CHAPTER 53:

 

 

 

 

We arrive in Seoul safe and sound. We're back to reality once again. Work, work and work. I'm busy unpacking our luggages while the 5 boys are in the living room teasing Jiyong about his reaction to the pranked. My poor baby! Even PP is joining the chaos.

 

My door suddenly opens then Gian enters my room. Whoa! She didn't know how to knock! She's carrying a shopping bag. Another christmas gift for me?

 

Gian: "Here!"

Chelle: "Christmas gift for me?"

Gian: "No! I found another box when we arrived this morning. Good thing TOP, Dae and Bae didn't noticed it."

 

She hand me the shopping bag, when I open it, I saw a personalized Hello Kitty diamond studded bracelet, 3 packs of Bigbang chocolate mini bars and a note.

 

I CANT WAIT TO SEE YOU!-BLUE

 

I hand the note to Gian but I think she's much interested to my chocolates.

 

Gian: "So it means you're going to see your secret admirer?"

Chelle: "What do you think he'll looks like?"

Gian: "I hope he's handsome as Ilwoo."

Chelle: "Not bad!"

Gian: "Speaking of Ilwoo, here! We forgot the phone. 30 test messages, 55 missed calls and 12 emails. I think he's worried! Why don't you call him?

Chelle: "We forgot to greet him and Minho Merry Christmas. I also forgot to give them my presents."

Gian: "You can do that tomorrow. And by the way, Mr.Kang and manager Kim insisted that we cant tell the boys that Ilwoo and Minho will be there too."

Chelle: "You mean they'll be in Strong Hearts tomorrow? I didn't know about it Gian. Oh my! Im in trouble. Ilwoo and Jiyong in one show!"

Gian: "Yup! You will see Ilwoo and his friend Minho."

Chelle: "They're friends?"

Gian: "Yup!"

Chelle: "How did you know that?"

 

Gian just shrugged her shoulders. Uhmmmmm I wonder how she knew about Ilwoo and Minho being friends.

 

Gian: "Don't forget to wear your ring, okay?"

Chelle: "I can't! It's going to be unfair to Jiyong."

Gian: "It's up to you! But i'll bring it just in case."

Chelle: "I don't know what yo do anymore! Can I back out? Tell them i'm sick."

Gian: "Sorry but you can't! Anyway it will go smoothly so don't worry."

 

My mond goes into whirl wind. What will I do?

 

Chelle: "Can I tell Jiyong about it?"

Gian: "Go ask Mr.Kang or manager Kim. They don't want to tell them because your boyfriend will go thermonuclear again."

 

I sat on my bed trying to think what to do. The day that I fear is about to come. GD enter my room when Gian left.

 

GD: "Hey baby you okay? You look so upset."

Chelle: "Nothing! Maybe i'm just tired. What's with the frowned face anyways?" I said and try to act normal as I can.

GD: "They're laughing at me. They keep on bullying me because of the frank. Maknae got the others on his side. Your baby is being bullied by everyone."

 

Instead of answering him, I laugh on Jiyong's reaction. He looks like a kid who lost his precious candy.

 

GD: "So you're laughing at me also? Hmpf!" He said and turn his back on me.

Chelle: "Hey i'm sorry! I'm just kidding. Come here!"

GD: "No!"

Chelle: "Baby come here!"

GD: "I said no!"

Chelle: "Aigoo! My baby's really upset. Fine, i'll leave you alone. You don't want to come? I'll take a shower myself."

GD: "I know what your doing. Do you want me to scrub your whole body?"

Chelle: "I thought you don't want to come."

GD: "No! I told you, it wont happen again until you're ready."

 

Jiyong went out of my room and went to the boys room. I was about to enter the bathroom when Ri enter carrying PP.

 

SR: "My girlfriend, PP needs a bath."

Chelle: "Sure! I'm taking a bath. pP can join me. Lets go, PP! Lets shower together."

SR: "My girlfriend can I join you?"

Chelle: "No!"

SR: "I'll help you with our daughter, promise!"

Chelle: "Okay! Get PP's clothes first."

 

Seung Ri went to get PP's stuff. I change my clothes to Jiyong's boxer and a top tube. I soak in the bathtub with PP. Seung Ri came back, take off his shirt and pants. He's wearing a cute boxers. It has a panda print on it. He reach for PP's shampoo and join us in da bathtub.

 

We're almost done washing PP when Jiyong enter the bathroom.

