Believe me when I say it, I freeze whenever I access my FB profile...

That eye contact intimidates me...

I've been working all day long, I've missed you today more than yesterday, I'll miss you every day more than the previous...

Work, work, work... I hate this feeling! Tao's birthday is almost here, I have collected so many videos since months to use them in the birthday video I was going to make for him, but I've barely organized them and wrote the text, and it's my first time working with vegas pro so it's going to take much more time than expected (I've been using Movie Maker for years) BUT I can barely find time to breathe, HOW THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO MAKE THT VIDEO?? I feel so guilty, and I've been waiting for this since months, and now that the D-Day is approaching, I can't do anything T_T

I don't know why I'm writing this but I feel like crying...

If I ever didn't make it, then you have to know it was out of my power Tao, I'm sorry... forgive m