So, I wanted to divide this post into 2 parts because... well I'm confused now that I've heard both bad news and I didn't get to write anything about the 1st one because I was not at home, but then when I wanted to write my thoughts down I heard about the second part of the bad news and now it seems like everything is mixed in my mind but I decided to make this into 2 parts because (1) if I put everything in just one post it'll be so long and (2) I want to write about what happened in the morning first. 

141010 [PART 1]

So he left. Luhan left. The rumors were actually true. I knew he would leave but when I heard it was confirmed... You can imagine the shock.

I was not home all day and all day I was using my phone till it run out of battery.

You know, I'm not mad. I'm not angry. As I said before, I knew he would leave and I was not that surprised but well... it hurt. It still hurts.

And I thought of the 2 left. TaoXing. They'd have to indure hard times after 2 of the Chinese members were gone.

And I remembered the rumors I heard before about KrisLayHan leaving.... without Tao. And today I read about baidu mentioning that Tao will be the next to leave...

I am not against China line leaving. SM is not giving them all their rights, and EXO M has always been like a replacement to EXO K when K members couldn't do everything alone, as if EXO is just EXO K. Of course I'm not saying they are not one. They have always been, but SM doesn't treat them the same way.

But if one member is left, whether i