 

GD: "What are you doing?"

SR: "We're giving our daughter a bath hyung!"

Chelle: "PP needs a bath. I'm glad Ri help. PP is so playful! Look at my floor?"

GD: "I don't care if Panda is playful. Yah! Maknae get out! How dare you wear boxers in front of my baby."

SR: "What's your problem hyung? YB hyung is always shirtless in this apartment."

GD: "That's different!"

Chelle: "My boyfriend drain the water. Then go and take a bath in you room. Give PP to Gian. The dragon is serious. I don't want my Hello Kitty stuff to get burn." I whispered to Ri.

 

When Ri saw GD's serious face, he grab his clothes and went outside.

 

SR: "Why always mad at me? I'm not doing anything wrong. I'm just helping my girlfriend give bath to our daughter." We heard Ri said while leaving the room.

 

I change the water on the bathtub. I wash my self inside the shower cubicle, remove my clothes and put my bathrobe on. When I went out, GD's already soaking himself in the bathtub while his eyes closed.

 

Chelle: "Yah! Kwon Jiyong get out of my bathtub. I'm not yet done. I need to relax. You and Ri is stressing me out. You always fight in front of me."

GD: "Just join me baby. Your boyfriend is also stressing me out."

Chelle: "No! Just call me when you're done."

 

I wander back in the room. What will happen tomorrow? Should I tell Jiyong about this or should I talk to Ilwoo and tell him about my relationship with GD?

 

I fell asleep thinking what to do and wake up the following day. This is it! I took a deep breath and close my eyes. Lord God, please guide me today. I turn to look at GD who's sleeping soundly beside me.

 

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We're all in the dressing room of Strong Heart back stage when the floor director comes in. He told us to get ready. The show is going to start in 5 minutes. I was quietly siting on the chair when Gian came to me.

 

Gian: "You forgot this." She said while giving me a wear it look as she hand me the ring.

DS: "Its beautiful noona. Where did you get it?"

Gian: "Its from Ilwoo. That's their couple ring."

Chelle: "I don't want to wear it." 

Gian: "Stop being stubborn! Ilwoo's wearing his ring."

GD: "What? Ilwoo?"

Gian: "Yes, Ilwoo! He's going to be one of the guest. He's with Minho."

SR: "I thought its going to be us and my girlfriend."

TOP: "Why didn't you tell me? Tell us?"

 

Before Gian can answer, manager Kim enters the dressing room.

 

GD: "Manager Kim, why didn't you tell us that Ilwoo and Minho will be here?"

Mr.Kim: "Because I don't want drama Jiyong. I don't want trouble. All of you, please behave!"

YB: "Let it go Jiyong. Its just a show."

 

Jiyong stare at me and sigh.

 

GD: "Fine! Baby wear your ring."

Chelle: "No! I dont want to wear it."

GD: "It suits you. Wear it! And besides its just an ordinary ring."

Chelle: "No Jiyong, its NOT just a ring."

 

Jiyong was about to open his mouth when manager Kang enters the dressing room and instructed me to go out on stage with Ilwoo. I do as I told. i say goodbye to everyone and give Jiyong a quick peck on the lips.

 

At the backstage, we are waiting while the hosts of the show introduce us. Mr. Kang approach me and hand me the ring.

 

Mr.Kang: "Wear it! Now!"

 

When me and Ilwoo get out of the stage, everyone is screaming at the top of their lungs. Suddenly I panicked when I saw the siting arrangements. Me and Ilwoo will sit together. Next to me is a single couch. Its for GD while YB sits next to Ilwoo. Then TOP, Dae, Ri and Minho will sit behind us. What the heck! This is going be not good.

 

When we settle in our seats, Minho together with the BB members appear on the stage. GD went straight to his assigned chair and look into me. Before Ilwoo sits down beside me, he takes off his coat and drape it on my lap.

 

Host: "Welcome to Strong Hearts! Wow! We have many guest today. We're going to talk about friendship today. Wow Chelle, you're so beautiful in person."

Ilwoo: "I'm a very lucky guy."

SR: "Me too!"

Host: "Wait! Chelle I know Ilwoo is your yeobo right? Who is Seung Ri in your life?"

Chelle: "Seung Ri is my boyfriend." I said and smile sweetly then turn to look at Ri.

SR: "Yes! Thats right! I'm the boyfriend."

TOP: "Its just an endearment."

 

Everyone laughs. The whole audience laughs to Seung Ri's cuteness.

