I really have a lot of things to say but at the same time I don’t know how to start.

I feel sad, devastated. I don’t even have tears to cry  (or at least not as much as I was expecting), not just because ‘maybe’ he’s leaving, but also because of all this hate and indifference towards him.

People yesterday were like: "Tao don’t leave Tao don’t leave I am tired of this I can't see EXO with one less member"..... but today they are more like "EXO is maybe losing another member but omg are these Baekyeol with kids?" is this how important Tao is for you? He said he'll make an announcement today but no one really cares? If this is really how much you care about him, then he has all the right to leave and you have no right to complain.

As his VVHL, I knew all what Tao has been through, maybe this is why I am not completely against his departure. It's true that 2 members already left and it was so hard when it was Kris, it was less hard when it was Luhan (even though I believe it's a compeletely other case) but it still was hard. Tao being the 3rd member doesn't mean that we got used to seeing them leaving, it still hurts. But as I said, knowing all what he has been through, I have to admit that I myself, had come to a point where I wished Tao could leave this band. It made me accept his father's decision and see it from a complete other point of view. Tao had endured a lot. Let's not just talk about being apart from his family because this is every Chinese member in a Korean band's issue. Let's rather talk about things that are only related to Tao. Tao, this ball of sunshine that has always made our days bright with his laughs and smiles. He cried a lot, you might say. True, he's the member who cries the most. But do you know that he never cried because of an injury? He always cried because he was happy or grateful or because he couldn't show his fans a perfect performance. He never complained about his injuries and always tried to hide them. The only time he said "it hurts" was after his injury worsened after the comeback stage of CMB. He always attended all EXO's schedules even when injured, even when he had to rest. It was devastating for me to see him suffering each time and end up saying that "he's okay, he's fine"  while he was not, saying "he's sorry" while he did nothing wrong. Did you know Tao got injured 19 times in just 3 years? Of course not to count the number of times he fell on or off stage because of the slippery ground, they are uncountable. Did you know that he once underwent a leg surgery? He actually kept appearing in all their schedules and no one noticed anything (I, myself, only knew about it yesterda