Do you know what it feels like to hear Tao saying with a full smile and bright eyes that he LIKES SHI MIN AH?? When he tells Jo Sung Mo "When you meet her tell her about EXO's TAO" like he wants her to know about him by any means? And then when he says "I came out in time" because he succeeded to say it and sighs in relief about it....

I feel like stabbed in the heart with his own sword and beaten to death with his own stick.

I used to like her.

Used to.

I still don't hate her though. I don't.

If he likes her, do I hate to wish that he meets her or something? Because I know how it feels like, just the way I want to meet him too, badly. (well not exactly because no one would want this more than I do wish to see him)

But I can't.

Why is my heart aching this way? Why are my eyes wet? Did he really have to reveal it now?

It's not like I was waiting for him to tell me that he wants me or anything -this will only happen in my dreams- and I know very well that the day I would have to let him go is when he meets the girl he wants to spend his whole life with. just that girl, no matter who she is. But I was not waiting for this... I mean, he's probably not liking her in a way that makes him want to marry her, I mean, maybe he wants to go out with her but... not as someone that he'd be ready to spend the rest of his days with. I was not waiting for this. I was just preparing myself for that one girl Tao I can't be stabb