 

Host: "Okay! So you're just an imaginary boyfriend?"

SR: "No! I'm the one and only boyfriend. Do you know that we have a daughter?"

YB: "Stop with the nonsense maknae!"

SR: "Yah! We do! Hi PP! She's watching right now."

 

My boyfriend knows how to deal with the crowd. He is such a sweetheart.

 

Host: "Let me ask all,of you a personal question. Are you in a relationship? Let me start with YB."

YB: "I'm very much single right now."

DS: "Single! Soon to be dating, I hope."

Host: "Wow! That's a revelation. How about you Minho?"

Minho: "I'm single!"

SR: "I told you I have a girlfriend."

TOP: "I'm in a relationship right now and i'm very happy with her."

Host: "Good to hear that. How about you Ilwoo?"

Ilwoo: "I have my yeobo, so I don't need a girlffriend."

Host: "GD?"

 

Everyone screams even before Jiyong opens his mouth. I hope he confess that we're together.

 

GD: "I'm single!"

 

What the hell? I saw Gian raised her brow when she heard what GD said. I want to cry. It feels like he slap me several times. He denied me again. Then I feel someone grab my hand and squeeze it gently. Its Ilwoo! Even though he's not talking I know that he's worried for me. 

 

Host: "Wow! The famous GD is single! Are you telling the truth?"

GD: "Yes! I'm very much single and ready to mingle!"

Host: "Okay! So many girls have hopes. I wont ask Ilwoo anymore. His busy holding Chelle's hand. How about you Chelle?"

 

I pulled my hand to Ilwoo. Take a deep breath, lift my face and look to Ilwoo. He smiled into me and nod. I turn to look in the crowd and give the sweetest smile that I can give.

 

Chelle: "My lovelife? Well i'm inlove to someone."

Host: "Sounds interesting. Can you tell about that someone?"

Chelle: "Well I don't think I have to mention him. I love the guy so much. He said he loves me but right now I don't know. So I cant say if i'm single or not."

Host: "So Ilwoo you have a chance and to that guy Chelle refers to, you dont know what's your missing. So in short, TOP is in a relationship. I can say that Dae have a special someone. Ilwoo is inlove with her yeobo and Seung Ri is a father while GD and YB are both single. Wait? Pictures of GD and Chelle was all over the net during the concert in Hongkong. You look sweet together. Can you tell me about it?"

Chelle: "Well G-Dragon's a good guy. He's just looking after me. And my bag is a little heavier thats why he carried it for me."

Host: "So the rumors not true about you and GD dating. GD just confess that he's single. How about the incident happen in Osaka. We never heard any statement from you."

 

I was shocked to the question. I look at my manager asking for help. That thing! I don't want to remember anything from that night. 

 

Chelle: "It was my decision. Its already in the past so I don't want to talk about it anymore."

GD: "I spoke to Kiko and she said she never mean to hurt anyone. The bottle slip from her hands."

Host: "Did you ever had the chance to talk to her Chelle?"

Chelle: "No! I dont. I was rush in the hospital to get a few stitches on my cut." 

GD: "I know Kiko. She's not the type of person who will hurt anyone."

 

What the hell?! Am I hearing it right? Jiyong just defended Kiko. The tears in fighting fell in my eyes. I felt Ilwoo's hands gently rubbing my back. I immediately wipe the tears with the back of my hands and turn to Ilwoo. A bitter smile plastered in my lips. I mouthed "Thank you!" He just nod but I know that look. He's worried! I startled when the I heard the host's voice. I was lost for a moment. I hope this interview ends. NOW! 

 

Host: "I see lets move on! Christmas just pass. Whats the greatest gift you received and whats your wish?"

SR: "GD hyung bought me a laptop. And my wish is to stay handsome until I get old."

Host: "You never fail to surprise me Seung Ri. What about Jiyong?"

GD: "I wish that all VIPs will continue to love us until whenever."

Host: "Where did you spend christmas GD?"

GD: "I went to Phuket with manager Kim. I have a photoshoot there."

Host: "Its just you and manager Kim?"

GD: "Yes!"

Host: "How about you Dae? Did you spend christmas here or out of the country?"

DS: "Out of the country. I'm with YB and TOP hyung and with his girlfriend."

Host: "Ilwoo and Minho, how about the two of you?"

Minho: "Me and Ilwoo just stay here with our family."

Host: "Chelle?"

