These days writing everything here has become hard. I don't know why. Maybe because I've discovered many HLs (on twitter, I've never been this active on twitter, and I'm starting to regret becoming active on it). Reading their updates you can see they all think the same. No, actually, WE all think the same, as HLs. We love Tao, we want to protect Tao, we want Tao to be okay, we are proud of Tao, we are worried about Tao.... And now I feel like an insignificant drop in a huge ocean I feel so small I feel like becoming more and more distant without changing my place, I'm in Tunisia, I've always been in Tunisia, but seeing this number of HLs, seeing how many of them have met him in person, how many of them are so close to him, I can't help but feel smaller... I've always thought that no one can love him as much as I do, no one can worry about him as much as I do, no one can be proud of him as much as I do, I've been waiting for the day I'd tell him all this (even thought I already know that day will never come) but seeing how much these HLs care about him, how close they are of him, I think they can tell him all the words I want to tell him myself, maybe they've already done so, I'm so happy he has so many HLs that worry about him, but all this makes me feel unimportant...