The gloomy surrounding makes Kyungsoo feels so sad. He slowly opens the door to the ICU room where Lyn was taken. He is wearing a special outer layer on top of his outfits, for hygiene reason. He is alone. Others give him space to spend his time with Lyn. Each steps he gets closer to the bed where his wife is lying down, the tears fall harder. She looks so pale. He slowly touches her cold freezing hand. He kisses it. He sits at the edge of the bed looking at the unmoving wife. He carefully caresses her normally red cheeks which are now looking more purplish. He stands up and slowly bends down his body. He plants a long kiss on Lyn’s forehead. His tears fall on her face and he quickly wipes it. He looks at her close eyes. “Lyn thank you so much for not giving up. Dear God thank you for listening to my prayer. Thank you for giving me another chance to live with this girl.” He whispers.

Earlier when he got to the operating room, everyone was crying because the doctor told them that Lyn had passed the critical stage. They were all extremely happy to hear the news. It was like a miracle. It rarely happened before. The doctor said that Lyn’s desire to stay alive was very strong. Though the success percentage was very thin, they almost lost her after three hours of trying; she suddenly gave an excellent response to the medication after that. He told them that she still needed an intensive care to monitor the after-effect of the poison she consumed. The doctor said that the poison was one of the most dangerous ones. He wondered where that person got it because it was not a typical one. He was more surprised that Lyn survived it because the amount that she consumed was not little. He told them to make sure they are clean before coming to see Lyn because her antibody at the moment is very low. She is really sensitive right now. She needs to rest well so that she will recover faster.

Though Lyn is still unconscious right now or to be accurate she is in coma, Kyungsoo is still thankful because Lyn is still here with him. The doctor told him that it is normal for cases related to poison; the patients will stay in coma for a while. That is because the body needs a really good rest after battling over the unknown stuff. He can’t say how long Lyn will stay unconscious because it all depends on her now. He advises them to keep her company and try to talk to her so that she knows that there are people waiting for her here. Kyungsoo can’t stop looking at his beautiful wife. She looks so pale and weak but her beautiful traits are still there. He plants more kisses on her cheeks and nose. It is as if he is paying back the past moments where he didn’t get to do that to her. He had always wanted to kiss her whenever he met her but he held back. He regrets it now. “Lyn, I know you can listen to me right now. And I know you can feel my touch. It is just that you can’t respond to me because you are exhausted, right? It is okay. Get a nice rest and respond to me when you’re ready to wake up, okay? I got so many things to say to you. I got tonnes of secrets to tell you. There are a lot that you don’t know about me. About us. But I promise you that I will let you know one by one once you wake up, okay sweetheart? This time, I won’t break my promise.” He holds her hand and rubs it. The cold hand, he wants to warm it. Actually no one knows if she can her them or feel the touch but Kyungsoo just said that because he wants to stay positive.

Kyungsoo looks at her pretty fingers. The nails that she always keeps short and clean. They look so shiny. He continues talking to his sleeping wife. “Should I tell you one of my biggest secrets today Lyn? Let me think first. Which one should I share with you? Oh, this one, the recent one. I know you don’t know that I was so happy when I got to kiss you on our wedding anniversary. I felt like I didn’t want to let you go that time. The kiss was so beautiful though I know you were super surprised to suddenly be kissed by me. Thank you for not rejecting me. But I know you didn’t mind because I am your husband, right? I really wanted to jump around telling people that I was so happy to finally get to kiss my bride. But people will look at me as if I was crazy. And you will be embarrassed because of me, right? So I held back. Hehe. My beautiful wife, I am so happy to have you in my life. You are the most precious gift I have ever got. You are my happiness. You mean the whole world to me. You must be so surprised to hear this from me, right? But this is the truth. It was hard for me to ignore you. And I have my own reasons for doing that. I want to protect you. I don’t know if you realize it or not but I have been showing you my real feelings the past few months. I spent my off days at home so that I could spend my time with you and so that I could eat everything that you made for me. Being with you makes me feel happy and thankful. Thank you for always cooking for me. Thank you for always accompanying me to watch the movie at home. The truth is it’s not that I am not used to watch the movie alone but I love having you around. Sometimes it’s more like I am watching you than the movie. I hope you can forgive me for that.” He smiles reminiscing about some cute moments of them together being in their cinema room. Lyn is always with her book while Kyungsoo is watching the movie. She rarely rejected his requests. Not once or twice, she fell asleep on the sofa holding her book. Kyungsoo normally would just let her sleep. While waiting for her to wake up, he would watch another movie. Their typical routines when they are both home.

Looking at Lyn’s calm face, Kyungsoo still remembers how his mother slapped her really hard few weeks ago because of Ahn So Ra’s story of lies. He still can’t believe how his parents trusted her that easily. They must be blinded by the fact that they are going to be grandparents soon. They forgot to ask him either it is really his baby or not. They never asked him not even once. He didn’t know that their love for his wife was that thin. He touches her face. “You must be so surprised when omeoni slapped you few weeks ago. You must be really scared when they yelled at you like you’re not human. You must be really shocked to see So Ra was there with me. But I know that you were not surprised seeing me staying still not trying to stop them from doing whatever they wanted because in your mind, this is what I wanted from the very beginning. Am I right? But sweetheart, let me tell you one thing. I was used by her. She threatened to hurt you if I didn’t follow what she planned. I believe you still remember the incident where you almost got hit by a car few months ago. Do you know who planned all that? It was her plan. How do I know? She told me everything. She promised me that she would never hurt you as long as I agreed with her plan. She wanted me to acknowledge the baby she is carrying until she gives birth. Only then, she will tell our family the truth. In return, she won’t do anything to you. That is why I agreed with her crazy plan but she broke her promise. She still hurt you though I did everything that she asked me to. Do you know how hurt I was seeing you being treated like that by my own parents? And do you know how surprised I was when Sehun told me that you were poisoned? I can’t live without you. So please Lyn, wake up so that I can ask for your forgiveness and we can start all over again.” He stops and wipes his tears. He can’t stop crying for being guilty and heart-broken.

Suddenly the door is open; a female nurse comes to check on Lyn. Kyungsoo gives her way. “Everything seems normal. Her blood pressure is okay. She is all good.” She says to Kyungsoo who is waiting for her review. “If everything is okay, why is she still unconscious nurse?” He asks her. “This is all up to her now. That is why for patients in coma, we always advise the family to keep giving them support, so that the patient will have the desire to come back alive. Most of the cases, the patient woke up after getting the emotional support from the family. So don’t give up and please be patient. In Lyn ssi’s case, she has a very big chance to wake up from the coma. Let’s just wait. By the way, I will have to ask you to leave in 10-15 minutes; Lyn ssi needs a good rest. You can come again tomorrow. Don’t worry because all the patients are well monitored by all the nurses here. The doctors are on standby to treat the patients. I’ll come back again after 10 minutes.” She then leaves Kyungsoo with his wife in the room.

“Lyn, I have to leave now. I am sorry I can’t accompany you today. Your condition doesn’t allow me to do so. But I will be back again tomorrow. Please wait for me. Be a good girl. Get enough rest and please come back to me soon. For now, I let you get as much rest you need. All of my members are out there. Seungsoo hyung, Noh hyung, Seungjae hyung, Jeongmin hyung are all here. Jae Rin noona is here too. We are all here to give you support. So please wake up so that we can see your beautiful smile again. I’ll see you again tomorrow sweetheart.” Kyungsoo holds her hand and kisses it for a while. He then bends his body down so that he can kiss her forehead, two close eyes, her cute nose, and her cheeks ri