SooSun Special
Into the New World
I mindlessly outstretched my arms to help myself fight the oncoming sleep and, “Ahh,” I voiced. “So refreshing.”
When I finally opened my eyes I could tell that the sun was already up, and probably had been for a while. Oh great!
It was our day off though!
“What time is it,” I asked rhetorically while searching for my phone. I swear I just had it with me last night…
I looked under the covers, under my pillows, and even behind my bed. What the hell?
Okay, I had it right here next to my pillow so maybe… Ahha!
Found it!
It had dropped in between my bed and my nightstand. Stupid phone.
I hit home to check the clock and- Omo. It was already past nine thirty. Eh, well I guess that’s still pretty early for normal people… It sure beat our usual wake up time of five or six though.
The other thing I noticed while I was on my home screen was all the missed calls and texts I had received.
Nope. I was not dealing with that right now.
Oh god. Everything that happened yesterday suddenly flooded back into my brain. Ugh! No, I can’t think about that right now… I needed air.
I quickly picked my covers up from the floor and walked out of the room, fully noticing that Tiffany was not in her bed.
“Oooh~ Hwang Miyoung out all night,” I said to myself with a laugh. I hope she was at least smart about it… That girl had enough rumors going around.
I walked toward the living room, but I was quickly sidetracked. The scent of coffee filled my nostrils. Omo, that smells fantastic.
Okay, I could definitely grab a cup of coffee before going to the balcony as planned.
But wait, who made it?
Seohyun doesn’t drink coffee; Jessica doesn’t wake up until noon and Tiffany-
“Good morning Sunshine~!”
Oh, Tiffany was here… with a rather large pink Totoro beside her. What on earth…
“What is that,” I nodded toward the stuffed doll. A huge smile formed on her face as she wrapped her arms around it.
“A birthday present from my Taetae~. Isn’t it cute?” I hummed. It was pretty cute, and very pink. I don’t think I’ve ever seen a pink Totoro before either.
“Very. How did all that go,” I asked curiously.
“What? Last night?” I hummed again. “It was so perfect. We ate with his family and Hyoyeon and Seohyun, which was probably really awkward for them and the,” she started talking at a speed I didn’t even know was possible this early in the morning as other thoughts crept into my head.
She didn’t say anything about Sooyoung… Did he not go?
I would go check my text messages, but it lets the other person when you read them and I didn’t want him to know. I was giving him the silent treatment right now so I couldn’t give in that easily.
What he did was so… so… UGH.
I poured myself a cup of coffee and went to go sit with Tiffany, who was still babbling on about last night.
“… There’s cake left in the fridge by the way. After the cake though he gave me the Totoro and that card,” she pointed to the table in front of us. “And, wah~! He’s the best Sunkyu. We’re going on a drive tonight too~. It’s part two of my present.”
The way she said that made me think something else was up now… Oh god, she wasn’t planning on…
“Are we going to still be able to use the backseat after tonight Miyoung-ah?” formed that stupidly perfect grin she had every time she tried not to laugh or smile too big and I knew. “Oh my god Tiffany Hwang, you are a freak!”
“Yah~! I am not!”
“Okay,” I laughed sarcastically. The curiosity was killing me though. “Where do you even plan on doing that?”
“I’m not sure yet,” she responded. I eyed the card on the table and became curious again. “I’m sure we’ll find somewhere to- what are you doing?” I froze for a half a second before continuing to take the card out of its envelope.
“I’m reading this? Why? Is it embarrassing?”
“Hmm, nope! I guess you can.” I smiled and opened the card. “Hey can I see your phone?” I hummed and handed it over as my eyes fell to the first line.
I didn’t know if I should be more in awe or if I should be throwing up. The contents of this card were so sweet and sincere. It seriously oozed with his love for her. The way he put all of his feelings in to each sentence… Wow~, who knew that that dork had so many feelings inside him like this?
“You haven’t replied to any of these texts?”
“Huh?” I glanced over to see that she was now scrolling through my text messages.
Wait.
She was doing what!?
My head shot back in her direction as I snagged my phone out of her hand.
Looking at it, I saw that she wasn’t only reading my messages; she was reading the ones from Sooyoung!
“Oh my god, Tiffany! I can’t believe you opened them! Now he knows I looked at them~!” Oh god this was bad.
“Yah~! Chill out. You need to-“
“What are you two screaming about,” Jessica asked groggily as she walked toward us.
“Wow~ the Jessica Jung is awake before ten? Quick! Call the reporters,” Tiffany joked. Jess faked a punch while Tiffany just laughed.
Did they not understand the seriousness of this situation?!
“Tiffany I can’t believe you looked at them.”
“Sunny I can’t believe you didn’t. Twenty seven texts is way too many to leave un answered…”
“No it’s not,” I argued. “I wasn’t going to look at them until I thought things over… Jess back me up~.”
“What are you two even fighting over?”
I quickly filled her in on the situation. Oh god, hearing again made it sound even worse.
This was so, so bad. I don’t-
“I don’t see the problem,” she said flatly.
What? How? I couldn’t believe it.
“Thank you.” “Seriously,” Tiffany and I said at the same time. Jessica hummed.
“If you want him to know your ignoring him wouldn’t it make more sense to open the messages and not reply,” she paused to yawn. “If not it just looks like you never saw them in the first place.”
Holy… She was right.
Why didn’t I think of that?
Also…
“Why didn’t you say that last night pabo-yah? I’ve sat here all night wondering what he had been texting me.”
“Yah,” she started sharply. “You just asked me what you should do, not how you should do what you do.” I breathed out deeply.
She was right again though. I guess I didn’t question much past her advice of ‘give him the cold shoulder.’
“Why are you ignoring him anyway,” Tiff asked as she typed away on her phone. “I doubt he meant to hurt you or anything like that Sunny. It seemed to me like it was probably the choreographer’s last minute idea; you know to give it some shock value,” she paused.
I knew she was more than likely right, but there was this feeling hadn’t left the pit of my stomach since it all happened.
“I don’t know, you just need to ta-“
“Wh-what if it wasn’t,” I interrupted.
The actions that happened on stage last night didn’t even seem to faze him, almost like they’ve happened many times before.
