Why do I feel lost these days?

Why am I feeling empty?

Why does it hurt to see him these days?

It's not the first time, I have to say, but from time to time the pain feels so much stronger.

And as if it was not enough, he's been updating a lot these latest days...

I hate this, it makes me feel so small, so distant, so powerless, and so... meaningless...

Why does everything seem to be against me? Why does everything I want so dearly never come true? Why is it always like that? When I'm on the point of achieving something, everything falls apart. When I try to help someone, I end up being the disadvantaged one?

When I try to work things out, when I try to do my best, there's always someone or something that'll make all what I've worked on so far go in vain and make me feel like I'm a burden to everyone.

I hate this. I hate this feeling.