose to be getting ready? You’ll be late”

“Ah Thats alright! . . I’m not coming to school today anyway, I called in sick”

“Yah!! Are you serious? I know your not sick . . .”

“Well they believed me so now I am sick”

“Tsk! . .Why do I even ask, I knew you’re a good actress”

“hahaha . . . Yo know me . . . by the way . . . YAH!! why the topic is on me, its you whose disturbing me here, what do you want?”

“Ok, I have a problem”

“I knew it, tell me, I’ll help you, any kind of problem. . . except on love”    

“Well I don’t know what kind of problem is this but, here’s what happened . . .” and so I told her every detail of what happened last night.

“. . . . There, what do you think?” I ask.

“You know what Taeyeon, I’ll tell you one thing”

“What is it?” and I waited for her reply.

“PABO!!!! . . .” and she seriously loudly shouted on the phone, to which make all the people look at me. That was embarrassing.

“Yah! Why do you have to shout like that? I’m at the bus station right now, all the people here look at me.”

“Well I should have waited for you to be at the library before doing that, so that they will clearly hear how stupid your are!”

“YAH!!” and its my turn to shout.   

“Ahh sorry, Sorry. . .hehe” I embarrassingly said.

“Seriously are you really my friend? I know I’m stupid, but you don’t have to tell the world about that”

“Well Sorry Taeyeon, I am really your friend, thats why I’m telling you that, I already told you Taeyeon, read between the lines, you should have know Baekhyun by now. Not because he said that its ok, it means its really ok, be sensitive enough Taeyeon!”

“I know, and I admit that its my fault, I never seen Baekhyun got that mad last night”

“Well you did that to him, so expect your consequence for that”

“Well I decided to talk to him this morning but . . .”

“But you lost timing . . “

“Oh! How did you know?”
”I knew you too well Kim Taeyeon,Your really bad at this, so tell me how awkward you two became?”

“Really awkward, Its like we came back from our early days”

“Well thats it, thats your consequence, now you have to break that wall again, if you want you to go back as close friends again”

“Yeah your right . . . But you know what, something is weird . .”

“I already know how weird you are so whats new”

“Aish! . .  I‘m serious here Yeri!” I said as I’m starting to be annoyed, well she is my really best friend.

“Alright, so what is this something weird?”

“He seems fine now, I mean he even smiled at me, well I can still feel that his being distant to me, but still I can feel that he’s fine, or he is fine”

“You know what, your over thinking Taeyeon, maybe . . no . . not maybe . . I am sure that he is totally fine, your just being paranoid, because you’re guilty”

“Huh! . . . I guess so . .”

“If I were you, I’ll stop over thinking and talk to him at once, in that way I wont be a bother to my beautiful friend who’s enjoying her being sick for today and my life would be at peace, Do you understand?”

“Huh . . . ok, ok . . . I am really a bother to your fake sick absence . . . I understand”

“Ok now end this call and talk to him now as in now . . . N.O.W . . now!”

“Ahh Yeri, I’m not with him now”

“What? I thought you’re at the bus station?”

“Yeah I am here . . . alone”

“What he didn’t go with you?”

“Duh? I wouldn’t call you and talk about this if I’m with him now, Have some common sense Yeri”

“Yah!! Your getting back huh! Wait he’s not going to school?”

“He will, but he told me to go first, so I left first”

“Ahhhhh . . . well . . . PABO!”

“Yah!! your having fun calling me that . .. its not funny”
”Here you go again, Taeyeon, you didn’t understand what he meant, you’re really slow on understanding things, really!”

“So its my fault again? I just do what he told me, whats so slow on that?”

“I told you read between the lines, what he really mean is the opposite of what he said.”

“Is that it? So I’ll take the opposite of what he said, like he said that you are beautiful, but that means your not really beautiful, is that it?”

“Well . . except that . . . Well he wont say that anyway, or he did sometimes, but wait . . . that’s not the point here”

“Well thats what I understand, I knew Baekhyun, he’s not like that”

“Seriously Taeyeon, if you really knew Baekhyun, if you really knew why he’s acting like that you wouldn’t ask for me now, you wouldn’t be this confuse now”

“Ok, ok . . . I get it” I can hear a big sigh from the other line, what can I do? I am really slow.   

“So I guess you know what to do now, I should end this call”

“Thanks Yeri”

“Anytime . . . but please . . . not in the morning”

“hahaha . . . Ok, see you soon, Bye!” I end the call and look at the time.

 

“I still have time . . . ”

 

“Should I wait for you?”

“ahh No, no need, you can go first, I’ll just see you at school”

 

“I should wait for him” I said.

“Hey Miss! Are you riding your not?”and the bus driver ask.

“Ahh no Ahjussi. . . Sorry” and I move back and take a seat. Two bus has passed and I’m still here waiting for him.

“Ahh . . . When will he come?” I thought as I look my watch. After a few minutes, I can already see him coming. I get up from my seat and pretend to do something.

 

“Taeyeon?” he first called up. I look up and pretend to be also surprise.

“Why are you still here?”

“Ahh . . . I’m waiting for the bus”

“Didn’t you left early? You should have caught the earlier bus”

“ahh well . . I drop by the store first, so I just came here”

“Ahh . . .So what store did you dropped by?”

“I . . I ah . . .” I got panic.

“Why does he have to ask?” I thought, so I look around for an open store, luckily I found one.

“There!” and I pointed at the shoe store

“You went at the shoe store this early?” here he goes again, he being a detective again.

“Yes, I just look at the shoes that I’ve been eyeing for . . “

“You mean you’re eyeing for a man’s shoes”

“Eh?” I nervously ask.

“That shoe store you pointed at is for men, so your looking for a men shoes?”

“Ahh yeah . . yes, as a gift, haha” I said.

 

“Oh please be convinced~ . . .” I thought.

 

“Oh Ok . . If thats what you said” and he take a seat beside me. We were awkwardly quiet. I’m telling you we are usually quiet, but this is a different kind of silence.

 

“ahh should I talk to him now?” I secretly look at his side and he was busy playing at his phone.

“Ahh what ever, I’ll talk to him” I thought, but when I was about to call him, the bus suddenly came and he stand up.

“What a great timing Kim Taeyeon” I thought.   

“Heres the bus now, you go first . . .” he said as he lead me to the door, just like he always does. We usually seat beside each other at the back, but now he chose to seat near the drivers area, so I have no choice but to seat behind him.

 

“He’s really avoiding me” I thought. The 20 minute ride that used to be short and fun, now feels like a 2 days ride on circular loop. I just sat there behind him, silently observing him, thinking a good timing to talk to him, without being awkward.

 

“Hmm . . . how should I talk to him? . . . Baekhyun ah . . . Sorry . . . hsss . . No no no . . . That wont do” I was looking out the window, thinking so hard of how should I approach him when I heard him call my name.

“Taeyeon ah . . . Taeyeon!” I curiously look at him.

“Were here . . .Lets Go!” and we reached the university , just in time for our first class.

 

“Good thing were not yet late” I said, he just smiled. The first few hours of class went swiftly well, we talked, share our thoughts, and have our casual discussions just like how we used to do.

 

“Taeyeon, I already told you those theories, are not yet proven by historical research”

“But base, from my research, the nobles during the Joseon dynasty, uses this kind of theories in dealing social matters, it is also use during the early 90’s, so how could you say that my theories are impossible?”

“The fact that these data you have is not on the basic standards and is not verified by such historical professors and analysts your theories, can be consider as false belief or myth”

“But if you’ll see it in other perspective, you can say that these met