“What do you mean ‘what if it wasn’t’?” She paused. “Don’t tell me you think Sooyoung did it on purpose?” I shrugged.
“What if he wants to break up with me or something?” Tiffany’s hand moved to my hand and I heard a sigh.
“Sunny, he isn’t Hyomin,” Jessica said softly, hitting right where it hurt. “And he loves you, I mean you were able to pull him away from liking me after all.” I grinned.
I appreciated the fact that she was trying to cheer me up, but it didn’t help the feeling go away.
This is almost exactly what happened with my last relationship. Hyomin went behind my back with another girl, another idol even, and started to see her.
I think that’s why this hurt so badly. I’m usually not shaken that easily, I mean I get that he’s an idol too and he’ll have to work with models and everything. Hell, just last week TYS had a photo shoot for some magazine that involved very pretty models and it didn’t bother me one bit, actually I think Tiffany was more bothered by it than me…
I don’t know, but this… This just struck an all too familiar chord within me.
Was it because he didn’t say anything to me? Or maybe it was because CL was an idol too…
Ugh! I seriously hated this feeling, whatever it was.
“I’m sure this is one huge misunderstanding Sunkyu… Why don’t you call him? Ooh! Or come with me when I go see Taeyeon at the venue,” she suggested. I just shook my head.
“Aniyo, I don’t want to.”
“At least read his texts then, I’m sure there’s something to make you feel better.” Tiffany hummed.
“There is, I read half of them.” Jessica hissed at her and I just rolled my eyes, eventually they landed on the card Taeyeon had given Tiffany.
Why can’t he be more like Taeyeon, I thought in my head. He was so in love with Tiffany that there was never even a question.
“What,” Tiffany laughed.
Oh god. Did I…
“Seriously?” She laughed again.
, I did.
“I don’t think you could handle Taeyeon.” Wait…
It was my turn to be confused now.
“What?!” She hummed.
“I’m serious, I don’t think you could handle him,” she laughed.
“Why not? He seems pretty easily managed to me,” I commented.
“Yeah I agree,” Jessica added. Tiffany just shook her head.
I mean how many problems could Taeyeon cause when he’s always being so sweet and caring toward her?
She just grinned.
“You’d go crazy, you especially Jessi.”
“Why is that?” I still didn’t quite understand, or even believe her actually.
“Okay, uhmm,”she paused.
“See! You don’t even know why. You’re totally making this up,” I laughed.
“Ani! Aniyo~ Taeyeon has his flaws too… Ooh! Okay, I got it.”
I smiled. This should be good.
“Okay, so Sooyoung tells you when something’s bothering him or he has problems right?” I nodded.
“Yeah, he complains all the time,” I laughed. Tiffany shook her head again.
“Don’t take that lightly. Taeyeon didn’t tell me anything like that for the longest time. He’s thankfully gotten past most of that now, but when we were only as far along as you guys are it was so annoying.”
Alright, I guess how that could be annoying, but still.
“He’s not great at saying things aloud either.”
I almost had to stop her there. She had to be joking, right?
“Don’t look at me like that,” she started. “He is totally the sweetest guy I’ve ever met hands down and probably will ever meet, but I think he holds back a lot. That’s why I get so happy when he writes songs about me. Not just because it’s a song for me… I’ll admit that’s great too,” she laughed. “But I get so happy because the song usually contains something that he wants to say, but never has or feels too weird to say it aloud or something.” She sighed and looked at our more than likely confused faces. “Ugh! What I guess I’m trying to say is that I don’t think he tells me everything he wants to, and I hate it.” I nodded.
“Ahh~.” I guess that would get on my nerves a little too. One of the things I liked most about Sooyoung was that he speaks his mind with me all the time. That boy didn’t seem to even know what a filter was… I started to smile, but immediately stopped myself.
No!
You can’t let him back in so easily.
“Taeyeon is getting better though, with my constant pushing that is,” she laughed.
“You have him wrapped around your little finger Tiffany, don’t even try to lie,” Jessica teased.
“Yah~, it’s not like I force him to be there… It’s just where he wants to be,” She added. “That’s where I think he and Sooyoung and even Yuri are different.”
She lost me again now…
“What?”
“Ugh,” she groaned. “What I’m trying to say is that the three of us are different, just like our needs and wants in boyfriends are going to be different. You need someone to balance out your crazy, Jessi needs someone to protect her, and I need someone to treat me like the princess I am~.”
I had to roll my eyes at that one. I knew she was more than likely saying that to make her point, but it was still too much.
“I don’t see how he handles you,” I teased. She laughed and then leaned into her giant doll once more.
Thinking about her words once more though, she definitely made sense.
She was right, I wouldn’t be able to handle someone as calm as Taeyeon. He was one who would prefer to take the backseat in the relationship while Tiffany rode in the front.
I needed someone who was sitting in the front seat right beside me, if that analogy made any sense I guess.
I needed someone who was outgoing, someone who was generous and friendly, someone who would push my buttons…
Ugh.
Someone exactly like my Youngie.
I took a deep breath.
“I guess I’ll look through his texts.”
I did exactly that too. I read them from start to finish in a matter of minutes, taking each one in hoping it would make me feel better.
It worked too. Tiffany was right. Just by reading all of the messages he sent with heartfelt apologies and reassuring words helped the feeling in my stomach slowly disperse.
My eyes fell to the last text I received.
Text Message
From: Youngie
Good Morning Sunkyu~
I’m still really sorry, I didn’t mean for any of this to happen.
I hope you believe me.
I love you.
Oh god, I have to text him back.
I hit reply and typed up the message I wanted to send, but then hovered over the ‘send’ button.
Then again, maybe I should let him suffer a bit more…
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I was mid eating a rather large hunk of black bean noodles when I felt the table vibrate. The other three sitting at the table didn’t seem to notice however.
Aish…
“Someone vibrated,” I announced with my mouth still full.
“Yah~ chew your food,” Yul scolded. “Don’t look at me, Sica said she was taking a nap before she came here.” I nodded. Okay, it wasn’t Yul.
I looked at the others at the table and saw that Dobin hyung was on his phone so it obviously wasn’t him either. Hmm, let’s see.
