Chapter 49
우린 용원히 (My Forever)
You squinted your eyes as you heard the strange familiar beeping that has been with you for days. The rays of the sun kissed the window, intertwining with the glow emitted by the light coming from inside your room. The smell of mixed alcohol and chlorine lingered in your nose signaling that you are here again – inside the hospital.
You felt someone holding your hands which made you trace your way to its owner. And you were a bit relieved that the owner of those hands belongs to Myungsoo.
Wrong. Relieved and scared at the same time.
Relieved because for once you can feel that he is here for you no matter what struggle would come to you. The only thing that makes you strong is the belief that after all the things in the past that came back at you, Chandoo will be here for you like what he did in the past.
Scared because you might hurt him all over again and you don’t want that to happen. The fact that you’ve hurt him before is enough.
He’s holding your hand while the other supports his face from hitting your bed. And by the looks of it, he looks like he stayed with you all night just to make sure you’re okay.
Seeing by the way he holds your hand made you shift your brain to Woohyun. The way he stares and looks at you with those pleading eyes, kills you softly and breaks you into thin pieces. If only you can say to him that you love him and you want to be with him.
You hate the fact that your illness breaks the possibility of happiness coming into you.
You are more than afraid .
Afraid of hurting others when all they do is care for you. It feels like you are in debt of their goodness but all you did is disappoint them.
In that way, You don’t want Woohyun to be hurt. You want him to love someone who will love him and could cope up with his existence. You keep chanting in your brain that his feelings for you, is just infatuation and not love, even though it aches you a lot.
You know that your end is near and you want to go peacefully. Without being a burden to others. With a smile on their face. With clarity in their heart.
You want to be just a memory to them. A memory that they’ll think as they go on, on their lives.
You sobbed as you hide the tears that were meant to fall from your eyes, when you could'nt bear it anymore. You used the edge of your palm to wipe it.
This is harder than I thought...
You heard incoherent mumblings which made you shift yourself back to reality..
"Noona"
You cocked your head to the side to see where did the strange murmurs came from.
"Noona, No~"
You maneuvered your back, straightened yourself and sat comfortably in your bed. That voice, Did that just came out from Myungsoo's mouth?
You eyed him and you're not wrong. That really came from the guy beside you.
You couldn't help but smile at the fact that he is accepting you as his own family. You sighed in relief and patted his head.
Myungsoo felt something on his head which made him wake up. Has he been sleeping all this time?
He didn't know he slept in this place since the tension has been bugging him since last night. Knowing that his long lost family member is discharged with a serious illness ached him. And this person is not just a family member to him.
You were like a sun to him that helps him wake up and completes his day.
He hates the fact that he's been selfish to you that he didn't know your real condition. He thinks he's a bad person for leaving you just like that, then.
And everything felt like a series of Déjà vu to him. Like it has happened before. Like he have been in this state before.
Maybe it has been some series of dreams but to him, this thing looks like it happened before.
"Good morning, Myungsoo-ah" You greeted with a smile on your lips.
Myungsoo half-opened his eyes to see your welcoming aura. You never change, you are always blissful and alive even though everything in you is seriously fragile.
"How long have you been awake? Are you ok, now? Did your head still hurts?" He looked at you with concern in his eyes.
"So you knew? I'm fine and much better. I'm not that weak, you see" You pinched your arms, slap your body and smiled at him like you are much more okay.
"You don't have to do that to say you are not weak, Noona. I know you and you are strong but you couldn't fake your own illness, it's severe now" He protested.
"I'm fine. I swear"
"But.. You know, I'm gonna call Hyung" Myungsoo averted his gaze at you. He fished for his phone to punch in Woohyun's number but snatched it hurriedly.
"N-No. He can't know" You said with a tight grip on Myungsoo's phone.
"Why? He needs to know about this. Did you see the way he looked at the both of us yesterday? All you could see is emotion. Pure emotion! I've never seen him like that in my whole life so he must've care for you very much. Why didn't you defend yourself and said that we're siblings?"
You were lost for words. You don't know how to answer him. You were too taken a back by what he said, to talk.
"I-I don't want him to be hurt" You looked away and pured your lips.
"So you think what happened yesterday didn't hurt him?And as much as I don't want you to be with him then, I want you to be happy. He've changed for the better. He changed for you" He stated as he ran his hand through his hair.
"I-It's not like that"
"Then what is?" He stared at you in confusion waiting for a good explanation.
