Daydreaming about you.

It's not something new you know.

It's not like I've never done it.

But things have become harder for me.

Thinking about you is a pain. 

I don't know what is happening to me.

I can't even think properly anymore!

Now I want you more than ever.

I need you more than anytime before.

I'm starting to imagine my whole life with you, you and only you.

I can't even imagine my future without you anymore!

I'm only seeing myself wrapped in your arms, loving you.

I'm only seeing myself embracing you, holding you close to my heart, and you, loving me.

You know, that lullaby, I want to hear you singing it for me every night.

I'm seeing a perfect life, with you and no one but you.

I'm seeing a  perfect 'me' that you want to have beside you forever.

But I'm not perfect, I will never be, no matter how hard I try.

And a perfect 'you' can never match a lowly 'me'.

You are unreachable. That's all.

Why have things turned out this way?

How am I supposed to live a happy life without you?

I want you to know how much I love you.

And I don't want to hear 'I love you too'.

Because you don't love me and you never will.

Because it would be a fake 'I love you too'.

Just because I am your 'fan'. Or more, your Hailang.

But that's all.