I cant believe im staying in the same hotel as Mina! This must be a joke! God is playing  joke on me isn’t he?? I sat by myself outside on the balcony angrily thinking to myself. The memories that were once fading are now back in full.

Since I got here, ive had this guy who seems to be following me around, I got slapped, I argued with Suho how many times since we stepped foot on this place, and now im facing my past. What in the world is going on?

“I tried helping you during those painful times you had!

You ignored me and refused to listen and take my advice.”

Her voice keeps replaying in my head, especially that part. I know that she tried to help me. I admit. I was young and scared of the world. At such a young age, I didn’t know things could happen the way it happened. Give me a break! I was 14 at the time! What could I have possibly done about a boy who disappeared??

I angrily thought back and forth and mentally fought with myself draining my energy. I hung my head and closed my eyes. “Even if im just thinking to myself and just sitting here, it could be so tiring…who knew?” I whispered to myself.

I used my hand to message my temples and laid down on the lounge chair and looked up into the night sky. “why me?... I’ve been nice and respected everyone. I even gave minseok oppa my voucher! Where is my good karma??” I whined kicking in my chair.

I was getting uncomfortable so I turned to my turn and saw a pair of eyes looking at me. From the next balcony next to ours. “Oh my god!” I said loudly but not screaming tightly closing my eyes. “Its just me!” Luhan said worriedly. “oh my god” I repeated over and over again with my heart racing. “you know… would you it kill you