Ken let out a relieved sigh once Leo has managed to get N out of the maknaes' room safely. The relief soon turn into anger as he finally take the time to look at the person on the bed who hasn't even move since all the commotion happened. 

Without thinking, Ken step into the room, ignoring the fact that he's stepping on the shards of the broken bowl scattered all over the floor and the fact that his feet has started to bleed due to the wounds caused by the shards. All he has on his mind is how he's going to make Hyuk pay for the injury the maknae caused N. 

"You heartless maknae!" He growls with his teeth clenched, staring down at Hyuk who's still seated on the bed with his back supported by the head of the bed. 

Hyuk stares back at him with absolutely no emotion over his face, which made the main vocalist even more angry at the lack of response. 

"I don't care that you said all those things to me because I know you're right... "He trailed off, almost whispering but Hyuk can hear him anyway. 

'Stupid... '

'Shameless... '

'Retard... '

'Ugly... '

Yes, he can remember clearly what Hyuk said to him everytime the maknae's upset at him. It hurts a lot, he won't deny that. But he's learnt to just let it go and pretend like he didn't hear him, pretend like it doesn't affect him as he continues to act silly. 

He knows that it may seems like a meaningless argument but each time Hyuk threw those words at him, his heart crack little by little until it breaks completely like what's happening now. 

'So is he to blame for being mad at Hyuk? '

'Is it his fault for being angry and upset? '

'Does he not deserve to have feelings? '

'Should he just let all those hurtful words affect him without given the chance to stand up for himself? '

'Yes? '

Surely, the answer is yes. 

He was supposed to be the cheerful, funny and silly member of the group so he totally doesn't deserve to portray other emotion. 

He isn't supposed to feel angry, sad or even down. 

He should always put on that fake mask over his face. 

He should just withstand the pain.

'If only Hakyeon-hyung would understand. '

Ken inhales deeply, uncurling his fist as he remembered N's words. 

'Don't hurt him back because doing that means you hurt me too. '

Yeah, he shouldn't hurt Hyuk back because it means he'll hurt N too. 

"But please...  stop doing all this to Hakyeon-hyung... "

"He has sacrificed so much for you... "

"For us... "