She knows what I wanted to say to her. It's no surprise anyways; I've always told her I loved her. Every day since the moment I realized I did.

Stupid You,

Donghae's POV:

 

 

                    I hear steps on the platform, not long after, the bright fluorescent light around me on the floor is shaded. I look up to the figure.Gaheun. I turn my head away quickly, not wanting her to see my face. I probably look so vulnerable, so weak.  It's shameful to let her see me beat up, even though she’s seen me with bruises all over my face before, twice. The first was when we first met; when she saved my life, and when I probably looked 100 times worse than now. And the second time: when Ahjussi dropped me off to meet her because I didn't want to ruin our date.

                     Both times were embarrassing, but she never seemed bothered by my moments and signs of weakness. I was bothered though, and I'm not going to let her see me like that again. The last image she was supposed to see of me,  of us,  was the image I wanted her to keep with her forever. I want her to remember us being happy; that's why I left her my drawing, so she could look at it and remember how happy we were for that one month.

 

 

                    I hear a thud on the floor, I cringe, still looking away. Her hand gently grabs hold of her face and makes me face her. I try to fight back, but she continues to persist, and eventually, I give in.

 

 

                    My gaze reaches her's, and I can't help but look down the moment it does. She looks so sad. So broken. It makes me feel even more disappointed in myself than before.

 

"Donghae..." she barely whispers. I look at her, she smiles weakly.

                     I smile back as best I can; I know it's unconvincing though, because her eyes sadden. I look into her eyes, and see my own reflection in them. Damn it.  I knew I was unconvincing.  My feelings always get leaked through my eyes.

"... We're... Going to be okay... Right?" she asks hopefully, whispering like earlier. I wish I could tell her yes, but even if I did, she'd know it was a lie.

"Gaheun...I lo-"

"I'm sorry, but I'm worried you two lovebirds have to hurry up a bit. We're all on a tight schedule, and time's not really on your side at the moment." Choi's voice booms in comparison to our earlier murmurs.

                    I grit my teeth at the sound of his voice. I look passed Gaheun, and try to find the source of Choi's voice; I can't find him, the bright, blurry light only lets me see a few meters farther than the edge of the small platform I'm kneeling on. I can’t see a thing, there could be a whole audience standing in the blackness, just waiting for this show to be over.

 

                    Gaheun stiffens, and grabs hold of my shoulder, squeezing it tightly as she nods. She knows what I wanted to say to her. It's no surprise anyways; I've always told her I loved her. Every day since the moment I realized I did.

 

 

"Gaheun, I'm sorry. Time's up." Choi calls again.  She stiffens again, and moves to kneel right in front of me.

"I'm not going anywhere." She whispers to me, her face becoming serious. What? She wants to be here, right beside me, when I die?

"Gaheun, you're really serious? You want to stay here together until your last few moments together are up?" Choi’s voice booms again.  Gaheun nods once, looking right into my eyes.

"Gaheun. Go." I say, shaking my head towards the side. She shakes her head weakly. I’m about to push her away when a strong resistance is pulling me back; the stupid chains. I almost forgot they were there tying me, maybe my arms are becoming numb.

"Choi promised me I can be here with you. I want to keep every second we have left. I have strength remember? If I'm here, it'll be easier for you. Right?" she asks quietly.

                     I almost tell her to leave again, but I can't this time.  I don't want her to go, I only have a couple of seconds left. She's right; I do want to keep every second we have left, even if it’s my last. Seeing her does give me strength.  I nod once, not breaking my gaze away from her.

 

 

                    She wraps her arms around my neck, and rests her head on my shoulder. Automatically, my arms move to hug her back. I can't though; my hands are tied behind my back, my arms chained. The chain jingles as I try to move my arms again.

 

Gaheun exhales, she sounds like she's crying. Or, at least trying to hide that she is.

                    I look ahead of me, into the black distance, not a single figure in sight. I hear the click of a gun as it quietly echoes through the large open space.  Gaheun's arms tighten around me. She can probably see Choi right now. She pushes her head closer against me.

She inhales deeply, "I love you." she says breathily, crying quietly. My eyes burn as I take in my last breath of air.

