"Love is an emotion, something instinctual, something that logic will never be able to understand."

Stupid You,

Seunghyun’s POV:

 

'You're a fool, Hyung. You like her don't you?!'those words continue to ring in my mind as I make my way back to Gaheun's room. I don't like her, why would I? 'Liking someone doesn't have to be logical Seunghyun; love is an emotion, something instinctual, something that logic will never be able to understand.' Hearing her voice made my heart stop for a second. Minkyung. Those were the words she said to me when she made me realize that I loved her. That I still love her. The memory came back to me,
 

 

**Flashback**

 

"So... Why do you always come here?" Minkyung asks me with a smile, while I sit at the bar. She was a bartender/singer at the time.

I look up from my drink and look at her.

"I don't know, I just like it here. I feel so much more relieved for some reason." It’s true, I think as I let out a sigh. She just laughs quietly, I look at her. What’s so funny?

"Maybe it's not here that you like. Maybe it's the company you enjoy." she answers. I scoff at her,

"You mean you?" I answer, joking.

"I wouldn't think it too hard to believe." she answers, sounding a little smug.

"Oh really? And what exactly makes you think I enjoy your company?" I ask, waiting for her answer. I didn't like her; at least, I didn't know I did yet.

"Well, for one, you come here every Tuesday, Thursday and Friday. And those are the only days I work." she began. She's right; I do only go on those days... It used to be more often before, but I stopped going so often after a while. Actually, I haven’t even thought anything of that before.

"Two, you always have something to tell or say to me while you're here. If you haven't noticed, you do call me by my name, not 'miss' or any other generic term." She adds.

I was confused for a second, taking in all the information. What she says is all true. But I didn't think it means that I like her.

"But isn't it polite to greet you by name? Since I see you here every time? It seems like manners to me." I answer.

"Heh, yes. It is polite, but why do you see me here all the time?"

"Because it's a coincidence that we're here on the same day, and you work here." I answer. I can’t even tell if I’m lying or not. She just sighs,

"Okay, okay, whatever you say. You can deny all you want. Just a question, have you ever felt true love? I can tell you’ve have flings or one night stands... But have you ever truly liked any of the girls?" her question stumps me. I have had short relationships with a number of girls, but they’ve never lasted long. I never really thought about why though.

"Okay, Miss Expert. What is true love all about then?" I ask, trying to switch the topic.

"Hmmm... Not sure about true love. But I know what liking someone is like. You just want to be with that person all the time, and sometimes you think about them randomly. And when you do see them, you feel separated from the rest of the world; in a place where it's only you, with no troubles or responsibilities."

    I take in all that she says, and realize: every word she just said is how I feel... When I’m with her. Was I in love with her? It makes no sense for me too; I don't know her, I don't know her birthday, hobbies, anything.  I just knew her name, and where she worked. You can't like someone just like that. How could you?

"I see... It still doesn't make sense though. I can't like you, I barely even know you." I reply

"Liking someone doesn't have to be logical Seunghyun; love is an emotion, something instinctual, something that logic will never be able to understand. I know it's true, because although liking you doesn't make sense, I do." I zone out after she says this. She likes me. And right after she explained this concept of ‘liking someone’, I knew for sure, I like her too.
 

**End of flashback. **
 
 

 

                    As I snap out of that memory, I hear loud laughter coming from Gaheun's room. I can recognize three of the four laughs. The unrecognizable one I figure is Gaheun's. It's strange, I've never heard her laugh before, and even more strange, I hoped it wouldn't stop.
 
 

                    I walk into the room, half expecting the laughter to stop, but it doesn't. I doubt they even realize I walked in. Hyungjoo and Hyukshin were in the room, laughing so hard they were rolling on the floor. Kim Bum is laughing hard too, his whole body is shaking. He has one arm around Gaheun, resting it on her shoulder. She’s laughing too, so hard it looks like she’s crying, and she’s actually tearing. Oddly enough, I feel a little irritated at the sight. I'm not sure what part makes me irritated, but whatever it is, it's annoying. I don't want to admit it, but I think it might be that Kim Bum is so close to Gaheun.

