Forbearing the Bitterness of the World
Romantic Street: A Detour To DestinyMiss me much? lolol. Anyway, I'm back so, here it goes!
Tiffany POV
My life is nothing but . Yes, it really is.
All along and for all this time, I am nothing but an unwanted child, just a mere product of a vicious sin my dad did to my mom.
My father never loved me. My mother hated me. He sees me as nothing but a slave. She sees me as nothing but a crap, an insipid poison as she described. My very own family despises my mere existence.
Why am I born in this world? Why am I still alive? What is the reason I'm still breathing? What for? For me to be tortured like this? For me to taste the bitterness of the World even if I didn't even know what I did wrong to be punished like this? Why me? Can't it be someone else but me? Is this really the fate the heaven has given me?!
I am nothing but worthless. My life has been damned the moment I was born in this world.
I want to die.
Yes, I am indeed serious. There's nothing left for me anymore, anyway.
I ran away again. I don't want to see anyone of them. I don't care where my feet will get me. Actually, I'm hoping for the same on what happened to my best friend, Jessica, back then. I really want to die now.
I ran into a park. There were lots of people, happy people. Happy children were playing around while their parents are watching them from afar. They all looked so fulfilled. They're living a perfect life, anyway.
Those kids... they're so lucky to have good and caring parents. Parents that love them so much. I... I feel so envious. Why can't I have a normal life like that? Somehow, I think Yuri's luckier than me, having no parents to grow up with. I'd rather want that than living with my own family. Why? Why me...?
I sat down on one free bench, still crying my heart out. I still feel the same. I still have the very same questions in mind. Awful... so awful... my life is so cruel... I don't think I'll be getting back to my normal self anymore.
And now it started to rain. It pours really hard and now I'm soaking wet unlike those children. They were attended immediately by their families and soon the park was cleared. Nothing, no one's left but me. This is how my life is anyway. The Universe seems to love showing me I am unloved that much.
Sooner, someone came. That person held an umbrella on top of me. I looked up. It was a woman, a familiar woman back then. It was Li Yin, Tao's mother, smiling genuinely at me.
"Hello there, Stephanie."
"..."
"Happy Birthday."
I looked away, "Why are you here? Aren't supposed to be in the Hospital right now?"
"You're really a very thoughtful person."
"..."
"Come on. You shouldn't be making yourself wet like this."
"Who cares anyway? If it's possible, they even wanted me dead so, why bother?"
She stayed on the same position for a while. Long after, around fifteen minutes, the rain has stopped. She giggled, "It seems the heaven loves to troll you today."
"Troll?"
"Yeah, why? Don't you know the word?"
"No, I know the word. It's just weird because you're like already in your forties and yet you know the word."
"Now, should I be insulted or be flattered by that?" She chuckled. Then, she sat beside me.
"Why are you here?" I asked.
"I just want to get some fresh air. I've been living in the hospital for months, you know. It's kind of boring."
"Why did you shield me from rain then? Didn't you hate me?"
She sighed, "I'm sorry if I acted that way on you before. I was just shocked... too shocked. I never thought I'll be seeing a member of the Hwang household during that time."
"..."
"You have a warm, true heart, Stephanie."
"..."
"And I truly am proud of you with that."
I looked at her in confusion, "You're making me confused. What's with the random compliment?"
"Well... you see, even if your life has been so uhhm- let me make it straight-to-the-point, ed up, you still lived normally and actually even grown to a very nice person. The children of the future should actually look up to you."
"Oh, please. I'm not a heroine for you to say something like that."
"You're just indeed that admirable."
"..."
"Thank you. Thank you for helping my son."
"Huh?"
"I know Tao has been jailed for months already."
"But I didn't get to get him out of the prison yet so why thank me? And don't tell me he's finally out?"
"No, he's not yet out. His sentence that's supposed to be lowered down went back to the original of three years for no definite reason."
"What? But Seohyun already negotiated with that? He's supposed to be out actually by June this year."
"Oh well... a powerful person seems to be behind this again."
I looked down, "My father..."
"Come on, don't be that harsh on your father. It may be someone else."
"Then, who? Seohyun's father? The military general?"
She sighed, "It doesn't matter who anymore. That's how the society works. If you're poor, you don't have voice in this world and will just forever abide with the rich and powerful ones' orders..."
"..."
"Anyway, I still want to thank you though for visiting Tao in prison. I actually thought you'll be mad at him because he's nothing but a bastard of your father."
"No... I'm actually quite happy that I met him. I didn't feel alone that time. Unlike now..."
"But you're still not alone in this world now. You still have y
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