That phone is Taeyeon’s but since Tiffany is already here I’m sure it wasn’t his. She’s practically the only one he texts anyway.
The other two belonged to me and Hanyoung hyung. Obviously it wasn’t mine. Heck, my mom wasn’t even texting me back today.
“Hyung, your phone vibrated,” I said before taking another bite.
“Nope, mines not on vibrate.”
Then…
Omo! No way.
I felt my eyes almost pop out of my head before I made a grab for my phone, almost knocking over Yuri’s drink in the process.
“Aish! Sooyoung watch what you’re doing pabo-yah!”
“Oh, sorry hyung,” I mumbled as I scurried to hit the home button. My jaw dropped after seeing the alert that read ‘New Text Message.’
Not only did it say that though, it also said it was from Sunny!
“Wah,” I loudly cheered. I just had to let out a quick scream of joy.
Lee Sunkyu finally texted me back after at least twelve hours of cellphone silence.
“What is your problem,” Dobin asked, momentarily pulling me from my phone.
“He even called me hyung,” Yuri said in a surprised tone.
“What? Jinjja?” Yuri hummed and-
Wait a second…
Why was I still here… More importantly, why in the world had I not already read her text?
I jumped up from my seat and started to walk out of the room. I mean I couldn’t be in the room with them when I called her.
Crap. Was I calling her?
Ani. I needed to read the message first. UGH! Why had I still not opened it?
I typed in my passcode and hurriedly went to my messages. I almost screamed again when I saw the message was actually there. I tapped on it in no time.
Text Message
From: Bunny
I believe you, but I still don’t like it.
Oh my god.
I didn’t even try to process the sense of relief I was now feeling. I hit the little phone symbol up in the corner and put the phone to my ear.
Whew, you can do this. She believes you, you’re good to-
“Yeboseyo?”
“Sunny-ah~ I’m so sorry.”
“Youngie,” she started, but I couldn’t let her finish. I had to get out what I needed to say.
“Sunny, I should have told you I was working with her, I know. I’m sorry. I wanted it to be a big surprise. It wasn’t my idea to do that either. Hyung said we should add the first bit a-and then CL did the second thing without even telling me and I had to go with it because it was live. Bunny, I’m so sorry.”
I took a deep breath. Wow that was hard to say all in one go.
Oh gosh, it burns.
I think I need an inhaler or a respirator or-
“Sooyoung-ah~,” Sunny called, causing my breathing to just stop altogether. I hummed.
“I told you I believed you dummy… Just don’t let it happen again, got it?”
Oh gosh, she… she wasn’t mad?
“So-so- so you aren’t mad,” I stuttered. She laughed.
“I’m a little mad,” she admitted.
“Uh oh.” I heard her chuckle again.
“I’m only a tiny bit mad at you Youngie for not telling me, don’t worry. It’s her that I’m really mad at,” she sighed. “But what’s done is done. From now on you need to at least give me a little warning, okay?”
“Y-yes Bunny, and don’t worry, I’ll tell her she has to stop her shenanigans the moment she gets here.” I heard her cute little laugh on the other side of the phone and somehow felt a million times better, whew.
Her laughing also kinda made me feel like she didn’t believe I would tell her. “I’m not kidding Bunny. I’ll tell her that what happened yesterday cannot happen again.”
“Will you now,” she asked. I could hear the unbelieving tone in her voice now for sure. I hummed firmly.
“I’ll even tell hyung that I won’t do the first part either.”
“Youngie~ don’t defy your choreographer pabo, you might get in trouble.”
“I don’t care~,” I almost sang back. “I won’t let it happen. I’ll run away from her if I have to.” Her laughter filled my ears now.
“I’m not sure if I should be worried or not, but I can totally picture you doing that.” I smirked.
“Well if you came to the show you wouldn’t have to picture it. You should come when Sica comes.”
“Should I?” I hummed again.
“Definitely. This time stay you should stay backstage with me though…,” I trailed off.
“And why is that Choi Sooyoung?”
AISH! I hated when she did that thing with her voice that made it a little you know, ier… than usual. It was seriously so frustrating.
Okay, I didn’t necessarily hate it, but it was definitely bothersome.
“S-so I can see you when I come backstage. Taeng got to see Tiffany noona multiple times yesterday~,” I whined.
“Aw~ was my Youngie jealous?” I hummed.
“Very. I almost went out in the audience and whisked you away with me,” I joked.
“Oh wow, you would’ve been torn apart,” she laughed. I strongly disagreed. “I’m serious! You should’ve heard the things those girls were saying out there. Oh that reminds me, I might have to ban you from doing any hip ing dance moves from now on,” she laughed.
That would not end up flying so well seeing as how our next promotional song’s choreography has quite a few of those… Luckily, she was kidding. I decided to back.
“Aye~ then I ban you from dancing in general Bunny, you’re way too y.”
“You’re one to talk Mr. Flash-My-Abs-Every-Five-Seconds,” she said accusingly. I scoffed. “But you’re in luck. I was planning on attending your concert. Jess and Seohyun too, and I think we’re all going to stay backstage.”
“Jinjja?!” She hummed.
“I’ve got to go though. The shower just opened up. I’ll see you soon Youngie, I love you.”
My heart jumped like it always did when she said those three words, but I had to contain myself for now.
“I love you too Bunny. Annyeong~!”
I heard the phone click off and I literately jumped for joy.
Sunny wasn’t mad AND she was coming here!
Things couldn’t get better for me right now.
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I was right about that too. Things did NOT get better.
Not only was Sunny and CL here, but multiple camera men were too.
How the heck was I supposed to know that we were having this concert recorded so it could be broadcasted on TV?!
Aigo~! It was going to be rough.
Thankfully I was so busy running around on an off stage I didn’t even get to see either of them until our first set was over. Just as I reached our room I saw Taeyeon and Tiffany leaving. Gah~ he was quick…
I soon enough got changed into my next outfit, which was a bit flashier and revealing than the previous, and went to where f(x) and my girlfriend should be. I walked in the room expecting a hug from the smaller girl across the room, but I only received a small smile.
That was when I noticed the camera crew that was also set up in this room.
