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So many things today...

Tao with BLACK hair again (you know it's my favorite).

Tao in black outfit (my favorite as well).

Tao in black hair AND black outfit is the best.

So at first I had to freak out because of this. Then there's...

Tao cried in Kugou Music interview.

Tao said he'll perform 20 songs in his concert (unconfirmed cause Chinese media say he'll perform 8 songs from his album but maybe he'll make covers too who knows). The concert will take 90 mins.

Tao said the leopard in the MV is HIM: agility and sharpness. (I hella knew it was HIM).

I was in the agency and I had to eat my screams and stop my tears when I read this one:

Tao said in Crown MV there's a.... kiss scene...

So he did it... it's actually over the MV has been already filmed but... he did it... HE KISSED A GIRL T_T

I know Nick Lentz already hinted about the kiss but... Tao actually CONFIRMED IT! How am I going to survive when right now I'm crying oceans? I haven't even seen it! I tried to contain the tears the whole morning and now that I got home I can't stop! 

I don't want to be like this I hate being like this, so possessive and so selfish about Tao when actually I am nothing and I will never be a thing for him why am I even doing this to myself why can't I control myself why can't I stop this feeling this jealous this childish behavior? Tell me please how to stop it I can't no more.