Chelle: "I'm in the Philippines with my family and friends."

Host: "How about your christmas wish?"

Chelle: "I wish to be with the one I love forever!"

 

After I answer, a pic flash in the screen. Its Ilwoo holding my hands a while ago. They zoomed out our knotted hands and the couple ring expose to everyone. Shocked registered to my face. When I turn to Ilwoo, he's just siting calmly beside me.

 

Host: "Care to tell what's with the matching rings about? By the way its nice."

Chelle: "We're shooting We Got Married and we told to wear the ring everytime we're together."

Minho: "Really? I don't think so. That's Ilwoo's parents couple rings. Its actually their family heirloom. The ring transferred to their sons generation by generation."

Host: "Its that true Ilwoo?"

Ilwoo: "Yup! That true. I believe she's the one for me."

 

Everyone screams. I was stunned and I decided to tell everything to Ilwoo later.

 

Host: "In the pilot episode, you told her that you want to call her yeobo right?"

Ilwoo: "Because she's a wife material and as i've said before I wanted to call her baby but its to common."

Host: "I think we should keep watching We Got Married and never miss even a single episode of this two. And if you became a real couple make sure to come back here and announce it to the public."

Ilwoo: "Thank you! We will!"

 

We pause for a break. I want to leap on my seat and go somewhere else to get air but I cant move my body. I feel numb. Gian walks towards me when Ilwoo excuse himself to go to the bathroom.

 

Gian: "Are you okay?"

Chelle: "Not here Gian."

 

Seung Ri went to me and give me a bear hug. Joking around trying to cheer me up. Minho sits beside me while i'm talking to Gian.

 

Minho: "Yah! You two! You didn't even bother to greet me and Ilwoo last christmas. After this lets go to my house." 

 

Ilwoo returns then drag Minho and Gian away from me. I cant read Gian's reaction from my view. They just nod to whatever Ilwoo is saying.

 

When they return, Minho told me that we're going to Ilwoo's condo instead. I wish this interview finishes before I burst into tears.

 

The interview went on but my mind is not with them anymore. Thank God Ilwoo's beside me to cover me up.

 

When the show ended, I put Ilwoo's coat and went straight to Ilwoo's car while Gian followed me. I don't want to see Jiyong right now. I know I agreed to keep our relationship private but I never thought it will hurt this way. HE DENIED ME RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY FACE! I feel like I was being stab in my heart over and over again.

 

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Gian's POV

 

What a jerk?! That's the only words I blurted out when Jiyong told everyone he's single. He even  Mr. Kang and Mr. Kim just shake their heads. At least TOP told everyone his in a relationship even though he didn't say any names. 

 

When the program goes on a commercial break, I hurriedly go straight to Chelle. I know she's hurt. Good thing Ilwoo is beside her.

 

Ilwoo drag me and Minho away from everybody's earshot. I saw Tabi glaring at me. I just shrugged my shoulders and listen to Ilwoo.

 

Ilwoo: "Can I ask you both a favor?"

Minho: "Sure!"

Ilwoo: "I'm the one who sends the boxes to Chelle."

Gian: "What the hell?! Are you serious?!"

Ilwoo: "Yes!"

Minho: "Why didn't you tell me?"

Ilwoo: "I'll tell you everything later. Here's the lock code of my condo. Can you setup all the boxes? I want to tell her everything."

Gian: "Fine! Whatever your going to confess to my friend, just please don't hurt her. I think she has something to tell you also."

 

After the show Chelle went outside the studio without looking back. I followed her and make sure she's okay. I saw her heading to Ilwoo's car. I open the car and went back to get her bag and talk to my Tabi.

 

TOP: "There you are! Where have you been?"

Gian: "Thanks hon!"

TOP: "Thanks for what?!"

Gian: "For telling them you're in a relationship. Even though you didn't tell my name, it's fine with me. At least you didn't denied me." I said and look at Jiyong.

TOP: "Your welcome hon! I love you that's why I don't want to hurt you." 

Gian: "Hmmm, hon I have to go. Chelle doesn't want to go home. She's been badly hurt."

TOP: "Where are you going?"

Gian: "I don't know! I'll call you. I'll go now."

 

I went back to The parking lot after giving TOP a quick peck. I found Chelle crying quietly inside Ilwoo's car. Minho and Ilwoo is standing besides Minho's car watching Chelle. I hand Chelle's bag to Ilwoo and off they go while me and Minho went straight to Ilwoo's condo.

