I don't know why I haven't been updating like usual. I feel like I have so many things to say but then again I feel like I'm out of words, like I have nothing else to say, like I've been repeating everything again and again. Maybe this is why...

I can say it as many times as I can breathe. I will never get tired of it. My eyes have gotten used to get teary whenever I feel so weak, whenever I remember that I can do nothing, that I am powerless. They've gotten used to become teary whenever I see him, whenever I write things down, here. It's become more usual with him filming this show, being with his "daughter" .

I can say it as many times as I can breathe. I meant it.

I love you Tao.

I love you I swear I do.