xuanmiin: Ga In's point of view. 

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“Absolute confusion ensues from here on out.” I put his diary on the bed, “I wonder how people know that they’ve met the one. How do you even know that someone is the one? How do you know that you love someone? How is this different from a crush? Is it from the intensity of emotion, or the quality of the feeling, or the length of the whole thing? Most people who are married claim that you’ll just know. But I don’t. I wish someone could teach me how to resolve this sticky situation of mine, especially since I think I’m having a huge issue separating reel life and real life. Yet I know this is something that I’ll have to figure out myself. If only I had more arsenal to dissect the problem. No one’s helping me solve the problem ‘cause they’re all insisting that I like Ga In noona. What’s worse is that I think she only sees me as a good pretend boyfriend and a good real life younger brother.”

“Even today I wouldn’t have been able to help someone with an identical question. It’s ironic, but the truth is, you just know.”

“The only difference is that they probably wouldn’t have to separate the real from the fake. Which from experience, helps.”

“I think either way, we failed terribly at that.”

“Absolutely flunked it.”

“I’m in trouble. I don’t see Kwon as a little brother anymore. It just doesn’t feel right anymore. I’m starting to get very greedy, I’m starting to want him. I thought that this fluttering of my heart would fade when the novelty of Kwon as a pretend boyfriend wears off. But it hasn’t, and it’s been a long time. A long time in my books anyway. The worst part is that Kwon, as with the rest of 2AM, just generally treat girls very nicely. I know that he’s being this nice to me only because it’s under compulsion of the WGM. But sometimes the things he does gives me a flicker of hope. It’s foolish, I know, to hope that he likes me too, because so what if he does. We wouldn’t work. Ga In, stop hoping. Just stop.”

“I think I’ve gotten much greedier since.” I want him all to myself and not just temporarily.

“I like you greedy.” Kwon intones, with a wicked smile. Arrogant thing! Let me put him back in his place.

“One boyfriend is no longer enough.” I quip, challenging him with a glare.

“As if you’ll be able to find another man my standard. You wouldn’t settle for less.” Now his eyebrows are cocked in such an overconfident manner.

“It doesn’t matter if I’m just going to be fooling around.” A lie, obviously.

“Seriously,” He scoffs, expression still unconcerned, “You don’t even know how to fool around.”

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