 

Minho: "I can't believe it's Ilwoo! My friend is madly inlove with Chelle!"

Gian: "Well my friend's a good catch."

 

I really can't think straight! I never saw her cry like that before. I will talk to her later. When we arrived at Ilwoo's condo, we set up the remaining boxes to the living room. I hope Ilwoo's confession will help her heart.

 

Minho: "Yah! What are you thinking! You're so quite."

Gian: "I'm just worried for my friend."

Minho: "Don't worry, Ilwoo's with her. She will be fine and can you please help me with this boxes?!"

Gian: "You can do that by yourself! I'll text Ilwoo to tell him that we're done."

 

I have to talk to Jiyong when I get home later or maybe hit his head.

 

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Ilwoo's POV

 

When G-Dragon told everyone that he's single and ready to mingle I saw Chelle's shocked face. I knew it! She bow her head and bite her lips. I reach for her hand and squeeze it gently to cheer her up. When she looked into me I saw how hurt she was. She's wounded by G-Dragon's denial. When the host asked her I know she's fighting back her tears and doing her best to act normal. When we pause for a break I excuse myself but didn't go to the restroom like what i've told her. I can't stand looking at her like that. I feel twice the pain she's feeling.

 

Before I went back I finally made up my mind. I'll confess to her tonight. Not to take advantage of the situation. I just wanted to let her know. I can't lie to her anymore. I can't hide my true feelings for her.

 

I went back and tell Gian and Minho about my plan. The two really got surprise when I revealed myself.

 

After the show, I saw Chelle went outside. I saw her heading to my car. I gave Gian my car key when I saw her following Chelle.

 

When Gian leave, she hand me back my key then Minho arrived.

 

Minho: "Is she crying? But why?"

Ilwoo: "I'll deal with her Minho. Take Gian to my condo. We'll meet you there. I'll talk to Chelle first."

 

Me and Minho watch Chelle crying silently inside my car. My heart is aching with so much pain. She don't deserve this.

 

When Gian returns, she handed me Chelle's bag. I decided to bring her at lock os lobe in Namsan. I hope it will ease a fraction of the pain she's having right now.

 

Chelle: "What are we doing here? I thought were going to your house?"

Ilwoo: "I just wanted to bring you here. Wear this so no one will notice us."

 

While were walking towards the fence, I told her that i'm willing to listen to whatever she wanted to share with me.

 

Ilwoo: "If you wanted to cry, go ahead! It will make you feel better."

 

Chelle looked at me confused. Then she bowed her head and start crying. I close my eyes. Oh God give me strength. Its so hard to hear her cry like this. I sigh and lean closer to hug her.

 

Ilwoo: "Sshh its okay! You'll be fine. I'm right here yeobo."

Chelle: "Thanks Ilwoo and sorry if i'm bringing you into this. Hmmm, there's something I want to tell you."

Ilwoo: "I'm listening yeobo." I said and close my eyes tightly. This is it! I took a deep breath.  I can do this. I will! For her.

Chelle: "Me and GD... Were a couple for 2 months now. Hmm, I lied when I said I was with my family and friends last christmas. I was with him in Phuket. I love him so much that I been badly hurt this way. I agree to keep our relationship to the public but I. . . I never thought it would hurt me this way." She said in between sobs.

Ilwoo: "I'm sure G-Dragon has his reason why he said that. Stop crying Yeobo. You're killing me."

 

Chelle look at me and give me a half smile. This girl, why is it hard to see and watch tear flows in her eyes? Worst, she's still trying to be okay not to make people around her worries for her.

 

Ilwoo: "When you get back, talk to him. Give him a chance to explain. I know he doesn't want to hurt you. I can feel how hard for him to say those words."

Chelle: "You sure?"

Ilwoo: "Yes!" I said and smiled at her while wiping her tears.

Chelle: "Thanks Ilwoo! I don't know what to do if you're not here with me. And i'm sorry."

Ilwoo: "Hey, don't be. I'll always be here for you. Always remember that. Come, I wanna show you something. And I have something to tell you also."

Chelle: "Okay! But can we buy 4 locks first?"

Ilwoo: "As you wish, Yeobo!"

 

We went to buy 4 locks. I wonder what Chelle wrote in the padlocks. After placing it, she tip toed and kiss me on my cheeks.

 

Chelle: "Thanks a lot Ilwoo!"

 

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Chelle: "I thought we're going to your house?"

