“Hey”, I said, on the phone to my brother, Daehwi, “Where are you guys?”, I asked. “We left an hour ago”, Daehwi said. “What? Why?”, I asked, confused. “The parent...aunt...uncle...teacher conference is today, so we had to come back for that”, Daehwi said. “Aww no, I thought I was going to see you today”, I said sadly. “I’m sorry, I wanted to see you too, but we had to rush back”, Daehwi said, "We are at the school now". “Okay, I’ll call you later to check how it went”, I said, “Love you”. “Love you too”, Daehwi said, hanging up the call.

Well this is depressing. If I had known I was going to be alone, I would have brought someone along with me. I placed the flowers on their graves and sat down, to have a long overdue conversation. “Hi mum, hi dad”, I said, “I know, I know, it’s been a while since I’ve visited, but your precious daughter is a university student now. You are proud of me right? Gosh, I really miss you guys... Did you see how tall Daehwi has gotten? Everyone thinks he's the older sibling now. He's actually been a pretty good teenager. You guys would have had a really easy time raising us. He's at his parent teacher meeting now. I could hear the sadness in his voice when he said the words 'parent-aunt-uncle-teacher'. He tries to put on a brave front, but he's just a kid." I had begun to cry, talking about Daehwi. He was the most important thing in my life. The fact that he was hurting, hurt me more than my own pain.

"So anyway... campus is going good. Classes are a bit difficult, but i'm surviving, for now. Apparently your daughter is known as the physics genius. Oh and Ash and Lala say hey. Lala and I had a fight recently. I was just really worried about her. It's hard for them to realize sometimes. They don't know what it feels like to lose someone. Thats why I yelled at her. Because the thought of losing her scared me. I wanted to explain all of this to her. But I couldn't. I couldn't say it because I didn't want to cry. So I kept it all in. And even though things were weird between us, it was still easier to deal with, than crying over the fact that I couldn't handle any mor