Ugh. At least I get to be around her I guess…
“Oh, annyeonghaseyo,” I greeted the camera now pointing at me. I quickly switched in to entertainer mode. “I’m backstage right now with f(x)’s Amber,” I said grabbing the person closest to me. “Are you excited to perform the next two songs with oppa?”
“Ah ne,” she said like she would be replying to a real reporter. There was an awkward pause and we both started laughing. “Sorry, I’m so bad at this,” she laughed.
Thankfully, and sort of not so thankfully a crew member popped in to the room and told Amber and I we needed to leave now. I bowed to the camera and shot Sunny a long enough glance for me to make out the word ‘fighting’. I smiled and quickly followed Amber outside of the room where Yul and Jessica were waiting.
“Oh Yul, what are you doing out here?”
“Uh-er, well I needed a second away from the cameras,” he quickly blurted out.
What the… Why would he need away from the-
Omo.
It was only then when I noticed Sica’s avoiding eyes and her quickly reddening face.
“No way...” I started laughing and rightfully earned a punch to the arm.
“Shut up,” Yul said firmly. “Let’s go.” Amber was laughing now too.
“Thank you for your hard work,” she teased. “You look a little winded unnie.”
Jessica made a fist, but Amber quickly ran off down the hall. I soon followed after in fear of another punch due to my now uncontrollable laughter.
Those two were so fun to pick on.
We performed the next two songs flawlessly if I do say so myself and now it was time for my duet with CL.
The lights went out and I moved into position for the song to start, but I suddenly remembered something.
Oh crap.
I totally forgot to tell CL we were cutting out the scandalous moves. Oh gosh, I was just so busy with everything else.
This was going to be a disaster…
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Watching Sooyoung on stage was hilarious, and very endearing.
I don’t know if it was obvious to anyone else, but he was clearly avoiding CL.
Oh my god he was adorable.
They were standing beside each other and instead of twirling her around like he did yesterday; he literately spun around her and went off in the other direction on stage. I laughed aloud at that.
The rest of the performance was just as entertaining, him running around doing what he does best.
I really don’t see how people thought G-Dragon was still better than my Sooyoung. Yeah, he was good, but Youngie definitely had a better technique and delivery.
If anything the top two should be Hyoyeon and Sooyoung. I think they just got overshadowed since GD and TOP are both part of Big Bang. It probably didn’t help that TYS was still considered new and H2YO had some sort of scandal every other month due to Hyomin. I sighed.
Don’t worry Sunkyu, TYS is already rivaling BB in terms of probably everything except Japanese sales… Soon they’ll take them over and he’ll be declared the better rapper as well. I just have to be patient.
Thank god I was very, very patient.
The rest of the concert went as amazing as the first half. TYS was so fun to watch. Their performance level was no joke.
It was still hard to believe that the TYS everyone watches on stage were the same three dorks I knew personally, but I was glad it was.
An hour or so later we were all at the after party SM threw for the boys at a restaurant nearby. Thankfully it was nearing its end.
“Sorry, but I think we’re going to leave first,” Taeyeon announced over our small crowd. I watched one of their managers stand. “Aniyo hyung don’t worry, I drove. “
I saw Tiff’s lips slightly curl and just shook my head.
Those two were going to get in serious trouble one day I swear…
I did however wish that Sooyoung and I could go off like that, without even a question. We obviously didn’t have to do what they were going to do, nor did I really want to. I feel like that would probably end up being super uncomfortable. I wanted my first time with Youngie to be very comfort- oh my god.
Did I really just think about that again?
Seriously Sunkyu, what is with you? That’s all you can think about these days.
I glanced at Sooyoung, who was now looking at his phone, and felt my heart start to speed up.
Oh god, who could blame me though?
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Since there were still a few things that the PD wasn’t happy with for our mini album, Yuri and I were being dragged to SM to record, or I should say re-record. Taeyeon probably would have been here too if it wasn’t for the photo shoot he had today.
We were proud of him though. It was his first solo endorsement, well kinda solo.
He was chosen by the cosmetics brand Nature Republic to be their spokes model, along with KARA’s Jiyoung, Gyuri, and Hara that is.
It was his first without one of us there I should say…
We arrived at SM and quickly made it to the already occupied recording room.
Wait a minute, what?
I looked at the smiling girl. Oh goodness~.
“Taeng isn’t here noona, I figured you would have known that.”
“I know,” Tiffany grinned back. Uh?
I looked at my manager.
“She knows.”
“You know?” She hummed again.
“I know.”
Alright. NOW I was confused.
“The President said we needed something to spice up track three, and since it won’t be the promotional song we can have someone feature on it.”
“And who better to spice it up than the original muse of the song,” a voice from behind me announced.
“Oh ne, seonsaengnim.” I quickly bowed to the incoming LSM himself. We all said our greetings and I turned back to Tiff.
“Does Taeyeon know?” She smiled again.
“Nope. He won’t know until after it’s already done.” I laughed.
“Oh my gosh, that will be hilarious.”
Just thinking about his ridiculous expression killed me. Omo, I couldn’t wait for that.
Thankfully, we started soon after.
LSM and the PD ran us through the parts we needed to redo because he didn’t like and then once more to point out where Tiffany would be singing instead. We were also going to have to redo a few lines where Tiff sang with us.
The next few hours consisted of the three of us singing and rapping our lines in different tones and speeds about thirty different ways. Hopefully, now we were finished though.
It’s not that I don’t like working with Tiffany or LSM or anything, actually having Tiffany there was kinda fun.
I say hopefully though because I don’t know what was up this PD’s today, but whatever it was it had to be sideways.
He was being so harsh, on all of us.
Tiff had less than ten lines and some adlibbing to do, and he made her redo it all at least ten times. I could understand if she kept messing up or something, but she didn’t… at all.
I was just glad it might be over now. I was also glad that he wasn’t our usual PD. Apparently he had an emergency and they asked this jerk to fill in. Ugh, next time I vote to wait until the nice one comes back.
“Good. Let’s give it a listen now.” The three of us turned from our conversation to look at LSM and the PD. I will give him points for working fast to put it all together like that though. Now if he could only work on his personality…
I heard the guitar come in quickly followed by Taeyeon’s voice.