You heaved a sigh, "Just.. Please. Please don't tell him I am sick. Let's pretend that I'm okay and incredibly fine, okay?"
"But you're not-"
"I know. But can I ask you a favor Myungsoo, Please?" You looked at his eyes with pure sincerity.
"What is it?" He gazed at you for a moment while waiting for your reply.
"What he saw yesterday.. Can we pretend like what he believe and know about the two of us, is true?" You bit your lip and said unsurely.
He stood up from his seat and stammered, "What? But that's-".
Just then a loud beep was heard until it resonated the whole room. You looked at Myungsoo who looked flabbergasted, when he looked at the name pasted on his caller ID. He bit his lip before he pressed the 'answer' button.
He cleared his throat and said, "Yes, Sunggyu hyung".
"Yah! Where were you again this time? I was calling you eversince last night. What happened to you? Why didn't you go home again, huh? Our managers have already scolded us for having Woohyun drunk last night and then the fact that you didn't spent the night here made our burden much heavier, you know that?" Sunggyu shouted in a stern voice.
His voice was so loud that you could hear him on your seat. The voice you are hearing right now doesn't belong to the calm and blithe Sunggyu, you know. And you could also feel the concern and anger mixed on it, as well.
Myungsoo scrunched his face in confusion as he shifted on his seat, "W-Wait. Woohyun-hyung is drunk? Since when did he started to drink to much alcohol? Isn't he allergic on it or something?"
You expression changed as well. You bit your thumb as you looked down on your knee. Drunk? Was it.. Was it because of me?
"Yeah! So you need to get your in here before the hyungs check up on us once again because trust me, you don't want them to be angry on us especially on you. Since the first person to be punished in here is you as well, remember?" He muttered.
Myungsoo looked at the clocked of your room and sigh, "Yes, I know. I'll be there in 30 minutes".
And then before Myungsoo could stop their conversation, Sunggyu squeezed in. "Wait. Where are you and who is the person you are with now?"
Myungsoo's body became frozen and looked at you for approval. You just nodded your head and smiled at him.
"I-I am with Wonhee-ssi. I kinda spent the night with her, Hyung" Myungsoo brushed his nape with embarassment since that may came off in Sunggyu's mind since spending a night with a girl could mess up with people's mind on how they would think.
"B-But nothing happened. I just spent the night with her, that's all" He added.
He shut his eyes close to brace himself for Sunggyu's unending naggings but all he heard was just a soft and simple, "Ok. I get it. Just come here before they went out all night with a lady. Bye".
He gagged for a minute and stared at his phone with great amusement. 'Why did he suddenly become welcoming and calm after just a minute of his nagging? Something's kinda off here', He thought.
You gave him a warm grin and said, "I guess you need to leave me, right now. Should I accompany to go outside?".
"Are you okay, now?"
You giggled and ruffled his head, "Aigoo! I'm much more better now. I guess I'll just need to wait for the doctor's permit to let me go out once again".
"Hey, Have you met Umma when I'm asleep?" You incquired as you pushed your saline stand while walking on the hallway.
"Yeah! I saw her this morning before you woke up" He shrugged coolly and smiled at you.
"So how was it?"
"It's fine I mean she's like crying for a minute. I was just frozen there but I couldn't help but hug her" He said calmly.
But as you were walking, A young man with blonde hair who has a cream fedora hat and sunglasses, looked at both of your presence. He furrowed his brows as he squinted his sight at the two of you. He could sense that there is something going on but he couldn't figure out what is it.
"I-Isn't that Myungsoo?" He asked himself. "But why is he with that girl, as well".
He stared at the your expression. You looked very happy, ruffling Myungsoo's hair and joking with him like you two, are very close. He could also hear Myungsoo's hearty chuckles and laughter even though the two of you already reached the end of the hallway.
Your actions were beyond good friends' interactions towards each other but it could also surpass the closeness of siblings. Anyone would think that the two of you are dating just by the looks of how close the two of you were.
He shook his head in disbelief as he walk away from the scene, "Fishy, it is. Indeed"
[a/n : Here we go again with another set of tomatoes and eggs. I certainly need some shield right now to protect myself from the hate of you guys /sobs/. Anyway, who is the guy who saw them on the hospital? Any guesses, anyone? :)) ]
I am kinda expecting any responses from you guys. I may not show it but what you say cheers me up to make some chappies from this story.
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