I still can't get over this.... I can't stop thinking about it... He really said that.... 

Tao you lil piece of how can you say that?  I haven't been in a good mood since a week but after reading the translation of what he said I can't explain how my feelings have suddenly changed....

I have to admit, these latest days I haven't been feeling good. Since his concert to be exact... I wasn't willing to write about it here to be honest, I didn't want to annoy everyone again with the same story. I know you might think "ugh she's talking about this again!" but I couldn't keep it for myself...

Before the concert I was feeling so down because, again, I wasn't able to attend it, and I also thought I was going to miss the live streaming too. At last I have managed to watch it and at first I felt better because I could see it in time, but I have been overwhelmed with work after that and I still can't watch fancams or save his pics (there are sooo many) like usual so I'm feeling quite distant and I don't like it (I can't wait to get some free time to do all this). But at times I managed to see few things and there were some that, I have to admit, made me feel so miserable, weak.... I was feeling quite angry, at myself of course, but also... -just a little, a really tiny bit- at him. Those are basically the same things that I talked about in the Crown MV... this time when I watched clearer versions of Cinderella Girl and especially Adore (his new song)... "jealous" as a word doesn't really describe how I felt... Someone can be jealous when he wants the same thing that someone else got... but this is not it. I actually like how his dancers team seem to be happy to perform together and with him, they even call th