If you want to listen~
(I think the speaking kind of part in the beginning sounds weird, so let's pretend it's not in the TYS version^^)
[Taeyeon]
Without anyone knowing, I love you~
Without anyone knowing, I think of you~
It's a love that only you and I know in this world~
[Tiffany]
All day, I remember you~
All day, I love you~
Even if I'm in jail, it's okay - if only I have you, I can live~
[Yuri]
In case anyone recognizes us, we can't walk comfortably in the streets of Gangnam
Only the neon signs and streetlights in the dark night
Are blessing our relationship, making my heart ache
In front of many people, I can't express my greetings or a single word to you, making me anxious
We're trapped in a box called reason, rather than a box called emotion
[Taeyeon]
This feeling like I'm walking on ice~
This feeling like I'm flying in the sky~
My hot heart is pounding dugeun dugeun dugeun love~
[Tiffany]
You are hotter than the sun~,
I am colder than ice~
You and I, we can't speak of this love~
[Taeyeon]
Without anyone knowing, I love you~
Without anyone knowing, I think of you~
It's a love that only you and I know in this world~
[Tiffany]
All day, I remember you~
All day, I love you~
Even if I'm in jail, it's okay - if only I have you, I can live~
[Yuri & Tiffany}
You Don’t Know Me. Never Ever Ever Know.~
You Don’t Know Me. Never Ever Ever~
[Sooyoung]
It's hard to talk on the phone with you every day
We secretly talk through texting as I cautiously look around me
Instead of saying I love you, saying I miss you
Is more familiar in our conversation so my heart aches
Every day, I am love sick over you
Everywhere I look, I see you - so do you know how much more I miss you?
Even if you're next to me, because of your pushed down hat
I can't even look at your eyes - who will know this feeling?
[Tiffany]
This feeling like I'm walking on ice~
This feeling like I'm flying in the sky~
[Sooyoung]
Whether this is electrifying or just pathetic
I can't tell which one is right
[Tiffany]
You are hotter than the sun, ~
I am colder than ice~
[Yuri]
Again today, with a message that only you would know
I tweet about my current status with a nervous feeling~
[Taeyeon]
Without anyone knowing, I love you~
Without anyone knowing, I think of you~
It's a love that only you and I know in this world~
[Tiffany]
All day, I remember you~
All day, I love you~
Even if I'm in jail, it's okay - if only I have you, I can live~
[Yuri]
Wherever we go, we always sit in the farthest corner
Whatever we do, we can't even take a single picture
[Sooyoung]
What's so important about that? I'm next to you
Whatever we do, our time together is more precious
[Yuri]
Even if we lock eyes for a moment, we get surprised
We get nervous and scared in case someone figures out our secret
[Sooyoung]
What's so important about that? You are next to me
And our time together is more precious
[Tiffany]
Still, I only love you~
Still, I only think of you~
It will never change forever, the love of you and I~
[Taeyeon]
I love you more than myself~
I think of you more than myself~
No one needs to know, if only I have you, I can live~
“Wah~,” Tiffany cheered. “I totally love it.”
“Now that’s just the raw version of you Tiffany-ssi, and of course the parts you two just redid,” the PD reminded us. “It should be even better after it goes through some editing and touch ups.”
“Ne, I think it sounds great already. It’s definitely my favorite song on the album.”
“It’s the only one you’ve heard,” Yul commented.
I did have to agree though, I think it was my favorite song off the album too. It just fit perfectly to what I’m feeling like… always. Seriously, Taeyeon captured the feeling so well in words I couldn’t believe it.
Never being able to see her, having to sneak around always… Aigo~ now I totally know what Taeyeon meant when he said this was hard.
I am kind of jealous of Yuri in that sense though. He almost never had to sneak around. Every time he and Sica went out they didn’t hide it at all and just said they were going as friends because of their drams. Then they got caught in the garage and had to go public and… Ugh. He didn’t really have to go through the ‘hide your relationship from everyone’ phase.
I was so jealous.
Sometimes I wish Sunny and I would get caught so we don’t have to hide, but I quickly take it back.
After having witnessed the explosions in the media and internet with both Taeyeon and Tiffany, and Yuri and Jessica; I think we’ll both be okay staying out of the spotlight for a while. Plus, I’m the last ‘single’ member of TYS left… Someone has to attract the ladies am I ri-
“Oh well~! I seriously love it,” Tiffany exclaimed again, pulling me out of my thoughts.
“I’m glad Tiffany-ssi. You’re free to go now. Let’s take a five minute break and we’ll start with the other song that needs fixed.”
“Yes sir,” my manager said before he followed LSM out of the room. I watched Tiffany put a few things in her bag before turning back to us.
“Where was Taeyeon’s shoot at again?” I laughed.
This girl…
“Don’t trust him with Hara eh?” I laughed even harder. Yuri seemed to have read my mind.
“Shut up Yuri, she has a boyfriend now remember.”
Omo, I totally forgot about that…
“Ahh, right. I forgot,” he laughed. She hummed.
“Yeah. I’m bringing him lunch. You guys can come too if you want.”
It would be kinda fun to see Taeng-
“I’m driving~.”
Wait a second.
“What?” She hummed again.
“I got my license yesterday~! Don’t tell Taeyeon though. I want it to be a surprise.”
“They let you on the streets of Seoul? Is that even legal? Omo, I’m definitely out,” I teased. I knew we had to stay and finish recording anyway, but it was always fun to pick on Tiffany.
“Soo I wouldn’t talk if I were you. Didn’t you just get yours like a month ago,” Yuri laughed.
Aish… That little pu-
“Yah! You’re such a brat Choi Sooyoung.” She loudly sighed. “I’m telling Sunny.”
“You better go before they start the kissing scenes.” She stopped dead in her tracks.
“They don’t have kissing scenes do they?” Her wide eyes looked from me to Yuri and then to my manager.
“Of course,” I responded.
When I saw the pen she was holding fly at me I knew I had been sold out, probably by Yongduk hyung…
That jerk always spoiled my fun.
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Yuri and I finished dancing to a short medley kind of version of both ‘Boy in Luv’ and ‘A.D.T.O.Y’ and quickly returned to our seats.
The MC introduced another older man before turning his attention to us.
“And even with their busy schedule TYS stopped by. TYS’s Yuri and Sooyoung are here today,” He called out.
