So first, I would like to thank again one of my friends -who will surely read this- and who told me about the event. Sometimes even your closest friends totally forget about you when it comes to their own happiness (I know this because I've experienced it). But this friend told me about the event as soon as she knew and even said she can do it for me if I couldn't. So thank you A LOT, and even if I don't get to be chosen I will still appreciate what you did because it deeply touched me. 

Second. "Ummm what to say?" That is all I could think about when I wanted to start writing. You know for someone like me, someone who had always written what she thinks, someone who had written more than 280 posts about Tao (280 just here on aff, not to mention other websites), how could I summarize everything in just 500 characters? So I just put some words into sentences and even borrowed some from these posts and published them.

No matter how many times I've re-read my own post, I'd think: "This is not enough! This lacks so many things, so many thoughts I wanted and still want to say!".

But I thought that, maybe I'd write the most important thing as for now. And the most important thing right now is TAO REGAINING CONFIDENCE. I wanted to tell him more about my own feelings but that would only make me feel better. 'ME', and not him. (well maybe him too because it always makes you feel happy to know that you are 'loved' but... I want him to have confidence again, th