imin pov~

I wasn't alone. When I, well my imaginary self, walked in I was confronted with JB. What was he doing in my house? He fell back on my bed sighing deeply. I walked closer to him. "What do you want JB?" I muttered knowing he couldn't hear me. I notice he tensed up it was like... He knew I was there. I saw him close his eyes and suddenly his tears began to fall. I never thought I'd see the great JB cry. Nobody was here so why was he trying to make people feel pity for him when there's nobody around? He took a deep breath like he was about to say something.

"Jimin. You're not here. You won't hear this either. When you wake up you'll hate me more than anyone and everyone else will too." But I don't hate you JB I don't hate anybody.

"They might even try to hurt me like I hurt you. I'm ready for that, I want that. I will take any beating your friends give me. I deserve that and so much more." I don't want anybody getting hurt all I want is peace. Quiet.

"I can't make you forgive me. I won't make you forgive me because I don't deserve it. I don't deserve anything. Not friendship, not love, not care, not anything." Everyone deserves those things. Without them we go....crazy. 

"Jin is the only one who can even stand to look at me and you know more than anybody that Jin will forgive everyone." He's always been that way. He sees the good in everyone no matter what happens.

"I tried to kill myself yesterday. I was stupid but I think I finally understood what I've been doing to you all these years. Standing on that step with that rope in my hand was the most mind corrupting event of my life." The last thing I want is for someone to get hurt like I did. JB may not be the best but once it's over it's over. You can't come back from that. It took a lot for me to learn that. Maybe JB needs to learn too.

"I could've ended it right then and there. You could've ended it right then and there. I could've ended you right then and there." But you didn't JB. You're stronger than you think you are. I don't think you're the bad guy JB. I think you understand pain just as much as me. I think you just took a different approach is all.

"I finally understand the pain I've caused you. For years I sat in my room waiting for my dad to get home so that the beatings would be over. For years I waited by that door hoping one day mom would come back. I didn't realize how much of a monster that made me. I thought I didn't care but after seeing all the times I hurt you and made you feel probably worse than me, it was because of the pain I cause I wanted to shove it off on other people. I did this." You may have done it. But it was just because you didn't know how to deal with your pain. I never knew you had such a hard time at home. Maybe.... I could've helped you. We could've been friends. Help eachother.

"I'm no better than the family I tried so hard not to become. And if I could do it all over again I would've never once laid a finger on you. Who knows , maybe I would've became your best friend. I messed up, I messed up so much. I'm so sorry. So so sorry." I accept your apology JB. You were just scared. I'll always be here if you need help, if you want help.

He stayed quiet for a few moments and I sat beside him. "Jimin....," He muttered under my breath," please come back to me. I need your help. I need it so much."

I'll give you the help you need JB. I promise. I'm here. I'll always be here.

Closing my eyes I gasped. All I remember is seeing a white light. And the beeping of machines on my side. I was awake.