“Ne, Dalgona is like a mini vacation for us,” I commented earning an ‘ooh’ from the audience.
“Sitting behind TYS is like a vacation for us, one of the older women added.” Everyone in the studio loved that.
“So I heard you’re really fond of TYS,” the male MC asked the female MC.
“Uh, erm… well is there anyone who doesn’t like TYS?” I felt good about that comment
“That’s right,” the other male MC cheered.
“We’ve all cheered you on. Beyond Korea and Asia, they’ve been taking over Europe too,” she commented. “I’ve been watching you on TV and cheering for you guys every step of the way.”
“Wow, thank you so much,” I commented. They asked what it was like performing there, so I took it upon myself to answer. “When we went there and saw people holding the Korean flag in the audience it felt as if... you know, when you win a medal at the Olympics and your flag goes up… It was really touching for us to see our country’s flag in a foreign place like that,” I tried to respond the best I could.
“That’s right,” Yuri added from beside me.
“Do you have any interesting stories from foreign concerts?”
I thought about it for a second, but before I could start mine, Yuri had already started to tell one.
“Well, because we fly a lot for performances, we have a lot of interesting stories from plane rides as well.”
“Ah that’s right, I remember seeing something about Sooyoung-ssi saying the flight attendant’s speech.”
“Ah ne,” Yuri laughed. “This time it’s about him as well.”
Oh god…
“Ne, because we don’t really get to sleep a lot, we usually fall asleep as soon as we get on the plane and wake up right when it’s time to get off, so we just wake up and get off.” The MC’s hummed. “So one day, Sooyoung was getting off and he was still kind of sleepy and as we were walking out I noticed he was carrying something in his hands.”
“Oh goodness,” I commented aloud. I knew where this was going. Yuri laughed and continued on his story.
“So he was walking ahead of me and I knew something was off so I called out, ‘Sooyoung-ah, what are you holding?’ And he replied, ‘My bag.’ But when I took a closer look it was actually the pillow that the plane handed out. I don’t think he returned it either.”
Everyone laughed at me for a bit, but then they thankfully moved on to the real part of the show.
This program was where they would bring in people from our past and have them reveal silly stories or something along those lines. I think when Yunho hyung was on here he brought out his very, very pretty sister to tell an embarrassing story, so I figured that’s what would happen to me too.
I was kind of excited though. I hadn’t seen my sister in a while.
Yuri was up first however.
For his ‘scoop’ as they called it, they brought in two of Yuri’s friends from his childhood to talk about how much he loves the mirror.
It was pretty hilarious, especially the story about how he just left one day from hanging out with his friends and went home because he ‘didn’t like his outfit.’ I got a good laugh out of that one.
It sure did sound like our Yuri…
The MCs then decided that it was his love for mirrors and caring about his looks and fashion so much that he became the visual of TYS, which actually made pretty good sense.
The next ‘scoop’ was about another guest’s son and how he didn’t listen to him or something, I’m not sure. I was too focused on thinking about who they were going to dig up for me.
Omo, would they bring my sister in? Or friends of mine from elementary school like Yuri?
Oh gosh it was nerve wracking.
“Well, now Sooyoung,” The MC started a few minutes later. “We’re just waiting on your scoop now.”
“I’m really excited,” I added truthfully. “I haven’t seen my friends from elementary in almost a decade, so I’m kind of curious to know what they grew up to be like.”
“Ah, ne… we’ll see what kind of a scoop we have for you Sooyoung,” he announced.
“Ne, I’m here at the scoop studio,” another MC popped up on the huge screen behind the main MCs just as he did for the other two. “Sooyoung-ssi, you said you wanted to meet your first love again, right?”
UHM.
My eyes shot to the screen.
“It can’t be…Omo,” I said in shock.
“Ne, we have Pil Heejong here with us.”
Oh gosh. I was in trouble…
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Thankfully the little chat with Heejong was fairly safe.
She came in with the story that I had ‘totally played her’, and said that I basically annoyed her every day by picking on her and doing little things like that until she started to like me too. Then she talked about how I rejected her when she confessed to me.
It was true, I even admitted to it, but I definitely had a real reason behind it. Oh gosh, I still remember this like it was yesterday.
It wasn’t because I didn’t like her or anything, actually I liked her a lot, but during those years, I wasn’t necessarily the most attractive kid in the class, nor was I the most popular. I don’t think I ever was.
Ah~! Puberty really did wonders for me.
It was true though, and because I was one of the less popular and less attractive kids, there were a lot of girls that just asked me out as a joke or a dare from their friends. It was kinda depressing, but I also think it made me a bit stronger and helped me to be who I am today, so I don’t stress about it much.
The reason I rejected her though was because I knew Heejong had heard about me liking her and I thought she probably confessed to me because her friends put her up to it or to play a joke, because she was one of the popular girls. I had no idea it was sincere.
So I guess in the end we both kind of played each other?
Oh well. It was nice to see her and to see that she had been doing well these past almost ten years that I hadn’t seen her.
It was even nicer to know that Sunny didn’t care. In fact she thought that it was funny and was excited for it to air.
That girl never ceased to amaze me.
What was even more amazing was the fact that the music video for SNSD’s Japanese song ‘Bad Girl’ came out today. We couldn’t watch it yet though, ‘not until your lunch break’, hyung whined annoyingly every time I asked.
I was just thankful we only had ten minutes left. I was even more excited to watch it than I was to eat, and that’s when I knew it was serious.
Oh my god I just could not get the image of her in the teaser out of my head. Seriously the past two days have been torture.
I know the teaser wasn’t much but short clips of the four members rolling up on motorcycles. I think it had one quick shot of them walking away from the camera, but I was hooked. The song was pretty suggestive already, but those little shorts and the tight black, midriff bearing shirt in the teaser… Ugh, it sure got my imagination rolling.
“Alright, that was great boys. Taeyeon your moves during the rap are still looking a little rough but we’ll tighten it back up when we start back.” We all bowed to his departure, but as soon as that door closed I had already pulled my tablet out of my bag.
I needed to see the music video.
“Yah Soo hurry up, I’m dying here,” Yuri complained.
My members were also pretty excited for it.
