Voiceless: Hi. For some reason, I'm just not really happy lately. I'm not sure why. I have great friends and a lovely girlfriend. School is fine and I've been doing really well in my theatre class.
However, whenever I get alone, I cry for no reason and I want to go back to taking pills like I used to but I don't because I know my girlfriend would be upset if I did. I don't know what's wrong with me.
I'm just recently getting over an eating disorder scare, too. For a couple of months, I didn't get hungry often so I didn't eat. The people around me started worrying that I might be starving myself when I wasn't. Whenever I did eat it was just to please them. My friends tried to feed me and then my family accused me of purposely starving myself. It made me feel really bad and by the time school started I had lost a lot of weight but no one really noticed. I am eating again but as I get sadder, I see that I'm starting to lose my appetite again.
I just don't understand what's happening.

Friend: Dear Voiceless,

The human emotions work in a wondrous way. We could be surrounded by a sea of happiness and still feel lonely and sad. We’re all human beings that go through different things, some more than others. One thing I can tell you is that you’re probably just going through a rough time. But fear not, there will come a time when I’m sure you’ll smile a 100% genuine smile(:

I don’t want to scare you or anything of the sort, but I really recommend seeing a professional for this. Whether it be a therapist, a physician, or both, I think that seeking professional help will shed some light in those dark corners. If you’re having a problem eating or digesting food, you need to see your physician to see if everything is alright physically. Maybe something isn’t sitting right with you or you may have a temporary bug. Please don’t be scared or think the worst case scenario! I just want you to double check and be sure that everything is fine(:

This may just be my opinion and view on life, but I don’t think drugs (or pills) are ever the way to go. It saddens me to think that people need drugs in order to show a real smile. I’m with your girlfriend on this one when I say that the pills aren’t an option. This is why I recommend a therapist. It’s their profession to try and figure out what’s been eating at your soul and it’s their job to fix it. If money is a problem then try to go to your school’s counselor. Maybe this is a minor problem that can be easily fixed with one session or maybe she/he will recommend someone else. Either way, a visit couldn’t hurt anyone right?(:

You and I both know that starving yourself isn’t an option, and it’s a good thing you’re aware that you need to eat at least something to keep on moving. If one of the things that trigger your loss of appetite is your parent’s accusations, then I think you need to let them know just what’s going through your mind. It’s their job to keep you in line and guide you through life. Maybe they are oblivious to the things you are dealing with. I know it may be scary opening up to your parents on such a serious matter, but put yourself in their shoes. If you had a son that was keeping such serious things from you, wouldn’t you wish they would’ve told you as soon as possible? Wouldn’t you want to help them and bring that healthy smile on their face? If you answered yes, then I think you know what to do(:

Whether it be small or big, loud or quiet, you do have a voice Voiceless, it’s just all a matter of whether you use it or not(:  I apologize for not being able to get to your letter sooner >< Hope you smile whole-heartedly soon(: Wishing you the best,

~(Chingu) 친구