“Noona!!!!!”

I just heard someone called me,but I cant be sure who is it. As I turn back, a car suddenly crash on me. I cant remember anything. My world gone black. When I open my eyes, I realize that im in a weird places. All of the people are in white. Where am i?

“Are u alright? Mom is so worried. You had been lying unconcious there for days. Can you recognize me dear?”

“i..iii… where am I mom?”

“Im glad u still know me dear. Im startled when I heard you met an accident. You re in hospital now Shin. Minho is the one who rushed you to the hospital. Im so thankful to him, if he is not there, I don’t know what will happen to you. “

Oh! He is the one who called me last time. But where is he? I don’t see him around.

“Mom, where is he? Why I cant see him around?”

“He is here all morning dear,he just get back to the office as he need to attend an important meeting.”

“Really? I wish to see him now.”

“He will be here in the evening. Oh, I should call the doctor now. Rest my dear, ill be back.”

My back is aching so bad. How long did I sleep?

A bit later,my mother came in with the doctor. He examines me carefully, a doctor in training I guess. He check my pulse and my pressure and write in his file once in a while when checking me.

“Do you have any discomfort or pain somewhere miss?”

“My back aches a bit? Is that common?”

“Yes it is because you have sleep for 4 days. It will get better after you walk and exercise a bit. Ah,do you feel something weird with your head? Like dizzy or something?”

“I think no.”

“If that is the case,I think you are doing great now.”

He then say something to my mother. He smiles and walk away.

“Dear, u have recover fully. The doctor says that If nothing is wrong,you can be discharge tomorrow. Im so happy. Do you want anything to drink? Eat maybe? You must be very hungry right Shinnie?”

“No mom,im fine. I just need water. And mom, can I have a shower? Im feeling very uneasy now.”

“Oh is it? Ill ask the nurse first alright dear.”

Im glad that the IV drip had been removed from my hand and I can shower. My memory about the accident didn’t cross my mind at all. Im curious about that,then I ask my mother.

“Mom,why I cant remember about the accident?”

“Ah, I think it is because you pass out right after the car approach you. Try ask Minho later ok dear.”

“Yes mom. But what is the date today? “

“Its 24th November dear. Why?”

“Nothing mom,im just curious about it.”

24th November. This is the precious date i've been celebrating in happiness and sadness. I missed him so much. I cannot even visit his grave as there is none. God,why me? That thought always lingering in my mind. The thought that ive lost him, yes lost him forever. Not because he is with someone else, but it is because he is no longer alive, no longer in this beautiful world. Tears falling from my eyes. I miss him so much.

Yonghwa’s confession yesterday really makes my heart beat faster. I don’t know what is the meaning of that but I really miss Jae oppa right now. How I wish he is right next to me right now. But I know its impossible. I wait for two years. Wishing a miracle will come so that he appear in front of me looking absolutely fine. When the police officer said that they cant trace the victims faces really break my heart into pieces.

The flashback when I first met him 7 years ago suddenly appear in my mind.