Oh My Shupa Girl~ I picked up my phone, " Yubseyo?"

"Kyung, I'm not sure if we can have kids~" Jonghyun's voice replied.

I raised an eyebrow, " What?"

" Noona~ Yooguen ran into Jonghyun hyung." Taemin laughed.

Wait what? Hm... Yooguen ran into Jonghyun...Jonghyun can't have kids? I burst out laughing when I figured it out XD, " OH MY FREAKING SHISUS!" I laughed, " Seriously? Oh wait , I can hear Minho laughing like he's ruler of the world so it seriously did happen!"

"Kyung~ You shouldn't be laughing about this~ We might not be able to have kids~" Jonghyun said in the background.

"I never said I was going to marry you." I replied coldly.

"Will you marry me?~" Jonghyun sang. I hung up on him. Ugh, Kim Jonghyun, don't say things like that to me.

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"Hankyung oppa, I don't know what to do." I sighed. Hankyung is that person I can always go to, the one person I can talk to without holding back. Thank Shisus for Skype.

"It's really cute." Hankyung laughed.

"It's troublesome.."

" It's ironic."

" IRONY~" I burst out singing Wonder Girl's Irony.

Hankyung laughed at my antics," But joking aside Yun, it's really up to you. It seems like he's over everything and has moved on.  Somewhat."

"But I don't know how he feels. It seems like he's moved on , over with everything from the past but yet....well....maybe I'm just making things up, maybe I just want to think that he's still ...in love with me?" I paused, is this what's been going on in my brain?

Hankyung gave me a sad smile," Maybe he really does still love you. He probably had his reason for doing, well, what he did back then."

I bit my lip, "I don't know Hannie...It really did seem like he had a reason back then, yet something was holding him back from telling me and it seems like whatever it was back then, it's still with him today."

Hankyung paused, " Well, have you tried talking to your brother about it?"

"Oh dear Shisus no! If Jinki Oppa knew..." I shuddered at the thought, " I think he would never let me have a love life." I scoffed, " Not like he hasn't tried to stop me from even having a love life in the past..."

Hankyung cracked a smile, " Hey Yun, I have to go. I'll talk to you later okay?"

I nodded, " Okay. Bye Oppa."

~~~

I sat on my bed curled up in a ball, thinking. Don't take what I said earlier wrong ; Jinki and I are close. It's just that he's overprotective and agreed with my dad whenever it came to my love life. Simply put, let's just stick with 'my dad and brother don't' think I should have a love life' . Umma was different. She wanted me to find love. She wanted me to have a boyfriend, she wanted me to find someone who would make me happy for the rest of my life. When I finally did get a boyfriend, she was so happy that she cried tears of joy. I felt my eyes tear up. How is it, that I , a straight A student for my ALL of my school years, that started attending college at young age, not be able to figure this out?

Maybe I should leave again...

I buried that thought away the instant it popped up. No, I refuse to leave for non-school reasons. I let out a sigh and walked to the bathroom. I looked in the mirror . Eh I just I don't blame the guys for never complementing me. I don't think I'm pretty at all. I have a heart -ish shaped face, I had dark brown eyes like Jinki. I mean really dark, they're almost black, yet you can tell they're brown. My forehead is probably the same size as Minho's , six inches.  Anyhow, back to my eyes, short lashes, double eyelids, however not exactly small like your typical Asian. My eyes are a little bigger, but not as big as Minho's eyes are. I have a pretty nose, or so I've been told by many xD . My pale pink lips were perfect for pouting. I moved my layered fringe out of my eyes. Did I ever say how much I love my hair? Well I love my hair <3 Orangish Asian mullet~ Finally grew my hair out to the middle of my back.  I had that fair pale Korean skin, yet I was somewhat just slightly tan. Like Jinki just a little paler I guess. I had finally found the time to measure my height, 5 feet and one inch.  I'm surprised that I have curves, it really doesn't look like it to me. I just always notice my long legs. I rubbed my temples,

What should I do? I just don't know anymore.