Dara’s POV

I open my eyes slowly. ! My head! It’s painful. Why do we need to have headache after we drink? I got up and headed to our kitchen to make a coffee. Our dorm is quite all members are sleeping peacefully and me I’m fully awake suffering with this damn headache. I go back to my room after I make my coffee.

I get my iPod and connect it to the speaker. I just put it to low volume I don’t want to disturb them and wake them up in this time. I play random songs I don’t care what song it would be I just need to listen so it won’t be that too quiet and maybe it will help me to fall asleep again.

I stand up in front of my sliding door while holding my mug filled with coffee. I want to open it but it’s too cold so I just watch the predawn scenery inside. The lights are giving life to the buildings and some vehicles are passing by. It’s a beautiful and peaceful view.

(hi i put the link of the song.. please listen to it.. i feel like it suits with what Dara is having in this fic.. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iB1xS0UqtHo )

* when the last teardrop falls *

“It's so hard to lose the one you love

To finally have to say goodbye

You try to be strong but the pain keeps holdin' on

And all that you can do is cry

Deep within your heart you know it's time to move on

When the fairy tale that you once knew is gone

When the last tear drop falls

I'll still be holdin' on to all of our memories

And all of what used to be

When the last tear drop falls

I will stand tall

And know that you're here with me in my heart

When the last tear drop falls

So now I'm alone and life keeps movin' on

But my destination still unknown, oh yeah

Will there be a time when I'll fall in love again?

When I was meant to walk these streets alone

If there was just one wish I could be granted here tonight

It would be to have you right back by my side

When the last tear drop falls

I'll still be holdin' on to all of our memories

And all of what used to be

When the last tear drop falls

I will stand tall

And know that you're here with me in my heart

When the last tear drop falls

Now it's time for me to find my happiness again

And the emptiness from missin' you

Will never ever end, baby

When the last tear drop falls

I'll still be holdin' on to all of our memories

And all of what used to be

When the last tear drop falls

I will stand tall

And know that you're here with me in my heart

When the last tear drop falls”

Suddenly this song plays in my iPod. What the.. it fits on me, in my situation. Why I have this kind of song? I feel like this song is made for me. Is the writer of this song had this kind of feeling and situation too? Every line of this song strikes in my heart. Now I regret that I decided to open my iPod and listen to random songs I should go to sleep rather than to listen to the songs.

I hold my tears from falling. This song really kills me. Now all the pain inside me is rising again. I feel the pain again. The pain I want to take away. Listening in this song is like torturing me and killing me slowly.

 “Dara you can stop the song if it kills you so much don’t listen to it if you can’t fight the pain it gives you.” my other side tells me to stop but my other side says “no Dara.. Keep on listening.. Sometimes hurting yourself again and again can help you.. until you feel nothing and forgot the pain coz you’re already numb” . I don’t know what to do. In the end I finish the song crying in silence. Now I don’t know how to stop. I don’t know how to kill the pain that just rise because of this stupid song.

I’m still standing in my place staring outside. Tears are falling in my cheeks. The dark sky with stars is playing as the screen as I remember the happy days where we are still together. Maybe its true hurting yourself can help you to move on fast I wish this will work on me.

Chaerin’s POV      

I woke up in the middle of my dreams. I dream about Dara and me walking along the beach while holding each other’s hand. Talking and laughing. Enjoying the beach.  It was one of the best dreams I had. I wish in the future we can do it. I wish I can have her again and if that will happen I will never ever let go of her like what I’ve done now. Letting her go is like killing myself. Seeing her crying is like tearing my heart into tiny pieces. I love her and I don’t want to see her crying because of me. She’s is my life, she is my everything I’m alive because of her. She’s the reason why I do my best in my work, in everything but now that I don’t have her I don’t know. I’m in pain too much pain that I can’t describe how much pain it is.

I want to hug and kiss her every time I see her but I’m not in the position I left her and I must accept the punishment in leaving her. Now I can’t even touch her or go near her Bom is like a big wall between us separating us. I’m always asking myself why the hell I decided to leave her without e