"Oh, Hyung!" Kim Bum finally manages to gasp as he sees me. "Hyungjoo and Hyukshin- hahahahaha… “he can’t even finish. Gaheun, laughing as well, looks at me. She stops laughing, but instead smiles at me, it took about a minute for me to realize that I was smiling back at her as well.

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Adoree
#1
Chapter 87: Fooobtteqafobhvdzch....

So speechless....
One of the best stories ever!

Loved both endings...
so well written :D
Beat fic omg
Sibecca407 #2
Chapter 87: so damn sweet, omg, keep up the good work & will anticipate for more stories! ^^
blazensaddles #3
Chapter 87: guess what i just did~~~~~
:3 lol i just read this again XD woot!!!! still made me cry ._.
hellokimchi
#4
AHHHHH! It ended!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Congrats to a completed fic!
So I picked Epilogue 2 to read cause I can't bear sad endings. You're gonna make me cry, I know so. Props to you for being such a good writer.
OMG, I loved it! Gaheun and Donghae got married and had a kid!!! The kid was so cute thinking Appa had an imaginary friend. You lit a smile up my face. I miss the happy atmosphere, but the sad stuff really moved me.
The ending was so cute and romantic. I liked how the dialogue related back to the title. Best ultimate ending.

Please write more fics in the future. I would read anything you write.
playmirth
#5
Epilogue 2 : AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH !!!!!!!!!!! Such a sweet ending !!!! >< I REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REAAAAAALLYYYYYYY LOVE IT (copy and paste did me a lot of work :p) I cried at the beginning because I thought it was Gaheun who died ! >< Then I read..... 'him' WAIT WHAT !? 'HIM' !? Then again, I think that the sad ending is on the previous chapter. I still cried anyway, and stopped when haeeun talks to seunghyun. I know, I'm so stupid.
Then it started again when donghae played with gaheun, when he backhugs gaheun after she calls him a dinosaur ! You oughta know, you wrote it !!! XD
I mean, they really went through a lot of things to be where they are now, see ? This is sooo sweet, and what I love even more is the fact that this is sooo beautifully written ! >o< Such a refreshing leisure time after midterm ! >< YESSS, my midterm ended ! Hooray to me !!!! \(´▽`)/
Overall, I LOVE the sad ending more than the happy one ! ^o^ It gives me more impact, >< and... Well, I just like sad endings.
playmirth
#6
Epilogue 1 : I AM CRYING THE WHOLE TIME AND AM STILL CRYING WHEN WRITE THIS ! ><
You're sucha genius, unni ! >< I'm totally speechless, I can't write. *wipes tears*
Really, LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVEEEEEEEEEEEEE THE SAD ENDING ! YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE SAD THINGS, RIGHT ? You have no idea how much my heart beat when I read the one where she finally says "I Love You" and the fact that she can no longer say it to him is.... Too heartbreaking ! >< And YeJin, I love her more after this. Her way of soothing donghae is.... *sigh* I can imagine the scene in my head, donghae in the cafe where the first love VCR is taken, yejin sitting on the edge of one of the table. He enters on a twilight sky surrounding the area, their faces were almost invisible, just the silhouette. :'(
And he was reading the letter with that black shirt he wore on SMA, GAHH black shirt seems so hot on donghae. And anyways ! Great job on the sad ending ! >o<
blazensaddles #7
to be honest, they both are very good. i liked both endings, and i cant really pick a favorite. i dont know if you care at all, but here are my (summarized? trying not to give a lot away) thoughts on the endings-
Epilogue 1: short, but a lot of emotion. of course im sad, but im also happy. (Gaheun and Seunghyun).
Epilogue 2: very happy :) again sad and happy. (Seunghyun and Gaheun) at least both are together. HaeEun, haha cute. Dinosaur finally comes out :D
if i were to pick one, it would be Epilogue.....2.
meowchie09
#8
i love the second epilogue.. but the first one is good too..
so sad it already ended >.< but great story :))