lost, scared, half alive: I'm deprssed -i haven't been diagnose with it, but if you'd lived my life you would me one hundred percent aure that.you're depressed aswrll-, II have all the warning signsign, and I'm miserable, I'm constantly thinking avout suicide, i know the world would be sooooooooo much better without. My parents don't know a thing about this, they suspect it, but whenever theg bring up; i make damn sure they don't realize that i am a point were if i don't do something i wiill myself.
In the eyes of my parents I'm there perfect daughter, that never gors out, has never had a boyfriend and never fets into trouble. I realky don't know what to do anymore. Whenever my parents ask; i get so scared that they might find out, but deep down inside i want them to know. I really need them to know, before i go over my limit.

Friend: Dear lost, scared, half alive,

Please don’t think that the easiest way to escape your depression is ending your own life. Committing suicide or even thinking about it is a serious matter that no person should ever go through with. After all, we were all brought into this world for a reason, why throw it out?

The first thing I think you should do is come out and tell your parents what you’re going through. I know you’re scared what they might think after the truth comes out but they are your parents. They should be there for you when you are feeling up or down and they should especially be here for you now. Parents are there for their children, wanting the absolute best for each and every one of them. If they truly view you as the perfect daughter, then I don’t think they know who you really are. Parents should know their children for who they are, not for what they imagine them to be. Be strong and come out that you’re feeling depressed and the thought of suicide has crossed your mind. It’ll be a rude awakening for them but they’ll know that you need to help and as parents, they should provide it for you.

The second thing I recommend is figuring out the source of your depression or going to a professional therapist. You need to get the thought of depression out of the way and the best way to do that is to remove anything that was the cause of it. Maybe it’ll be something simple and obvious, like a bully. But other times you’ll need to go to a professional for him/her to figure out what’s really going on deep inside your head. They’re professionals for a reason; they have the degrees and qualifications to help people who are seeking help. I am also recommending a professional because of the things you mentioned in the “Anything else you want me to know?” section.

I don’t understand why you would want to hold such a thing from your parents but if it’s a matter of fear that they won’t accept you or anything, you shouldn’t think like that. A majority of the times, our minds come up with outcomes far worse than they could possibly be, in the end it’s all just our wild imaginations. Your parents love you lost, scared, half alive and will love you for whatever will happen. As your parents, it’s their job to know what’s going on with their child and they can’t ensure your happiness if you lie to them and hide this from them. Put yourself in their position, would you want your own daughter/son to lie to you and only to find out later, when it’s too late, that he/she has been dealing with depression and thoughts of suicide? Of course not. I think you should sit down with them and really tell them what you’ve been dealing with. You’ve even said so yourself, you want to tell them, right?(:

I really wish the best for you lost, scared, half alive. I cannot emphasize this enough but please don’t end your life lost, scared, half alive , I think you have so much more ahead of you. Stay strong and carry yourself on with a smile(: Hope everything works out in the end~

~(Chingu) 친구