All these posts and the thoughts I'm writing... you know... I've started writing them here because I wanted to share my feelings and I wanted to keep them and it was just easier posting everything here. But sometimes some subscribers think this is some kind of story and they're waiting for the final chapters... they think that my 1000th thought, chapter 1000 , will be the last chapter and the ending of this long story.

Well no. This is not a story. This is all about me, this is me, my real life, my days. And I don't even know if I'll be able to reach the 1000th chapter, I don't know if I'll stop everything at the 200th or the 10 000th one. I can't know. Because I also can't know how my feelings will change and how my future will be.

But sometimes I think... Can it be one? Can this be a long chaptered story? Will I one day write the 1000th chapter? And if I come to write it, will it start with"I'm leaving everything, I've found a new REAL life" or "I've finally gotten what I've been dreaming of for years" ?

I can't know...