I was about to give up.

Yes.

I was going to give up on everything.

After seeing him in that pic from The Celebrity Magazine with that Chinese actress... I got so depressed... 

I was about to cry but I don't know from where I got the power to hold back the tears.

I hated everything. I hated myself for being so in love with him. 

"He's a celebrity, he's an idol. I knew something like that was going to happen. I know something even bigger will happen, if it's a hug or a kiss in a Cf or in a drama... that doesn't matter. It's just GOING TO HAPPEN." I was telling myself.

I knew it, yet I got hurt so bad.

I knew it, yet it broke my heart.

He's Huang Zi Tao. He's EXO's Tao. How can I even get jealous? Do I even have the right to be jealous?

NO.

That is one thing I am sure of.

I will never, ever get to see him. I will never get close to him. So how can I even get jealous? How the hell did I manage to fall head over heels for someone just as unreachable as TAO?

How can I get over this?

It hurt. It still hurts. It will always hurt if I don't forget him. So I had to convince myself: I have to forget him! I don't have the right to love him.

One day later, I'm here writing this, tears in the eyes, and blaming myself... because I can't. I just can't.

How to forget someone you've loved that much? How to forget someone that has always been your everything since a