A/N: Amber is the one speaking in this flashfic.

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Now we are standing before this vague line that was once so clear, a limit we both set and decide upon not to cross. The truth was you are forced to. I forced you. And I was too blind to notice that.

As the days go by, the line becomes vaguer. And eventually, there will be no line anymore. Yet, I am still standing behind it, waiting to turn things around. Hoping to fix everything, hoping you will stand behind the line, beside me again.

I am blaming myself to what is happening to us. I couldn't blame anyone else but myself. Making you wait, hoping that you'll understand. An apology won't even be enough. 

I was scared of how much I love you that I have pushed you away, scared because of the possibility of you just hurting me. But it turned out that you didn't and love me as much I love you.

I did get hurt not because of you though. I got hurt because it was the other way around. I was scared enough to push you away, that I have hurt you.

I thought that you will wait, that you will be patient enough for me. Thinking this is game that you willing to play with me, but all along, it were a game that had only one player. And I lost.

I should have never thought that you will wait. I should have never assumed that you will be patient enough. I should have never thought of this game in first place.

Full of regrets that led to disappointment; realizing that it was already too late, too late to hope to turn things around. It is already too late to fix this, to fix us.

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