It's the 31st of July, exactly 61 days since the last time I saw her face, exactly 108 days since the last time I had happiness in my life. And now that it's her birthday tomorrow, I feel even more damned. I so want to see Tiffany... hug her, kiss her, offer her my life. I miss her so much.

*knock knock* "Yuri...? It's me, Jessica." Oh. It's been a long time since I last saw that woman. Well, I insisted them not to visit my new place for at least a month, just to cool down things.

I went to the front door and opened it. "I have a doorbell, Sica. You can just press it."

She smiled cheekily, "But I want it classic." Then, she gave me a hug. "I missed you so much."

"I missed you too."

We both went inside. Jessica sat on the couch. "I say this place looks much better than the previous one, Yul. Nice shot."

"Are you really complimenting the place or you just feel guilty because you destroyed my original planned place of hiding?"

"Oh come on. Cut it out already. Yoong and I were just too occupied that time and we forgot about Tiffany."

"Yeah, whatever. So, are you sure no one followed you here?"

"Yup, a hundred percent sure."

"Okay... Anyway, are you waiting for Yoong here?" I asked.

She pouted, "Yah. You make it sound like that’s my only purpose for being here. I'm here to visit you and Sunkyu too."

"Alright. I get it." I sat down on the other couch.

"Where's Kyu, by the way?"

"At the balcony, talking to someone over the phone."

"Huh? Who?"

"Sulli, I guess."

"I see... Anyway, it's Tiffany's birthday tomorrow..."

I sighed, "Yeah..."

"..."

"..."

"She's okay, by the way... physically." she suddenly said which snapped me out. "Still, her emotional state is otherwise though."

"Is she smiling now?"

"Well, yeah... but, you know, Tiffany. She prefer to just smile all the time even if deep inside she's wrecked up."

I sighed, "I only brought her nothing but sorrow. I just wish for her to forget me soon."

"You're asking the impossible, Yuri." Impossible? Please, you have forgotten everything about you and Yoong.

"Yah. Don't just look at me like that. I'm not a mind reader or something, okay."

I smiled at her, "Hmm... But you were before."

"Can I... really do that before?"

"Yup. And you are always a hundred percent accurate..."

She then mumbled, "Wow. I must be really awesome, huh...?"

"So, what's up with you nowadays?"

She returned a confused look, "Me? Why me?"

"Well, actually, Yoong told me yesterday that you've been acting differently since more than a month ago."

"Like how different?"

"Like you've been avoiding him?"

"Oh. That..." She sighed loudly and rested her back lazily on the couch, "There's actually no particular reason."

I chuckled, "Did Taeyeon do something that made you doubt on your cheating?"

She blushed madly, "N-no, he didn't! Aissh-- Let's stop talking about Taeyeon, please."

"Spill it, Sica. What's on your mind this time?"

"Nothing! God, you're totally like your ex-girlfriend, always pushing me to spill something when there really is nothing to spill out."

"I'm a lonely man, Sica. I don't have anyone to talk about your secrets, you know."

She looked at me quizzically. Afterwards, she sighed in defeat, "Fine. There's no harm in telling you, anyway."

"Great. So, what's up?"

"I'm thinking of... stopping my love affair with Yoong."

"Why? Were you bored already?"

"Yah! It's not like I started this mess with Yoong just because I'm bored!"

"Then, what's the reason?"

"It's because..." She looked away. "There really is something about Yoong that keeps me drawn to him. It's like... he feels up the void in my life."

"If it is so, then why do you want to stop it now?"

"Because... I know I love Taeyeon."

"Now, I get it. You want to stop it now because you realized you don't really love Yoong?"

"It's not like that. I just feel like... what I'm doing with Yoong is wrong."

"So, you're really ending this playtime of yours with him, huh?"

"Please, Yuri. Stop it. I'm not playing with Yoong's feelings. Besides, he was the one who insisted it is okay for him even if I have a boyfriend, anyway."

It is, indeed, Deja vu. Yoong's the one hurt in the end again. *Sigh*. I told that guy so many times to think about this first yet he didn't listen to me.

I redirected the topic, "Oh. One thing, Sica. I'm just curious..."

"About?"

"About your -life."

"Oh please, that's a very sensitive topic, Yuri."

"Come on, just answer this one."

She sighed loudly, "Fine. What is it?"

"So uhh-- you're doing it with Yoong right? Then at home, you're also uhhh-- with Taeyeon?"

"No..."

"..."

"That's one of my problems too. I stopped making with love with my boyfriend ever since Yoong and I... you know, 'seeing' each other."

"Now that sure is a problem."

"Yeah... but lately, I tried to do it with him yet, I really can't because I... always get to think of Yoong."

"If that is so then why are you stopping your relationship with Yoong? Shouldn't you be breaking off with Taeyeon instead?"

"Yuri, how many times do you want me to tell you I love Taeyeon? I probably just feel like this because I'm still in an affair with Yoong. Maybe, if I'll stop this mess, it will all go back to normal between Taeyeon and me."

"Alright, alright, if you say so..."

Sunkyu came inside from the balcony looking a little bothered. "What's wrong, Kyu?" I asked.

He looked at me lifelessly, "Can I go to Sulli's place?"

"Kyu, we already talked about this."

"I know but appa, come on. Sulli's breaking up with me. She said she can't continue our relationship with just merely by phone calls."

"But you two can just chat or video call."

"That's not enough! Aissh- you deprived me of my mother, now even my girlfriend?!"

"Okay... You can go to your Sulli. It's fine with me. Just make sure you will not come back here anymore, okay?"

He started to weep, "You are so evil, appa!"

"Yah, Yuri. You're too harsh on the kid." Sica butted.

"I am not. I'm just giving him options. Stay here or live on your own. It's not that hard to choose."

"I just wish I'm with umma instead of you! I hate you so much!" and he ran away towards his room then locked himself there.

"Very bad move, Yuri. If Sunkyu runs away, it will only put you on a much bigger mess."