Deserve

In Which Hyuk Wished N To Be Mute

When Ravi and Hongbin finally snapped out of their dazed state after hearing N's outburst, they rush out of the dorm to run after Leo and Ken. Well, only Ravi run after them while Hongbin rushes towards Hyuk who's still crying his eyes out on the floor. 

Just like Leo, Hongbin also find it hard to believe that their beloved maknae, Hyuk, said those horrible words to N. But in one way, he somehow understands why Hyuk did it. He knows that Hyuk is still in his rebellious stage, just like how he was a few years back.

He remembers storming out of the practice room, claiming that he wanted to quit when their debut was coming in just a few days. He remembers how upset Ken and Ravi were and how Leo seems to be angry at him while Hyuk merely sat at the corner of the room, looking dejected and sullen. He also remembers how N silently followed him as he went to the rooftop. He remembers how warm N's hug was. He remembers N whispering soothing words into his ears. He remembers N telling him that he believe in him and that he'll always be there for him. Yes, he remembers all those things and he's thankful for that. He's thankful for N because if it wasn't for him,he would never be with VIXX as he would have given up years ago.  

And he feels bad for Hyuk because when the maknae is experiencing his own rebellious stage, N isn't here for him. But he doesn't blame N though, because he knows, N is working hard for VIXX and he's too busy to spend them with them. 

"I'm sorry, Hyuk. "He whispers, tightening his hug just as Hyuk buries his face into Hongbin's shoulder. Yes, he's sorry. He's sorry for not being someone whom Hyuk can share his problems with, just like N to him. If only he cared enough to be an N for Hyuk, maybe all this wouldn't happen. 

 

 

When Ravi finally makes it out of the dorm, Minhyuk is already nowhere in sight. Leo is standing frozen in the hallway with Ken just a few steps behind him. 

"Hyung? "Ravi calls out hesitantly, slowly approaching Ken. "Why--where's Hakyeon-hyung? "He asks. 

Ken says nothing as he merely stares straight at Leo. 

Leo finally turn his back to face his two dongsaengs. "Minhyuk. "He says simply. 

Ravi blinks. He doesn't understand. 

Leo sighs as he raises a hand and wipe away the stray tears that has started to flow down his cheeks. "He's with Minhyuk, Wonshik. "He explains. 

"Why? "

"Because right now, we don't deserve him. "

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bibibelle #1
Chapter 86: I ended up read this story again...
after a bit catch up from their fan meeting yesterday, watching some cuts of fan cam video about ken's crying in the middle of his ment, and all the rest of the member give him a big hug.. A song that made by Hakyeon and also how many tears they have, while Hakyeon not crying even a biT..

I.feel somehow match well with this story... :')
chocolate
#2
Chapter 88: Thanks for the story. You are amazing! I really felt N's emotions. I was thinking that maybe those scenes might have happen in real life, too.
myintzuchan #3
Chapter 89: It's amazing. Thanks you autornim!
tutimeow #4
i don't even know why but i think i keep reading this story several times..
CravatSabotage
#5
Chapter 75: Still enjoying this story very much
Justareaderlol #6
Chapter 90: Wowwee, amazing!
HelpMe_ImDrowning
#7
Chapter 3: when you reread
bibibelle #8
Chapter 89: I wondered how can I just read this story by now when I was sured I already read all your story... :'D
I finished it within 2 days (not to mention 88 chapter hohoho), actually I cannot really stand long..long.. chapter if I'm not sure I love it enough...
It's add on my fave list again...

Thank you for keep writing about VIXX, author-nim...
Expecting more, more VIXX story in the future.. ;);););)
Annawa #9
Chapter 89: I've finished the story and it gave me many thoughts - about how we express our feelings, how much we hide sometimes (also what can hide under some kind of people's behaviours). VIXX members were so close to each other on emotional level in your story!! Despite their arguments and dramas it was full of warmth, love, compassion and sweetness. It was beyond cute:)

Hugs:)))
Annawa #10
Chapter 15: Still keep reading your stories. They are addictive!:))) Aww... One of the best stories I've ever read:))) I love them!