Ilwoo: "Yes, we are! We're here!"

Chelle: "But this is not your house. Don't tell me. . . How many house do you own?"

Ilwoo: "Only a few people knows this house is mine. This is where I hide from everything. Come, I will show you something."

 

When we reach his door step, Minho and Gian came out.

 

Gian: "Are you okay?"

Chelle: "Yes, i'm better now. Thanks to Ilwoo." I said and turn to him and give him a sweet smile.

Minho: "Go inside. Everything is all set."

Chelle: "What do you mean?"

Ilwoo: "I have something to tell you."

Minho: "We're going to buy dinner. We will be back."

Gian: "Are you going home tonight or are you staying here?"

Chelle: "Hmmm, Ilwoo can I stay here just for tonight?"

Ilwoo: "Of course Yeobo, you can!"

Minho: "I'm hungry! Can we buy dinner now?"

 

When Minho and Gian left, Ilwoo guided me to the living room. What the hell? I think 25 familiar boxes are in his living room. No way?! I turn to Ilwoo wide eyes and mouth open.

 

Ilwoo: "I'm BLUE! And i'm madly inlove with you!" He said and smile at me.

 

I want to say something but no words are coming out of my mouth. Then he continues.

 

Ilwoo: "Yeobo, i'm willing to wait for you no matter how long it is. I know you love GD but i'm willing to take all the risk!"

 

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GDs POV

 

We were waiting in the dressing room when Gian arrived and hand Chelle a ring. My blood went straight in my head when I learn that it was from Ilwoo. Mr.Kim along with the others calm me down and tell me to let it go. Chelle doesn't want to wear it. But she has too. I insisted her to wear the ring and almost yell at her when she refuse to.

 

The interview went smoothly. As usual, maknae's the crowd favorite. Him and his big mouth.

 

When the host asked personal questions my mouth suddenly dried. I swallow hard before I answer.

 

GD: "I'm single and ready to mingle!"

 

I saw Chelle in the corner of my eye bowing her head and biting her lips. I'm sorry baby. I hope you understand. I'm doing this for you.

 

What surprise me the most is when I defended Kiko. Damn it! What the hell did I just did? I almost want to put my hands on her neck when she threw bottle to Chelle and now here I am defending her? Bad decision Kwon Jiyong. 

 

And then the ring. I heard Minho telling the story about the ring. It belongs to Ilwoo's great grannies. This guy really likes my baby. My blood boils again.

 

When the show ended, I didn't see where Chelle goes. Gian went inside the dressing room talk to TOP hyung, gran Chelle's bag and leave without glacing at me. This is going to be a long day. Me and my stupid mouth.

 

From the car until we reach the apartment I keep calling and texting her nonstop but she didn't respond. ! She's really mad. And she's badly hurt. I really messed up this time. I'm just protecting her.

 

I went straight to the kitchen to get a beer and slumped myself in the couch while the other members just stare at me. I know they wanted to ask me endless questions.

 

GD: "Let's drink! TOP hyung why did you tell to everyone that you have a girlfriend?"

TOP: "There's nothing wrong with that and beside I didn't mentioned her name."

SR: "Jiyong hyung, you lied again in front of my girlfriend."

DS: "I saw her cry. But immediately wipe her tears so no one noticed."

YB: "You really hurt her this time Jiyong. Cant you see? She doesn't want to wear the ring because she's thinking how will you feel."

GD: "I'm just protecting her!"

TOP: "You didn't protect her. You hurt her! And you even defended Kiko."

YB: "Hyung's right. What the hell just happen man? You were so mad at her and now you defended her? Good luck on your relationship with her Jiyong."

DS: "Give Chelle  a little time then talk to her."

SR: "My girlfriend loves you so much. She's hurt yes but she will forgive you."

 

We all talked for the past 3hrs. I think they're right! Everything will be fine even if the whole world finds out about us.

 

Suddenly Gian arrives. ALONE!

 

GD: "Where's Chelle?"

Gian: "Sorry I cant tell you. She's badly hurt."

SR: "What time will she go home."

Gian: "She's not coming now!"

TOP: "Where did the two of you go?"

Gian: "Somewhere!"

GD: "Please tell me where she is right now. I'll pick her up."

YB: "Jiyong give Chelle some time. Just go to bed. You have to rest."

 

I reach for Chelle's phone and dialed my number. All my hopes disappeared when Gian opens her bag and hand me my phone.

