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"Adam, please don't play too far this time." I gave him the pleading look, which he nodded his head obediently to "Thank you, love." I sat on the nearest bench and watched my boy playing around the playground with his newfound friends. I smiled at the sight. 

I took my eyes away from him just a second and he's gone. I tried not to panic because last time happened exactly like this except he was inside the slide, it scared the out of me. I don't want to be a bad mother, yet I don't want to be too perfect. I look around the playground and found his friends "Boys, have you seen Adam?" 

All of them shook their head except for one boy, "Adam said he's going to see his dad." My heart stopped "In which direction did he go to?" The boy pointed at the ice cream stall not far from us without hesitation. My feet quickened its pace whilst looking around for that boy's sight, he is going to get in so much trouble for this.

I was so close to tears until I heard a boy squealing, "Mommy!" I turned around and see Adam running towards me with an ice cream in hand. I crouched down with an open arms and embraced him so tightly when I know he had his arms around my neck, I cried on his tiny chest. Adam's body froze "Mom, are you crying?" I sniffled, shaking my head "No." 

"Then why are your eyes red and watery?" He asked, wiping it away. I chuckled "Because I was afraid that I might lose you." His angelic laugh put me at ease "You're not gonna lose me, Mama. I'm here, and Daddy is here as well." He pointed at a direction behind him, then I saw him in a black long sleeves shirt with straight cut denim jeans, sauntering towards us. I never told Adam that Kris is his dad, and never wanted to, but I guess he figured it out on his own.

My heart accelerated at the sight of him; he still looks the same except he looks much mature and calm now. I wonder what or who gives him such content. I stood back up on both my feet, quickly wiping away the traces of tears on my face. 

"You made Mommy cry because you took me for ice cream, now I don't want this ice cream." Handing it back to Kris. I stood there not knowing what to do but stare at him and stare at Adam. Kris chuckled "You can have the ice cream little man, I think your Mom wants you to have it too." 

Adam stared at me back with wide and anticipating eyes; I said nothing but nodded my head. My entire body were tense, it was as if he had abused me in the past, but no. I'm just afraid of what he might say; like maybe "I'm here to invite you to my wedding." or "I'm engaged with Nara." or "Nara and I are expecting a child." Or many more. And I'm not ready to hear it even though it had been