Jonghyun POV

I sighed as I on the elevator. It hurts. My heart, it hurts so much. I'm so tore between things. Maybe I should just listen to my older sister, Song Dam is right, I should just tell Kyung... I paused when I got the door.

"GO CHOKE ON A CHICKEN BONE JINKI!!" Kyung screamed. O.O What's going on?

"LEE YUN KYUNGSOON, DON'T TALK TO ME LIKE THAT!!" Onew yelled. I gasped, oh hell he did not just use her full name.

"DON'T TALK TO ME LIKE YOU'RE UPPA BECAUSE YOU'RE MY FREAKING BROTHER!!"

"WELL STOP ACTING SO IMMATURE !! WHAT'S WRONG WITH JONGHYUN GETTING MARRIED TO SE KYUNG? HE'S HAPPY WITH HER! WHY CAN'T YOU BE HAPPY FOR HIM TOO?"

"I AM HAPPY FOR HIM!!

"THEN SHOW IT! SHOW JONGHYUN THAT YOU'RE HAPPY FOR HIM! DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD IT IS TO SEE MY FRIEND AND SISTER SO DEPRESSED?!"

"DO YOU KNOW HOW FREAKING HARD IT IS TO SEE YOUR FIRST LOVE WITH SOMEONE ELSE??!!"

My jaw dropped. She just said it out loud. The fact that I, Kim Jonghyun was her first love, first boyfriend, first kiss and first heartbreaker.

"K-Kyung? What did you just say?" Jinki stuttered.

" Do you know how hard it is to see your first love with someone else? To see them get someone in their heart, in their arms? Do you know how hard it is to hear that your first love is getting married? Do you know what it's like to try so hard to forget someone and not be able to? To still love someone after breaking up from a 7 years worth of love?  Ani, you don't know at all. Well it hurts a lot Jinki. It hurts so much , it's hard to even force a smile on!!"

"Jonghyun is your first love?"

"YES . YOU NOW YOU FREAKING KNOW!! ARE YOU HAPPY JINKI?  ALL YOU CARED ABOUT WERE JONGHYUN'S FEELINGS!! DID YOU EVER THINK OF MINE? DID YOU EVER WONDER IF THERE WAS SOME OTHER REASON THAT I WAS UPSET, BESIDES THE FACT THAT IT'S SE KYUNG THAT'S ENGAGED TO HIM?"

"Kyung...I didn't know...."

"WELL THEN WHAT THE HELL WOULD YOU HAVE DONE IF YOU KNEW? FORCE HIM INTO MARRYING ME INSTEAD? HOLDING A LIFE-LONG GRUDGE ON HIM?"

" Kyung, I'm s-"

"NO. DON'T' EVEN PITY ME JINKI. GOD I'M DONE. I'M DONE WITH ALL THIS! YOU WANT THE DRAMA TO END? THEN I'LL JUST LEAVE SEOUL AGAIN AND NEVER COME BACK!!" I heard her loud footsteps become even louder as she got to the door. She opened the door and ran right into my chest.

"Omo, Kyung why are you crying?" I asked, wiping away the tears I never wanted to see with my thumb.

"J-just a movie we were watching," She whimpered and I glanced into the SJ dorm. The TV isn't  even on," Did you just get here?"

"Uh, I just got here." I lied.

"Oh...w-well I'm gonna g-go..."

"Where? It's dark out."

"Ah Kiseop called....ah bye oppa.." She muttered before sprinting to the elevator.

I looked back at the guys in the dorm, they were putting on their coats and getting umbrellas," RUN AFTER HER JONGHYUN!!" They all shouted.

I caught up to Kyung right when the door closed. Donghae pulled my arm," This way!" We all started running down the stairs," Slide down the railing guys!" Donghae instructed.

It's scary sliding down the railing, I mean our floor is up pretty high. But it was a quicker way to get down. We got down there at the same time Kyung got off the elevator. I ran after her and right when we got to the other side of the street, I got a hold of her arm. I was surprised when I realized only I was on this side of the street with her, the others all watching us," Kyung!"

"What?" She snapped.

I put both of my hands on her shoulders," Kyung... I heard everything...."

" And what? It's not going to change ! Nothing is going to be the same anymore! You're going to marry Se Kyung!" She shouted at me.

I pulled her into my chest," Kyung! I don't want to marry Se Kyung! I don't even love her! The person I want to marry is you and that will never change!"

She  pushed away from me but still had her hands on my chest," YAH!! YOU'RE ENGAGED JONGHYUN!! I DON'T WANT TO BE THAT THIRD PERSON THAT RUINS EVERYTHING!! Do you know how hard it is, to see you do what you did what you once promised me? How hard it was when you said you were engaged? It reminded me of how you would tease me about marrying me in a heartbeat and how you would constantly practice on how you would propose to me. Do you know how hard it was to deal with all this? To deal with you living under the same roof, with you still being your flirty self, with you first dating and now engaged? " She yelled for me to hear and I bet the guys on the other side could hear everything too.