 

Bae was right. I need to rest and give Chelle some time. TOP hyung walk me to our bedroom and place the phones in our bedside table. When I left alone in the room I stared in our GDChelle corner and suddenly feel guilty. Oh God! She did everything for me and now I hurt her.

 

Then suddenly I remember how Ilwoo holds her hand. I almost stands up and punch him. I need to find her and talk to her.

 

I envy Ilwoo and maknae. They're very vocal on their feeling for my girl. How I wish I could turn back time. Maybe if I explain to her everything she will understand. Why cant I be like them? I wish I imitate what TOP hyung said. He's in a relationship but doesn't give any personal info. 

 

If I give her time to think will everything be back to normal? Will she forgive me or will she end our relationship! Hell NO! That wont happen. . . But I denied her right in front of her face. I saw how hurt she was.

 

I have to talk to her. We have to settle this problem. Oh my baby girl please don't give up on me. Please don't give ip on us!

 

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After I had a talk to Ilwoo at Namsan, I feel better. But then, when I saw the boxes and hear Ilwoo's confession I almost pass out. Ilwoo was quick enough to held me and guided me to sit. He went to the kitchen and get me a glass of water. My body is shaking that when I reach for the glass it almost slip in my hands. He hold the glass and make me drink.

 

He sit beside me and hold my hand while smiling sweetly back at me. Ilwoo. Oh Ilwoo please stop being so kind to me. I don't want to hurt you. You mean a lot to me but I cant give the kind of love you want from me.

 

I almost collapsed when he told me he loves me and that he's willing to wait. Damn! I just told him how much I love Jiyong. He just listened. I know he's hurting right now too because of me. But here he is smiling and willing to wait for me. I look at him and tears starts falling in my eyes again. I move closer to him and hug him tight.

 

Chelle: "I'm sorry! Oh my God Ilwoo! I just hurt. I'm so sorry for being so insensitive. I'm sorry!"

Ilwoo: "Hey yeobo its okay! I love you and if I need to get hurt to lessen your pain, i'll take it!"

Chelle: "Oh Ilwoo!"

Ilwoo: "Shhh, stop crying okay? You're killing me. Everything will be alright. I promise!" He said and kiss me in my forehead.

Chelle: "I don't know want to say! But thank you! You're such a good person."

 

He just smile and open 1 of the boxes.

 

Ilwoo: "Here, take a shower first." He said and hand me a HK PJs set.

Chelle: "How did you know I love Hello Kitty?"

Ilwoo: "I have my sources yeobo. Stop crying now. Your eyes swollen. Come, i'll walk you to your room.

 

Ilwoo lead me to his room. He wants me to sleep in his room. I want to protest but I refuse. I took a shower and went downstairs to have dinner with Ilwoo, Minho and Gian.

 

While having dinner, we didn't talk about what happen earlier. This is what I need. Normal and enjoyable conversation. I feel much better. 

 

I also learned that Ilwoo sends the boxes to Minho and ask him to deliver it to me without his knowledge. He leaves the boxes outside our apartment. Gian knew about it but she kept it from me. He even went to Hongkong to deliver the boxes. When we all thought he was following Gian.

 

I think I cry a lot so I didn't realized I dozed off. I jerk awake when Ilwoo carry me in his arms.

 

Ilwoo: "Sorry if I wake you up. You fell asleep in the couch while me, Minho and Gian are drinking."

Chelle: "Sorry! You can put me down now."

Ilwoo: "I like carrying you yeobo."

 

When we reach Ilwoo's room he put me down in his bed.

 

Chelle: "Where are they?"

Ilwoo: "They already left. Minho will drop Gian to your apartment. Go to sleep now yeobo. You need to rest. I'll just take a shower."

Chelle: "I cant thank you enough. You're so kind, sweet, lovable and the list is endless."

Ilwoo: "You don't have to thank me yeobo. I want you to be happy and i'm serious, i'm willing to wait. Go to sleep."

Chelle: "Please, stay!"

Ilwoo: "I will! I'll just take a shower."

 

I watch Ilwoo as he walks towards the bathroom. Someday i'll pay him back. All his efforts, sacrifices and everything he done for me. At least I have a reason to smile today. When he came back I asked him to lay beside me. I lean on his chest and close my eyes. Ilwoo you are such an amazing person. With me on his chest and his arms I feel loved and peace. I feel him kiss my hair and gently rubbing my back. Ilwoo. I promise i'll make it up to you one day.