I was finally able to pull it up and thanks to SM’s super-fast Wi-Fi it started in seconds.
It almost seemed planned, but I’m pretty sure all three of our jaws dropped at the exact same time.
I didn’t even care though. Sunny looked so good. SO.
Not just Sunny either, in fact all four of them were looking the iest I’ve ever seen them.
It’s not like I was looking at them when the four were beside each other, but when they did close ups how was I not to notice them too?
I made the most unhuman noise when Sunny suddenly popped up on the screen, but gah~. From her toned legs all the way up to the attractive way her hair was tied up, I had no complaints. Thankfully the other two were too consumed in watching their girlfriends to notice my sound so it was alright.
However, I started to notice something else that I was not alright with…
I could feel myself rising below and this was not good.
I mean it was obviously good, but I could not do this here. Oh god it wasn’t stopping either.
Nope. I would just have to watch this MV when I got home… alone.
I just had to get out of there before one of the other two noticed the tent now in my sweat pants.
Quick, think! Ahha!
“I-I’m going to go to the bathroom… He-here,” I handed them the tablet and swiftly stepped out of the room.
I don’t think they even noticed though due to the video. I gave myself a mental pat on the back.
Whew, crisis averted.
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We had around three hours to kill before we had to leave for Japan and since everyone else was going to hang out with their boyfriends I decided I would too.
“Hey Jess can you drop me off when you pick Yuri up?”
“Sure, let’s g-“
“You aren’t coming back here are you?” Tiffany was staring at us with wide eyes and Taeyeon was trying to look innocent right behind her.
Oh my god.
“Wow, way to make it obvious Tiff.”
“Make what obvious?”
Uh oh.
Our precious maknae had just entered the room. She looked back and forth between us all before quickly picking up on the situation.
“Oh~… Oh! Unnie~,” she whined disapprovingly. “Thank god I’m meeting a friend.”
All of our heads turned toward her. Seohyun rarely met with friends, usually it was one of her classmates or Yonghwa, but I knew that was over.
This just got interesting.
She wouldn’t be studying at this hour though right? It was almost ten, and we had to lea-
“Before you all get some nonsensical idea in your heads, it’s my friend from class. Who is a girl,” she added firmly. “We have a huge test when we get back from Japan in a few days.”
Never mind.
It was Seohyun after all, what was I thinking?
Jessica seemed to know exactly what I was thinking though as she urged us to hurry up. We did and we soon dropped Seohyun off at some café.
Once we reached their dorm however, I was sent up the elevator alone with one message, ‘Tell Yuri to hurry.’ I just shook my head.
Why didn’t she come if she wanted to boss her boyfriend around?
I rang the doorbell and within five seconds Yuri answered the door. I watched his expression take a dark turn.
“It’s just me,” I laughed. “Sorry Yul.” He chuckled.
“Ani, it’s not that, I just thought yo-“
“I was Jess. I know,” I assured. “Don’t worry, I know I’m still your favorite.”
“Oh totally,” he said as his smile returned. I was really glad I got along well with Yuri just as I did Taeyeon and obviously Sooyoung. In a way we were becoming one big family.
Omo, we could be called ‘TYS Shidae.’
“Is Sica down stairs?”
“Oh, uh yep,” I responded. “She said to hurry too so…” He grinned.
“I guess that’s my cue then. Oh! Soo is in the living room. He was napping the last time I checked on him though. I smiled.
“Okay thanks! Have fun Yuri-yah.”
“You too Sunkyu.” He waved one last time before finally stepping out the door.
“Alright, now to find Youngie,” I said aloud.
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“Bring popcorn too,” I ordered cutely. Sooyoung turned around mid-route to the door and grabbed where his heart was.
“Omo, I knew I loved you for a reason. I almost forgot!”
“Yah!” He laughed and continued to walk out the door to grab the snacks for the movie I picked out. I guess I should actually say the movie that I picked randomly. I thought about searching for an interesting one, but then when I thought about how we would only end up watching probably not even half of it I figured it didn’t matter which movie it was.
In the end it turned out to be some American movie that neither of us really cared about. Actually it ended up to be basically background noise for the conversation we were having on his bed. Wah, it felt so good to talk to him face to face rather than via text or over the phone. I missed him so much.
“Do you like your new album,” I asked curiously. He hummed.
Just before we were on the topic of all the dance rehearsals they had to do because Taeyeon was well…lacking in the dance department.
“I think it’ll be good. I really like our promotional song and the other’s on there are pretty good too. Oh, especially the one. Actually I think it fits us perfectly,” he said as he pulled me even closer to him. I smiled and repositioned myself to help him out a bit.
I mean our legs were sort of entangled in each other’s and we weren’t really giving the other much space. It was obviously fine with us like this, but when he started moving around it made it harder to get comfy.
“How’s that?”
“Uhm,” he held out as his hand came to rest on my thigh. “It’s the one Tiffany noona came to sing on.” I nodded. “Taeng wrote it when he and noona were still hiding their relationship, and it tells how hard it is and everything. You’ll love it.” He smiled down at me, but I couldn’t think about anything he said.
I couldn’t stop thinking about his hand that would not stop caressing my thigh. It would go up and back down, he’d pause and start only moving his thumb… Ugh!
It was so distracting, especially when he got a little too high on the inside of my thigh…
Oh no, do not think about that Sunny!
No matter how distracting his touches were, I knew I couldn’t say anything though. I knew he didn’t have a motive for doing what he was doing; he was just kind of distractedly touching me. I knew he wasn’t trying to tickle me or , which that wasn’t working so well… but I loved the feeling it gave me.
That was when I started to realize I’ve done the same thing before, many times actually. It was just something about feeling him under my fingertips that was physically comforting. Feeling his skin and the shape of his bones underneath…
Wah, it was a wonderful feeling.
I pulled his head down to me and gave him a long peck on the cheek. When I released him I head a very forceful exhale. Oh goodness. He wasn’t going to act angry now was he?
“Yah! Were you even listening?”
He was…
I shook my head. “Nope. I was watching though.”
“Aish~! Fine! I’ll just watch too,” he said before taking a drink of his red Kool-Aid. He must have thought I meant I was watching the movie for he turned his head to face the television.