"YOU'RE NOT THAT THIRD PERSON BECAUSE I'VE ALWAYS LOVED YOU!" I yelled," If we're going to pin things on each other then why the hell did everyone else get a goodbye but me in your note?! Why did you cheat on me with Junhyung back when we were dating then? Why did you constantly push me away?! "

"DID YOU EVER THINK IT WAS BECAUSE I CAN'T EVEN STAND THE THOUGHT OF SAYING GOODBYE TO YOU?! I couldn't do it. I couldn't say goodbye to you. I loved all of them but no matter how hard I tried, I just couldn't say goodbye to you! I NEVER cheated on you! I lied to you so that you would move on with your life! I pushed you away because I didn't want your image to be ruined! Now let me go!" She shouted back trying to get out of my hold.

"Kyung! You're the one who can take down a guy three times your size. I should be no issue. Kyung-ah...." I paused due to getting choked up. She still loves me," You don't want me to let go do you? Kyung, you still love me.I know you still love me."

"Yah, Kim Jonghyun," She shouted through tears," How could you even do this?! I spent three years...three years of trying to forget you and not once did I forget you! I spent those three years blocking you off from my thoughts, blocking you out of my life. Do you know how hard it is to even live? We did everything together when we were little, I practically lived with you for most of my childhood. Taking a step is already hard because I realize how empty I feel when your arm isn't around my shoulders. Going to sleep is hard because I don't always have you next to me. Brushing my teeth was hard because you weren't there to pop out of nowhere and hug me. EVERYTHING REVOLVED AROUND YOU!!  I can act like nothing happened between us but a perfectly good friend. But I can't stand seeing you with someone else. Did you even think that I still loved you? BECAUSE I STILL DO!!! BUT WHAT GOOD IS THAT GOING TO DO?!"

I'm sorry Kyung...Kyung-ah, I'm so sorry It's all because I loved you, if I didn't love you then this wouldn't have all happened...

I pulled her back into my chest and kissed the top of her wet head," Kyung, I've loved you this whole time. To this day I still can't tell you why I had to break your heart 5 years ago. Has it been that long already? Has it already been 5 years since we broke up? Then I've waited five years to tell you that I loved you, that I never for one moment had feelings for anyone else, to say ‘Let’s marry.’ But not now — the things I want to tell you have changed… I can't say 'Will you marry me?' I waited for five years, wanting you to forget me and be happy. The moment I opened the door when you came back, I wanted to just hug you and never let you go. Do you think I didn't try to forget you? I spent one whole year constantly calling your phone, emailing you, going to your house to talk to you. But whenever I went to your place, I would get a ' She's sick'. I was so worried. I thought for a whole year you were sick, and it wasn't until the second year after our break up did I find out that you had left for  the States. I cried that day I found out. I cried because I thought I would never see your face again, that I would never hear your voice. I love you Kyung, I always have and I always will. ” Yeah, I watched 49 Days to see what Kyung was crying about and yes I just quoted Yi Soo.

"Wae? " She asked sobbing," WHY DO YOU KEEP DOING THIS TO ME?! You're driving me crazy! Not once did you get off my mind! I could bock you off from my thoughts but behind every thought you would be there! Kim Jonghyun, don't do this to me!"

I took my head off of hers and looked into her eyes with tears, “You know now how precious you were to me. You weren’t thrown away, you were the most important person to me. An incredible person. And so now, you’ll become someone else’s incredibly precious person. Not mine anymore. No matter how much I want you to be mine, I can't have you . I have to keep you safe.  Promise me that for my sake, you’ll be happy.  "

She bit her lip," Ani, I can't forget you. I don't want to. Saranghae... I'm yours. Heart and soul, I'm yours. But what good does that do? " She asked

What good does that do? It makes me the happiest man in the universe to know that you still love me Kyung.

I placed my forehead against hers," It means the world to me." I whispered before kissing her. I missed this, I've missed kissing her like this. I love this girl so much. It was just a kiss. A pure kiss. A kiss that I've longed for. I pulled away with my nose still touching hers," What value will there ever be in life, if we are not together?"

"I don't know. Do you love me?" She asked.

"With all my heart and soul. Don't speak or think Kyung. Just love me." I cracked a  small smile before kissing her again. I love how we're quoting Becoming Jane and 49 Days even though we're soaked to the bone now. I want this to last forever, I don't want to let go of her now. Nothing is going to stop me from losing her again, not even that bas-

" JONGHYUN!! WHAT ARE WE DOING?! " She suddenly shouted, breaking our kiss, pushing me away and then sprinted away.

It took me a moment to process what just happened," KYUNG!" I shouted , while running after her.

THUD

, what was that? My eyes widened when I saw Kyung fall to the ground and a van driving right past her, stopped. Someone got out of the car, picked up her body and threw her back into the car before driving off.

"KYUNG!!" The others all shouted. Minho being the athletic one chased after the car.  Please, just get her back. Please. I thought everything would be okay now, but now she's been kidnapped? This dirty world that won't let us have our happy ending.