 

"Time's up." Choi's curt and ruthless statement sent a shock through my spine.  

 

Gaheun squeezes me tightly, and I press my head against her's. Gaheun, I'm glad I got to spend my last second of life with you.  I exhale and I close my eyes and rest my head on hers.

 

 

                   

 

                    The last couple seconds were soon disrupted by the pull of the trigger. The sound of the gunshot pierced through the deafening silence as our bodies collided.

 

 

 

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Adoree
#1
Chapter 87: Fooobtteqafobhvdzch....

So speechless....
One of the best stories ever!

Loved both endings...
so well written :D
Beat fic omg
Sibecca407 #2
Chapter 87: so damn sweet, omg, keep up the good work & will anticipate for more stories! ^^
blazensaddles #3
Chapter 87: guess what i just did~~~~~
:3 lol i just read this again XD woot!!!! still made me cry ._.
hellokimchi
#4
AHHHHH! It ended!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Congrats to a completed fic!
So I picked Epilogue 2 to read cause I can't bear sad endings. You're gonna make me cry, I know so. Props to you for being such a good writer.
OMG, I loved it! Gaheun and Donghae got married and had a kid!!! The kid was so cute thinking Appa had an imaginary friend. You lit a smile up my face. I miss the happy atmosphere, but the sad stuff really moved me.
The ending was so cute and romantic. I liked how the dialogue related back to the title. Best ultimate ending.

Please write more fics in the future. I would read anything you write.
playmirth
#5
Epilogue 2 : AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH !!!!!!!!!!! Such a sweet ending !!!! >< I REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REAAAAAALLYYYYYYY LOVE IT (copy and paste did me a lot of work :p) I cried at the beginning because I thought it was Gaheun who died ! >< Then I read..... 'him' WAIT WHAT !? 'HIM' !? Then again, I think that the sad ending is on the previous chapter. I still cried anyway, and stopped when haeeun talks to seunghyun. I know, I'm so stupid.
Then it started again when donghae played with gaheun, when he backhugs gaheun after she calls him a dinosaur ! You oughta know, you wrote it !!! XD
I mean, they really went through a lot of things to be where they are now, see ? This is sooo sweet, and what I love even more is the fact that this is sooo beautifully written ! >o< Such a refreshing leisure time after midterm ! >< YESSS, my midterm ended ! Hooray to me !!!! \(´▽`)/
Overall, I LOVE the sad ending more than the happy one ! ^o^ It gives me more impact, >< and... Well, I just like sad endings.
playmirth
#6
Epilogue 1 : I AM CRYING THE WHOLE TIME AND AM STILL CRYING WHEN WRITE THIS ! ><
You're sucha genius, unni ! >< I'm totally speechless, I can't write. *wipes tears*
Really, LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVEEEEEEEEEEEEE THE SAD ENDING ! YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE SAD THINGS, RIGHT ? You have no idea how much my heart beat when I read the one where she finally says "I Love You" and the fact that she can no longer say it to him is.... Too heartbreaking ! >< And YeJin, I love her more after this. Her way of soothing donghae is.... *sigh* I can imagine the scene in my head, donghae in the cafe where the first love VCR is taken, yejin sitting on the edge of one of the table. He enters on a twilight sky surrounding the area, their faces were almost invisible, just the silhouette. :'(
And he was reading the letter with that black shirt he wore on SMA, GAHH black shirt seems so hot on donghae. And anyways ! Great job on the sad ending ! >o<
blazensaddles #7
to be honest, they both are very good. i liked both endings, and i cant really pick a favorite. i dont know if you care at all, but here are my (summarized? trying not to give a lot away) thoughts on the endings-
Epilogue 1: short, but a lot of emotion. of course im sad, but im also happy. (Gaheun and Seunghyun).
Epilogue 2: very happy :) again sad and happy. (Seunghyun and Gaheun) at least both are together. HaeEun, haha cute. Dinosaur finally comes out :D
if i were to pick one, it would be Epilogue.....2.
meowchie09
#8
i love the second epilogue.. but the first one is good too..
so sad it already ended >.< but great story :))