Oh my god, this pabo.
“Sooyoung-ah I-“
“Shhh, I’m trying to watch- omo!”
The next few seconds were in slow motion I swear, maybe it was an out of body experience or something. All I know is that I was able to watch that stupid cup of bright freaking red Kool-Aid fall right out of his hand and splash on to us, but I wasn’t able to do anything to stop it. My hands were too slow.
No freaking way. I quickly hopped off the bed and started to assess the situation, but I was quickly interrupted.
“Ah! Sunny-ah!”
“I know! I it got everywhe-“
“No! My shirt!” I looked over at his now half yellow, half orange-ish red t-shirt. Uh-oh. I instantly looked down and let out a deep breath. I was luckily wearing a black shirt tonight. Assa!
“What do I do?! My mom got me this!” Oh goodness.
“Go take it off and soak it for a bit! You have to make sure to wa-wa-wash…it.” I gulped. “Oh my god.”
He took his shirt off right in the middle of the bed room, revealing his drool worthy body.
“What? What’s wrong?” He looked me over worriedly before I could actually see the light bulb in his head go off. “Right! It got on you too. I’ll grab you one of my shirts babe,” he said as he started walking toward his closet.
So many things were running through my head right now I didn’t even know where to start.
Think!
“What about your shirt?”
Wait, seriously? Out of all the things you could have said… Wow.
“It can wait. Let me grab you a clean shirt first.”
“Soo, I’m fine.” He ignored me. I grabbed him arm as he tried to walk past me.
“What?”
“I’m seriously fine, only a little bit got on me,” I lied. I actually just wanted him to remain shirtless for a while and if he went to his closet, he might put on a shirt too.
He paused to look me over.
“Are you sure?” I hummed.
“Let’s take care of this shirt first.” I took it out of his hands and walked to the bathroom sink, filling it with water.
After I put the shirt in I started to move it around underwater, in hopes it would help the red liquid disperse, when suddenly I felt Soo’s arms around me and his chin on my shoulder.
I didn’t say anything for the next minute or so and just took in the sweet silence of his arms and his amazing body that was pressed against me. The only sound I could hear was his breathing and the water sloshing around.
Wah~! This was nice.
“Thank you Sunkyu,” he said softly, breaking the silence. I laughed.
“For what? I didn’t even get the Kool-Aid completely out.” He moved from behind me and made me put the shirt down.
“For trying so hard, duh. It’s working, I can already tell its lighter,” he cheered. “Let’s go get you a fresh shirt though, I can feel where this is wet you little liar.”
I protested a few more times saying that I was fine, but I eventually gave in and followed him to his room once again. He sure was stubborn when he wanted to be.
“All of my shirts are in the closet. Take your pick,” he laughed as he laid back on the bed. “Pick one for me too.”
“No,” I answered almost immediately… and unintentionally.
Omo...
“And why not,” he asked playfully. I’m sure he knew why, but I entertained him anyway.
“Because I like it better off.” I turned back to see his grinning face.
“Well that’s not fair then is it?”
That definitely shocked me. Right here is usually where Sooyoung shut down my uh, well… suggestive advances.
A month ago or maybe even longer, we talked about taking our relationship to the next step one night after it almost went there. Sooyoung said he wasn’t ready for it and I totally respected that. I knew it was partially because of his beliefs, but it was also partially him just simply not being ready, and I understood. It didn’t bother me anyway...
Okay, so maybe it was a bit frustrating when I couldn’t have him like I wanted, but I obviously wasn’t going to force him or try to talk him in to it.
No matter how much I wanted to try…
I respected his decision and I knew was a big deal, especially since it was going to be both of our first times. I knew I wanted it to be with him though, so I had to wait for him.
So yeah, his comment surprised me a quite a bit.
Hmm, I might as well try to see how far he’ll let me go tonight though, right? I smirked.
“And why not?”
“Because you still have your shirt on.” I could tell he was getting nervous, but shy and nervous Sooyoung was too hard to resist.
“Take it off of me then,” I tempted. To my surprise though, Sooyoung stood up and walked to me.
A nervous breath escaped his lips as his fingers found the hem of my shirt. For a few seconds he stood idly, playing with the cloth. His obvious nerves were so adorable. I placed a quick peck to his bare chest and that seemed to do the trick for now his hands were sliding up my sides bringing my shirt along with them.
I still had a thin tank top on, and of course my bra, but that did not stop Youngie’s eyes from doubling in size. It felt just as amazing as the first few times we got this far for him to look at me like that.
“Better?” I watched him start to hesitantly shake his head back and forth as I heard a faint ‘uh-uh.’
“This too,” he said as he tugged the tank top.
Oh my god, Choi Sooyoung! I felt my brows rise. Was this really going to happen?
I felt my heartbeat get quicker as I took off my tank top and threw it where my shirt had already landed. I was starting to get a little nervous now too. I glanced at him and he was staring downward, not even daring to look at my chest.
I looked down at myself and then quickly back to Sooyoung standing in front of me. His chest was rising and falling very heavily now.
Uh oh~. Maybe it wasn’t going to happen then… I was suddenly worried about him.
Was he ready? Like 400% ready?
“Sooyoung-ah, if you’re not-“
“Aniyo! Ani, I’m just nervous Sunny.” I smiled.
He was adorable.
I took his hands in mine. “Youngie, we don’t have to do anything if you aren’t ready. I completely understand. I ju-“
“No,” he interrupted. “I-I want to keep going. I want to be with you.” He undid our hands and wrapped his arms around me completely.
“Wha-what are you doing?”
“I’m holding you,” he answered simply. His hands hesitantly pressed flatly against my , sending a small shiver up my spine. Oh goodness~!
I needed to make sure.
“Are you sure? You’re not doing this because I want it right?” He hummed.
“I’m sure Sunkyu. I love you and I want to do this just as much as you do.” I nodded against him, but I knew that wasn’t true.
It was impossible to want this more than me.
“Let’s just take it slow, okay? I don’t want to mess up or anything…” I leaned back and looked at his worried and nervous face.
“Slow is perfect.”
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Sorry for it being even longer than usual, but I didn't want to cut any of it out, nor did I want to make it in to two chapters.
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